Chapter 41 New History
As the night-time darkness and shadows disappeared and the morning light flooded in through the window in Meredith's room, neither of the sleeping bodies stirred. They remained wrapped round one another, her head tucked in between his jaw and his chest, and one arm wrapped around him, his own head resting precariously on top of hers as his arms engulfed her sleeping frame. They hadn't moved all night long, they had remained in their safe cocoon, together.
For the first time in over 48 hours each of them had fallen asleep, relaxed and happy to be back in the familiar place they felt at ease – the arms of one another.
Downstairs two more familiar figures sat brooding over coffee in the kitchen.
'I'm telling you Shepherds here.' Alex said as he sat facing Cristina, his head in his hands nursing a tequila hangover.
'What makes you so sure?' Cristina asked as she poured herself another cup of coffee, desperate for the caffeine hit to kick in, she hated tequila, yet Mer had needed tequila buddies and of course, they had stepped up.
'I was up early, went for a run to try and clear this José head I seem to have attached to my own and when I came to make a drink there were two coffee cups in the sink,' he pointed out.
'That doesn't prove anything, I could have got up in the night and had a drink, and so could Mer.'
'Did you?'
'Did I what?'
'Get up in the middle of the night and have a drink?'
'Well no...But...I should have done, it might have helped this cloud that's fogging my brain!'
'No buts OK for once I'm right, man I wish we had bet on this.'
'You don't know you are right, I could walk into Mer's room right now and she could be alone.'
'Or you could walk in on her and Shepherd asleep – we could make this interesting, a wager between friends, Mer would never need to no!'
'Ass...No!' she squealed as she placed her head into her hands, alarmed at her own high pitch shriek vibrating down her ear drums.
'Because you know I'm right!'
'Even if you were right, what would it matter, they have been joined at the hip the past couple of months and he is always here anyway.'
'But Joes, the eye sex across the bar...the saving him from the silicone explosion.'
'Alex I would have even saved your ass if you had to endure the torture of the trailer trash Barbies...I might have had you wait a bit longer, but I'd have still saved your ass. It's what friends do. Mer and Derek are friends. You and I are friends.'
'Firstly who says I would have wanted rescuing... and secondly you heard Mer last night, she changed her tune when I pointed out a few home truths to her, for the first time in such a long time there was a look in her eye that she would consider it, she would consider taking a risk with Derek, I think she took that risk and if she did then it's the bravest thing she has done in a long time. She admitted her feelings last night, to herself, if not Derek...'
'That still doesn't prove he is here!'
'It would be more surprising if he wasn't...'
Cristina wasn't sure how to respond to that, Alex was right. It would be surprising if he wasn't here, he was here a lot, in fact the couple of days he wasn't here the house had seemed different, Meredith had been different, there was no sparkle in her eye, and she had lost some of her get up and go...she had missed him.
So really the only reason for him not to be here now was if last night had gone terribly, if meredith had ran, or decided she couldn't do it...or if she had done it, if she had worn her heart on her sleeve and he didn't respond, if he had said he couldn't wait...she made a promise to herself to personally track him down with a scalpel if he had done anything to upset her...and then feed him his testicles on a plate...
'What are you smirking at?'
'Testicles; she laughed as she stood up from the table and poured two coffees and headed for the door.
'Whoa where are you going?'
'To settle this once and for all. Two coffees. If he is in there then I will say ones for each of them...if he isn't then one each for Meredith and I and we will plan an attack to get those balls.' She cackled as she headed upstairs.
Alex winced and found himself praying for Derek's safety that he was up there. The anticipation was too much so he ran after Cristina and by the time she reached the top step he had caught her up.
'You can't just barge in there, it would be weird, and you have no reason to? I mean what if it went really well and they are...I don't want to see Mer naked.'
'When did you become the voice of reason...sensitive advice last night. You don't want to see Mer's ass but what Derek's is ok? Are you gay?' she spat as she winked at Alex.
'I know a way I can prove that I'm not.' He shot back with as much flirtation as he dared raise in front of cristina...he didn't want his own balls on a plate...
