Disclaimer- I don't own Kingdom Hearts.

Author's Note- I really like this chapter for some reason. It just... works. I wrote the last chapter of this last night, and I'm so not even close to that far in writing, but it's nice to have it written, and know how this'll end. (I almost always write endings at the beginning.)

Enjoy.


Febuary 24th, 2012

Dear Riku,

Kairi said something to me, and it got me thinking. She said that at least this way, with the Heartless to fight, I'm not spending all my time hung up on mourning you.

It was the way she said it, it was so bitter, and so sad, and it made me realize, that despite how dependant on her I'd become, I completely took her for granted, like we did when we first came home.

After you disappeared, Kairi seemed like she was the only remotely normal thing I had left to cling on to, but then I think I forgot about her all over again. I think she hates that I'm still holding onto my memories of you, while she moved on already, she got used to the idea of never seeing you again. I didn't, and I don't think I ever will.

It's been so long.

I think that sometimes, she regrets never deciding to move on from me, too.

In a way, I am glad that I have something to do now, I'm glad that I have something to distract me from missing you. I have something to make me forget, just for a moment, that it's been almost two and a half years since you disappeared, and there has been no sign of you, ever. That's such a long time, but sometimes it still feels fresh, and it hurts like it did when you first disappeared even though it's old, and I know that I shouldn't still be holding onto your memory like this.

You know, sometimes I think that I regret not trying to make it work with Kairi, who knows, I could have been happy, and I could have moved on from you. It would have made her happy, I know that. I know that it's what she's been wanting, what she's been waiting for, but I can't give it to her, and I regret that. I regret that I can't make her happy.

I can't make everyone happy, you were the one who taught me that. I can't make everyone happy, even though sometimes, when she'll look at me almost like you used to, I feel so tempted to try, just for a chance to let go of you.

But then I'll think of how we were together, I'll remember how your hands felt in my hair, or how your eyes felt on me when you looked at me that way, and I'll know that I made the right choice, I'll know that if there's even the smallest chance that I'll see you again, I will always take it.

Because I need you.

Love,

Sora


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