Chapter 52-If You Die, I Die

Embry's POV

My eyes are swimming with tears, this beautiful girl giving herself to me so willingly, so completely as I feel that familiar pressure in the atmosphere as one of the pack members imprints. I knew instantly that I could not be so lucky to imprint on Bella. Which lucky bastard is it this time? I wondered to myself. When I looked down into Bella's eyes, they were first filled with confusion and worry. But right before me they changed, her eyes overflowed with tears, but had a trace of certainty in them, love flowed through her although it was not aimed at me. She looks as though her mind is elsewhere, and at that moment I knew. I withdrew myself from her, leaving her naked form lying on the bed. Her lip twisted up at the corner, forming a sweet smile. Bella's eyes are dazed and she didn't seem to notice that I am even in the room, like nothing went on between us, like I am invisible. A voice inside my head screamed, "stop Embry, please...I am on my way back to your house, I will explain it all when I get there. I changed my mind, don't do anything... please, I know this sounds weird but I imprinted........on Bella!" With my back against the far wall, I slid down into a crouched position placing my elbows on my knees, and buried my face into my hands. What now? I mean I did what he asked of me, I can't take it back. A cold hand touched my shoulder and I raised my head to look at her. Her big beautiful brown eyes peered down at me through her long lashes. "Embry, I.........." Holding my hand up for her to stop, "not now Bella please, I know.......I know what happened, you don't have to explain."

"What do you mean Embry, what happened?" I looked at her again to make sure she isn't trying to be funny. Her eyebrows are pinched together signaling she is utterly confused. Could she honestly NOT know? "Bella...." I took her by the hand and led her to sit down on my bed. "Do you honestly not know what I am talking about?" She shook her head and her eyes began to fill up with tears obviously worried about what I have to tell her. "Don't cry Bella, everything will be okay. Listen, I know this is going to be a shock but Jacob is on his way back here. He has something very important that he needs to talk to you about." Bella stood up, pacing the floor in front of me. She threw her hands up in the air, "what could he want now, didn't I make it obvious that I needed this? Why can't he realize that he really screwed up, and I don't want to see him right now. When he comes, make him go away Embry. I am not finished with you yet, you promised." Bella came over to me and straddled my hips. My once spent erection, sprung to full attention again as her warm, wet skin made contact with my now throbbing member. I cannot let this get out of hand, I murmured to myself trying to will myself to have some self control. Before I could clear my mind, Bella had her opening over my tip, slamming her tight core down onto me. Tears streaked down my face as heavy pants ripped through my lungs, "Bella......stop.......I can't.........Jacob.......coming........please......." My words came out all jumbled and I am sure that she didn't understand a single word, or a word that she cared about at the moment. One word that I am sure would stop her in her tracks. "IM........PRI......PRINTED" It came out as a moan and a scream combined.

Bella stopped immediately, while still inside of her, she flung herself on my chest and began to sob. I wrapped my arms around her holding her close to me, breathing her in. "Bella, it is not the end of the world you know." She raised her head to look at me, "you imprinted on me Embry, I think that is a pretty big deal. Is that what I was feeling a few minutes ago?" I took her cheek into my hand, and now tears are streaming down my face. "Oh Bella, not me, how I wish it was me, but I'm sorry." "Wait, not you? But how? I mean who?" She looked away in deep thought, "No....no.........no, no, no! He couldn't, not now! Not after all of this." Bella still made no attempt to remove herself from me, things are starting to get a little uncomfortable with Jacob being on his way. I heard three loud raps on the door, it made Bella and I jerk, her eyes met mine and feeling her slide up my shaft for the last time, is like having something for a few moments in time and then have it snatched away from you. I watched her gather her clothes, and walk across my room. I made no attempt to find all of mine, I found my boxers and regrettably slid them on. Jacob would know anyway, there is no need to try and hide it. Before I answer the door I tried to shove my boner down so it is less noticeable, but my attempt is futile. I opened the door to find a rather excited Jacob, almost bouncing where he stood. I eyed his naked form and couldn't help but snicker. "Uhhhh....Jake...." I said looking down at his bouncing package. "Sorry Embry, didn't think to grab any clothes I couldn't get here fast enough. Where's Bella?" His eyes rove over me and took in the tent I had going on in my pants. "Sorry!" I said covering myself with my hands, "Bella is in the restroom, puting on her clothes. When I felt you imprint, it was already to late. I made love to her like you asked me too Jacob. Please don't be angry with me."