'well I did always want to dissect a wiener...'
'Then you'd be looking in the wrong place. You're just scared you might enjoy it..' he laughed as he left Cristina in the hall way staring at Meredith's door, her own cheeks now flushed from the sheer stupidity of his suggestion...it was stupid...right...
'Man I need to get laid...and not by karev...Cristina Yang you do not want to be laid by Alex Karev...you just need to be laid, period!
Suddenly the door burst open and Cristina jumped as she came face to face with a half naked Derek.
'Did you just say you don't want to be laid by Karev' he laughed as he took in the confused look on her face.
'What...you heard...crap...'
'I always wondered about you two.' Meredith joked from the bed, wrapped in the duvet.
'Wondered what? I have never and will never let his penis anywhere near me, not unless he wants to be eating it out of a hot dog bun... what were you two doing anyway listening in on other peoples conversations?'
'You weren't exactly quiet, we have been laid here a good few minutes listening to the show...It was better than Jerry, Oprah...' Meredith smiled as she took in her friends' mood.
'What I came up here to say...or do...was to give you coffee. I figured you might need them especially as the tequila fairy was more than present last night 'she smiled at Mer 'and as for you, I'm assuming you numbed the pain of tweedle dumb and tweedle dee with alcohol...so coffee, you definitely need coffee..' she sighed as she handed over the two cups in her hands as she sulked back out of the room.
Alex was right, 100% right...about Meredith and Derek...nothing else.
'That was odd' Derek sighed as he sat himself back down on the bed next to Meredith, his back resting on the head board.
'Yeah...it was.' Meredith replied as she held out her own coffee to Derek so she could sit up and not spill any.
'Good morning...again.' she smiled as she placed a small, delicate kiss to his cheek before allowing her senses to be overrun by the aroma the coffee was revealing.
'Good morning.' he whispered as he placed his own coffee on the side and turned his body slightly to face Meredith's, his head rested on his left hand as his right hand laced fingers with hers. 'How did you sleep?'
'Before or after you got in?' she smiled before continuing 'perfectly, best few hours...thank you.'
'For what?'
'Being more than a pillow' she laughed as he took her coffee out of her free hand and placed it to join his on the side before running his free hand through her hair, along her cheek, and running his thumb along her bottom lip, his eyes focused on the one place his lips desperately wanted to go.
'I can be anything you want me to be.' He smiled as he leant forwards and exchanged his thumb for his lips, softly caressing her lower lip between his own, sucking softly on her pout, her own mouth opening slightly encouraging him to deepen the meeting of their lips, once again a meeting half way of two lost souls who had found each other.
Meredith moaned as Derek ran his fingers along her side and pulled her closer to him, the electricity radiating through their bodies with every touch, their lips never losing contact as her t shirt clad breasts came to rest on his chest, their hips meeting together, as her legs entangled with his, his arousal evident to Meredith as he grew harder nestled into her thigh. Their tongues exploring each others, her own tongue battling with his for an escape as she began to press small kisses along his jaw and down his neck before showering his collar bone in beautiful little kisses, a move that had Derek moaning like no kiss had ever before.
'We have to stop' he whispered as Meredith ran her fingers through his dark mane, before placing a small kiss to his forehead. 'We have to stop if this is going to work, we said slowly, and that's exactly what we will do. I have too much respect for you to rush this.'
'Thank you' she whispered as she nestled herself into the crook of his arm, her fingers tracing the hair that covered his chest. 'Thank you for not pushing, and for reminding me to keep my feet on the ground. Slow is good, slow is us...'
'and at some point soon in the future, slow will be incredible...' he smiled as he wrapped his arms around her and pulled her even closer, his own heart beat feeling like it was echoing around the room.
Some people believe that without history, our lives amount to nothing. At some point we all have to choose: do we fall back on what we know, or do we step forward to something new? It's hard not to be haunted by our past. Our history is what shapes us… what guides us. Our history resurfaces time after time after time. So we have to remember sometimes the most important history is the history we're making today
