Author's Note (Monster): Hello, our lovelies! This is the first post of Crazy April. Yes, I know it's the 3rd of April but to make it all up, I'll be posting the first two days of May as well. Now is the moment to request everything to your heart's content as I'm running out of requests so go ahead, throw your OTPs into the reviews for me! Replies to the reviews below, enjoy!
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I need space
I couldn't describe how those three little words squeezed every last bit of air out of my lungs as all hell broke loose. I broke down completely when he dropped that bomb. He was breaking up with me. The words left a bitter taste in my mouth. No, not a bitter taste. They burned my tongue and made me desperate to wash them off my tongue. I didn't want this. I never asked for this break up. He promised he'd be there for me forever. He promised me he loved me. I couldn't help but feel betrayed as it seemed like he lied to me.
After that conversation, he promised he'd return to me. He assured me he still loved me and I believed him. It had to be true. He'd never lie, right? But then again, he lied to me about staying together forever. It stung but I could understand. It must've be hard for him.
That happened three months ago. It took forever to get this far. Day in and day out I kept thinking about calling him. Calling him to ask him how he was doing. How we were doing. He broke up with me with the space excuse when the tour ended so we didn't get to see each other as much anymore. It meant I actually had to ask him to meet up in order to get to see him. I couldn't do that. There was no way I could get him to meet up with me. After a few futile attempts to reconnect with him through text messages and phone calls, I gave up. I decided to do something with myself and my family. I saw my brothers and mother after a long time again.
Unfortunately, they noticed something was bothering me.
"Jordon, you're so quiet. Where are the jokes?" Jake asked me, a worried frown in his features as he handed me a beer.
I shrugged. "I uh… I gotta tell you guys something but I don't really know how."
Mother put some snacks on the table for us and took a seat, Jesse right next to her. "What is it?"
I could feel my stomach twist in a knot. "I'm gay."
A moment of silence washed over us and I felt a dreadful feeling rise in my chest. You're worthless. Why did you tell them?
"That explains all the gay jokes. Who was it? Matt?"
"What?"
"Who made you gay?" Jesse asked with a smirk. "Was it Matt?"
"No", I sighed relieved. "George did. I fell pretty hard for him."
"So the item jokes weren't a joke?" mother asked with a smile and I felt so accepted, I could cry. "No, they weren't but we broke up. We broke up two weeks ago."
Jake put an arm around my shoulder. "Did you love him?"
"I still love him."
"Then don't give up just yet", he offered.
That was the hardest conversation in my life but after two weeks of crying for Johnny to come back, I needed to hear them accept me before I could move on from the hurt Johnny left in my heart by breaking up with me. I spent the next months doing everything I could to get myself ready to see Johnny again. He didn't talk to me all this time and it hurt but I tried to remember it was for a greater good. He needed to make things right for himself. Be a father. Be a father before he'd be ready to be my boyfriend again.
Three months after the break up we were supposed to perform somewhere again. We were about to head out for the tour again. I would see Johnny again and he wouldn't be able to avoid me. He'd lose his space again. It made me worry if I might push him away like that.
The night before we would meet up again in a bus, I got a phone call.
"Hello?"
"Jordon?"
"Yeah…"
"Hey", came the tired voice of Johnny. My heart stopped. I didn't dare breath. It felt like a childhood memory when it would start snowing and my mum would tell me to be as quiet as possible in order not to chase away the snow. Snow was so rare where we lived. I'd be really quiet, barely daring to breath. It seemed like one of those moments. Don't make a sound or you'll chase him away.
"Hey."
I made a sound.
Don't make him disappear.
When he didn't speak, I cursed myself for saying anything. I chased him away, just like the snow!
"We're leaving for another tour tomorrow."
"I know."
"We'll be seeing each other 24/7 again."
"I know", I whispered, afraid of what he'd tell me next. Would he cancel the tour because he didn't want to be with me? "How have you been?"
"Fine. Better. I've been a father these past three months. I got everything sorted out with Asia so we won't fight over our daughter anymore."
He's doing better without me. He doesn't need me.
"Great."
"How are you?"
Are you still upset over the break up? He didn't ask me that but he might as well have asked me that. "I've been better."
"Charlie… I…"
"It's ok", I said before I could hold back.
"It's not. I don't wanna have this conversation tomorrow when the others are with us. I need to talk to you now. I wanna see you tonight."
"It's ten fucking pm, Johnny…"
"I don't care. I need to see you."
The demanding tone sent shivers down my spine and made a spark of hope light up in my chest as I asked: "Can you come over?"
"I can. I'll be there in ten."
Those were the longest ten minutes of my life. When the doorbell rang, I was standing by the door, trying not to look too desperate but I knew I was failing miserably. I opened the door right away and saw him standing there, hands in his pockets, apologetic smirk on his face, hat covering his hair. He changed. He hadn't shaved and the beginning scruff on his chin made him more attractive but even more, he lost some weight. He trained. His biceps were bulging. Three months and I still felt like wrapping my arms around him and never letting go. "Hey."
"Hi."
He got in, took his shoes off because he knew I didn't like a dirty floor but when he stood in front of me on his socks again, I couldn't handle the anticipation and hugged him. I let my head rest against his chest with a sigh and he let me. He rested both arms on my shoulders and sunk his nose into my hair. "Not talking to you was the hardest thing I ever did."
"I missed you."
"I missed YOU", Johnny murmured. "I'm sorry for breaking your heart like that but you need to know it-…"
I covered his mouth with my hand, eyes connected to his as I said: "I forgive you."
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HUshipper: I'm curious. Which other stories made it into your top 5 Love Drabbles?
HU4LIFEBITCHES: Sorry to fuck with your fear like that but I was in a very bad mood when I wrote it. I finished your Trans request as well. You'll see it online in the next few days. I don't know the order of the fics yet but I know I'm updating every single day from now on. It'll be tough since I only finished 12 fics yet.
ZeroPerfection: I hate it when that happens. I usually get stuck when a bad chapter kills the story's buzz. It happened a few times in Riddle Me This and Push And Pull, though they're back on track now. I don't really have any stories stuck anymore, just focusing on one-shots for now. Don't feel sorry about long comments, I adore them.
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