Girl Behind The Red Door Confessions

Chapter 56

Solitude is the profoundest fact of the human condition. Man is the only being who knows he is alone."

Deb sat on her bed. Looking around her room. Karen would be at her door any minute now. And she knew that Karen knew her to well she would be able to sense something being off so instead of trying to conceal it she would tell her and make her promise to keep it to herself. Hearing the knock on the front door. Sent Deb quickly walking out of her room and down the stairs. Taking a breath as she opened the door.

"Deb it's been too long." Karen said. Leaning over as she hugged her tightly.

Deb hugging her back. Holding back her tears. As the old friends eventually pulled apart. Karen walking inside the home. Deb closing the door behind her. While the walked into the kitchen.

"I bought tea, pastries, and movies that remind of us a much simpler time."

Karen said. Smiling. As she placed down the food and got out the tea kettle from the drawer.

"Karen, I can do all of that." "You are my guest after all." Deb said. Taking the tea kettle from her.

"You pick which movie we watch first." Deb said. As she put the kettle on the stove and opened the box of pastries. The aroma of the fresh fruit and chocolate to delicious to ignore.

"I'm thinking in the mood for any of these." "So, you pick." Karen said back to her.

"Before we do any of this I have to tell you something." Deb said. Looking over at her.

"Okay let's sit down." Karen said. Taking her hand. The two women walking together to the couch.

Deb sat down taking a deep breath before she spoke.

"I need you to promise me that you won't tell anyone." "Not Keith, Lucas, especially not Nathan the minute he knew he would be over here insisting I come stay with him and his family and I don't want to do that to him." "To make him feel obligated to me." Deb said. Looking back at her.

"Deb I promise now what is going on.?" Karen asked concern in her voice.

"I have an enlarged heart and it puts too much strain on my body to keep pumping the blood it needs on a daily basis." "The doctor said eventually I will simply go to sleep and not wake up." "I'm okay I've digested the news and shock of it all." "I'm making the most of my time." Deb said.

Karen leaned over hugging her. Wiping her tears as they pulled apart.

"You don't have to go through this alone." "You have me, Keith, Nathan, the rest of our family." "I already told you I want no one to feel responsible for me I can take care of myself." Deb said to her.

"I just want to be treated normally." Deb said as she handed her a movie.

"Casablanca there are no bad parts to that movie." Deb said.

Karen nodded her smiling softly. As she put the movie in. And brought over the pastries for them to share.

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Eventually making it back home. Glenda looked over at the empty space in driveway. Angry at herself for how she acted she didn't mean to implode like that bringing up all those less than happy memories. Closing the door behind her. Sam wasn't here. The last time she had seen her sister so upset she was yelling at their mother. To think they were alike in anyway freighted her. Going up the stairs to her bedroom as she shut the door laid down on her bed. And looked up at the ceiling. Seeing his face just brought it all back for her.

Her eyes glancing over a picture of herself and Madison that hung on the wall.

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"Sawyer, you can tell me anything." "You know that I love you." Jamie said. Taking her hands in his.

"I've been thinking about how to tell you for hours now."

"I thought I was pregnant and was ecstatic because I know what an incredible father you would be and excited for myself." "But I got confirmation that I wasn't and would never be." Sawyer said. Wiping her eyes. "I'm sorry." She said. Her voice thick with emotion.

"That changes nothing for us." "We can and will have a family someday." Jamie said to her.

"We've been everything this will only make us stronger." "With or without babies we are going to be together for the rest of our lives." Jamie said. Wrapping his arms around her tightly.

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