Just...just read...and...know that I'm terribly, TERRIBLY SORRY for...well, you'll see...
It was nearly four in the morning. The sun hadn't even risen yet. So why was he awake? It was completely illogic to the young genius. He had been up until at least eleven last night, thanks to the troublesome blond snuggled beside him. He should have been too exhausted to wake up at this ungodly hour. Nonetheless he was awake, and it didn't look like he was going to be falling back to sleep anytime soon.
What else seemed unlikely, were his chance at escaping his lover's embrace. The slightly tanned arm was wrapping around him securely, like an unconscious gesture to protect him. So instead of risking waking up his boyfriend, the brunet just closed his eyes and let his mind wander.
He felt so strange this morning. Something was…different. He didn't wake up with that instant pang of fear and guilt that would usually dissolve when he registered his beloved's arm –or sometimes arms, or leg, or legs, or legs and arms, or leg and arm, or…- wrapped around him. He woke up feeling…nothing; just that natural discombobulated feeling that came with waking up.
It'd been a while since he'd woken up like that; as if he hadn't gone through what he had. Maybe it was just time to move on. After all, it had been nearly a year since it happened. Standard, right?
Those last thoughts made him smile as he realized what they meant. Maybe it was time to move on. Time to finally get on with his life. Be happy. Enjoy every moment to its fullest without the ever present paranoia tugging at the corner of his mind.
Maybe it was time to get some peace. He glanced at the clock.
5:57AM
And more importantly, it was time to go back to sleep.
Thump-thump. Thump-thump. Thump-thump. Thump-thump. Thump-thump…
He stirred in his sleep as he heard his soul mate's heartbeat moving further away from him. He stirred again, groaning at the loss of warmth. It wasn't, however, enough to fully rouse him from his sleep.
"LOGIE! WAKE UP!"
That, however, was. Logan sat up straight in shock…at least, he was supposed to. Kendall had been leaning over his face and when the startled brunet sat up, their heads collided painfully. They both groaned at the fading pain in their foreheads.
"Kendaaaaall! Why'd you decide wake me up like that?" The blond just smirked at him. "Sorry, Logie. Just really excited."
Logan stopped rubbing his head and smiled at the blond beside him. Maybe this was the reason why he felt so different. Today was special. "Happy anniversary, Kendall," he said playfully as he captured his lover's face in his hands and leaned in for a sweet kiss. It was short, but full of love. Even after their lips pulled away, their foreheads continued to lean against each other. Kendall just stared into Logan's eyes as the smaller of the two shyly averted his gaze, opting for caressing his face and playing with the corners of the blond's mouth.
"Happy anniversary, beautiful." Logan finally looked up at Kendall's words. Kendall continued, "Get up. It's already two in the afternoon."
"WHAT?" Kendall smirked as the smaller boy fell back and covered his eyes with his hands. Logan hated sleeping in. It made him feel lazy.
"Don't worry about it. We were up pretty late," Logan could practically hear the smirk in Kendall's tone, "Besides, if my mom hasn't woken us up by now then she probably isn't mad that we slept in either."
He looked down at Logan when he was met with silence again. The brunet was still laying there with his hands over his face. He playfully dragged him up again until he was sitting…well, more like slumping. "What's wrong?"
Logan smiled tiredly –despite having slept over twelve hours- and said, "Nothing. Just thinking that we wasted a lot of our anniversary."
Kendall smiled. "Don't worry. We won't be doing anything until later on, anyway. We're all going to that thing, remember?"
Logan chuckled at Kendall as he steered the car. The blond had taken off his seatbelt and got on his knees to get a better look out the window he was leaning against. The blond couldn't believe they were pulling into Warner Bro. Studios!
"I can't believe we're actually going to meet her!" Kendall exclaimed again, his butt wiggling slightly.
Logan smirked that slanted smirk again. "I can't believe you, of all people, watch the Ellen DeGeneres show. It's more of a mom thing, don't you think?"
"Hey! She's hilarious! AND she has some pretty hot guests on her show! Jessica Biel, Anne Hathaway, the Beckhams, Ryan Reynolds…JAKE GYLLENHAAL!" (1)
Logan stomped on the brake and despite the slow speed they were going at, Kendall slammed sideways into the dashboard. "Kidding! She's just funny!"
Logan smirked and continued driving until he parked right next to Mama Knight's van.
"LOGIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIE! KENDAAAAAAALL! HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!" Not a second after they opened the door to their dressing room, Carlos has pounced and was now on top of the two of them on the ground in the doorway. For a little guy, he sure packed a punch. His helmet seemed to act like some sort of placebo-type energy booster.
"Carlos…" They both groaned.
And that's it...I'm sorry. I just can't finish it. I know what I want to happen. I just can't bring myself to sit down and write it. I sit down...and suddenly I'm upset. I just can't write this. No, it's not because I'm afraid of ending it. I just...can't FEEL it anymore. I won't write something I can't FEEL. Sorry. I'll just give you the basic rundown of what was supposed to happen.
BTR interview with Ellen. Ellen is as funny and lesbian as ever. Cracks jokes at herself, the boys, and her audience. Gives away the second album to the audience. Gets serious and talks about gay bashing and how not cool it is.
They all go to a nice fancy dinner for Kendall and Logan's anniversary. Cake, laughs, etc. Kendall goes out to the car and brings a letter he forgot to give to Logan. It's from Adam. Adam is fine. He's travelling the world and trying to find himself just as the therapist said he needed to do. He's getting better with his father issues and all that. Wishes Kendall and Logan the best, yada yada yada.
Kendall and Logan drive off separately and Kendall surprises Logan with a picnic of desserts. in front of the second L in the HOLLYWOOD sign. Kendall further surprises Logan with a painting he did on the L saying "Kendall and Logan, Forever and Always" surrounded by a heart. It's in a special paint you can only see if you really look for it.
Logan realizes just how much he and Kendall love each other and he's ready for Kendall to top him for the FIRST TIME! They have passionate sex...which is EXTREMELY painful for Logan at first. Then it gets good. Sex, sex, more sex.
I love you's. I love you's. Happy ending.
The end.
Sorry.
(1) Jake Gyllenhaal is my hubbie. JK...but how amazing would that be?
Hopefully my future stories won't have this crappy ending. Yeah, I'll be writing more stories! Hope you guys check them out. They won't involve rape this time. Which reminds me...thank you 'miSSmeliSS1324124' for not minding (or at least not verbally minding) that I completely ripped off her Silent Cries series...
Also, thank you to everyone who reviewed. You guys are amazing.
Speaking of other stories...Ranorexic! Make up your mind! :D
Again, sorry.
