Chapter 50

" What do you need to know? "

" Tell us what happened the night your mother died. " Said Gibbs, Tony getting a recording device from his pocket and putting on the desk from the bed, turning it on.

" I was home, me and my mother we were on the living room. I heard a noise in the kitchen. I went to look and I saw... " She took a breath, and look from the agents to the window. " I saw that Johnathan was there. He was holding a... a knife. "

She stopped talking and was trying to keep her breath steady. The last days had brought up a lot of memory and feelings that she had buried fo a long time. Bobby placed his hands on her shoulder.

" I'm sorry. " She took a deep breath and reminded herself that, the quicker she spoke, the quicker she could be with her kids and away from the feds.

" Don't apologize. It's a sign of weakness. " Said Gibbs, she looked at him like he had grown a second head.

" He had a knife. He said he would make all our problems and went to living room. I, I didn't tried to stop him. Or tried to warn her. I just followed him. I don't know why. "

" My mother yelled when she saw him, asked who he was, what he was doing there. He, just raised the knife, pointing it at her. And said that she had to pay. She had come between us and she didn't deserve me, that only he could have me. He was so calm. He didn't yell. "

" They fought for a bit, or better, she tried to run from him, but couldn't. She yelled at me, at him. For me to run away, for him to leave. I, I just stood there. Doing nothing. "

" When he hit her and she went down I yelled at him. Told him no, for him to stop. She was on the floor, a bit out of it. I ran to her, knelt next to her. He pushed me away. And he bent down and held her on the floor. And he, he... " She closed her eyes, the images running through her mind. Her mother on the floor, Johnathan on top of her, knife on his hands. She was close, she could have done something. Tears threaten to fall, but she managed to stop them from falling.

" Do you need a break? " Asked Tony.

She shook her head.

" No! I want to get this done with. " She opened her eyes, and looked at her hands, that were folded on top of her. " He stabbed her. I ran at her again, begging him to stop. He stood and swung his arm, the knife caught me and I stumbled back. He said that he had to do it. She could not be in his way. And then when the police saw that I had killed her, I would be with him forever. He stabbed her again. He was smiling, he was stabbing her and smiling. "

She ran her hands through her hair, ignoring the pain that came from her ribs.

" I looked at the wall, and I just grabbed the painting and hit his head with it, as hard as I could. He wet down, unconscious. I checked on my mother, but it was too late. I just stood there for a while. Then I just grabbed a few things and left, before he could wake up, and didn't looked back. " She looked at the two agents. " That's it. "

" Why did you run? " Asked Tony, trying to not make the question sound like an accusation. From the way she looked away from him and tensed, he saw that he was not succesful.

" I panicked. And it's not like anyone would believe me instead of him anyway. Everybody just loves him, and I'm the freak. And I saw that he was wearing gloves. And... " She bit her lips and looked at the ceiling. " I saw his eyes, when he was... stabbing her. He had been angry at me before, but the look in his eyes. Madness is the only way to described it. I couldn't... I just had to get away. " She looked at Bobby that squeezed her shoulder reassuringly. " Are we done here? My kids are going to get here any moment know. "

" Just a few more questions. What was the nature of your relationship with Miller? " Asked Gibbs.

" Why does it matter? I said what happened that night. " She said, glaring at them. " You ask about that night and about now when he took the kids. I'll answer, the rest, I don't belive it's relevant, or any of your business. " She sighed. " Sorry, didn't mean to be disrespectful. "

" That's okay. " Said Gibbs, he looked at Tony, and gave him a look that meant ' humour her for now'.

" How about when your kids went missing? " Asked Tony.

She told them what happened from that morning on, leaving out of her statement Sam's hacking, Dean checking the crime scene, pretty much everything that wasn't staying in the motel waiting for Bobby.

" Then Dean and Bobby showed up. That is all. "

" I know you're not comfortable talking about it, but we need you to talk about your relationship with Miller. We need motive. "

" You want motive? I'll give you motive. " She was angry, she was tired and had been talking for a while. And worse, she still had not seen her kids. " It was my fault! I was supposed to meet with him. By I had to cancel, because my mother wanted to be with me that day. It was not the first time that week. He got angry. I ignored it, he was angry but I just assumed it would be okay. Because all I could think about was the fact that my mother wanted to be in my presence, that she looked at me without hate, or contempt. And it got her killed! "

She started yelling.

" I knew how bad he could be! How controlling, and I ignored it! He killed her because I was too stupid to see what was right in front of me! She died because I was with him to begin with. Because I was too weak, to blind and I let him in. I was blind to what he truly was! My mistakes got her killed! It would not have made a difference if I stabbed her myself! His hands or not is my fault! " The heart monitor was going crazy. " Are you happy?! Is this a good enough motive for you? He was nuts and I ignored it. Write that in your report. "

A nurse opened the door and walked in, a group of people observing from the doorway.

" That's enough! This patient needs rest! Out! "

Tony got the recorder and shut it off.

" I apologize, that was uncalled for. I believe you agents have everything you need, don't you? " Madeline was breathing hard, and she looked like she was having a hard time controlling her emotions.

" Yes, I believe we do. " Said Gibbs, he had decided that it would be best for all if they did not make her angrier that she already was, especially for McGee.

" Goodbye then. " She turned to the nurse and ignored the agents as they joined the group outside the door. " I apologize for my temper Miss, I hope that it didn't cause too much trouble. "

" Don't worry, we get all types here. "

" I would like to see my kids now. I know that visiting time is probably over, I would like them to be allowed in. " She gave the nurse the best ' puppy dog eyes ' she could master. Not surprising the woman gave in.

" Sure. I believe they are already outside. "