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Ch56: Insurmountable
JPOV
"Jasper can you join me in my office?" Carlisle asked.
This was it! This is the part when Carlisle realizes how insane i am and kicks me out- the part where I have to kill them all, where I have to kidnap Bella again- where she hates Me!
Calm down.
okay...
"I'll be there in a second." I said in a monotone voice.
At least the boy isn't here to overhear any punishment I may be receiving.
As I walked into the office for the first time I realized that Carlisle's study was a shrine to intellectual pursuits- and it made me uncomfortable. Such extravagance would never work in an encampment.
"Please have a seat." Carlisle gestured to an arm chair. I was acting completely calm while i was feeling like the world was collapsing around me. "You and Edward seem to keep having problems."
"So it would seem."
"Are you teasing him in your mind?" Carlisle asked completely straightforward. It was one of the aspects of Carlisle i appreciated.
"Sometimes, nothing too extreme." I admitted.
Nothing too extreme? Nothing too extreme! Yes all the shit i went through- all those flashbacks weren't 'too extreme'-
"Hmm, I see. Well please stop that. Things are tense enough around here as is." Carlisle leaned back in his chair in a very relaxed manner that contrasted with his actual tense emotions. "I've heard many rumors about your time during the Southern Wars, none of them ever specified your gift. You don't have to tell me if you don't want to, but I am curious about your gift, assuming that you have one."
I sighed and i just shook my head, feeling completely exhausted.
"my 'gift' as you put it, is a tactical weapon as well as a constant annoyance." I said vaguely, piquing Carlisle's interest. "If someone is in my range-" no, no, no! Don't tell him! "which isn't all that far I can sense their emotions automatically. It's one of the reasons i wanted to stop killing. i'm tired of feeling the fear fills up humans right before death." I paused, letting Carlisle take that information in.
"You said it was a weapon…"
"Though I refrain from actively doing so i can manipulate these emotions, amplifying them or twisting them into a different feeling. In battle I used to flush the enemies with mixtures of emotions putting them off balance and sometimes completely stunning them." I chuckled, thinking about the many times my gift had saved Me. "And before you ask I only used it once on Bella when I was kidnapping her. I haven't manipulated anyone since then." With my gift at least.
"I see. That's a rather interesting gift."
"Though it has its uses in helping Me stay alive it has burdened me with the memory of insurmountable negative emotions of those around me during my years of war." I stood up. "Unless there is anything else I'm going for a hunt." When he didn't respond I left.
So once again Jasper has an eloquent answer to a complicated issue. What do you think?