An unexpected smile slid across Jacob's face. "Embry, I asked you to do this and I am not mad. How could I be? Nothing in the world could make me mad right now. I have Bella, she is my imprint, she belongs to me now. I am the happiest person on the face of the earth right now." He should be ....the lucky fuck! "Jacob, she doesn't want to see you, she asked me to make you go away when you got here. What should I do?" Jacob's face became concerned in an instant, and then he smiled again. "Let me handle it Embry, you know when she sees me again she will not be able to resist. She will at least listen to me, give me a fair chance. When we get over this, we can start our life together. There will be no more questions for her, I will be her only choice. Just like their is no other for me, like a missing piece of the puzzle." Jacob slung his arms around me, and gave me one of his infamous bear hugs. "Sorry man!' He said coughing and removed himself quickly, sensing the awkwardness of the situation. The feeling of our naked bodies that close made me extremely uncomfortable. Seeing him naked is one thing, but feeling him naked is on the other side of the spectrum. Down right FREAKY! "Do you think I could borrow some shorts?" "Yeah sure, come on in I will go and get you some. Be right back!" I was hoping he wouldn't follow me into the room where Bella and I had made love a few minutes earlier. When I approached the door I could still smell her lingering in the air. Jacob is following close behind me, this is not unusual for him. After all, we are best friends and best friends go in each others rooms. It is just a little weird right now, seeing I made love to his girlfriend, and knowing he could her too.

When he entered my room he sat down in exactly the same spot I had sat in when Bella climbed on top of me. I know if I had a girlfriend, and my bestis friend had just made love to her I would be a little upset. I am just afraid Jacob will realize later the severity of it, or at least be uncomfortable with it.

JPOV

"She is really mad huh? I can't blame her, I acted like a royal ass. I will be trying to it up to her for as long as she lives if she will let me. She sure is taking a long time in the bathroom." My nerves are alive with fear, a fear that she will not accept me back into her life. The anticipation is killing me, I half ran down the hall to the bathroom. As I approached the door I heard the trickle of the shower, and listening carefully I can hear Bella's sobs. Hearing this made my own tears jerk in my eyes, and stream down my face. It is because of me, her hurting is all my fault. I leaned my forehead against the closed door, "Bella......." Bella drew in a deep breath, "go away Jacob." The pain in my chest threatened to rip through me. "I need to talk to you, can I come in? Please?" There was a brief silence, the only thing I can hear is an occasional sniff, and the the constant trickle of the shower. "No, I......I...don't...want...to...see....you....just go!" Bella said her words in between her giant sobs. "I'm not going anywhere Bella, I will be right here when you are ready to come out and talk to me." I could be here and slid down into a sitting position. I ran my fingers through my hair, missing the course my fingers use to take in my long hair. This hairstyle is so much easier to deal with but I have to say I miss it. The shower is off and I hear Bella's footsteps in the small room. She is not crying so hard anymore. "Please Bella, come out." "I can't do this anymore Jacob, the pain is just too much for one person to handle. I mean, just when I thought everything was going great you had to go and screw it all up. I thought if I found someone that I could loose myself in, it would make it all go away. But nothing helps, I went to Edward and he just had too many morals, so he was useless. But I think if he knew what you did to me Jacob, he would give me what I want, what I need. And the only thing I think would take the pain away is for him to turn me."

"Bella, you're joking right? I love you, I have imprinted on you, things can be good now. Give it a chance, give me a chance to make things right, we will be so good together. Please don't do this, just know if you do I will beg Edward to kill me, and I am sure he will. I will have no other reason to live, you are my only reason for existing. Don't you see? We are meant for each other, destined in a way. Two old souls that were joined before we were ever born. There is no other choice. If you die, I die." I heard Bella click the lock on the door, I got on my feet and waited anxiously for her to open it. I stared at the knob, hoping it would turn, it did and the door creaked open slowly. At first sight of Bella's face, beyond my control I fell to my knees in front of her wrapping my arms around her waist, holding on for dear life. The tears poured down my face and chest, she made no attempt to comfort me. Her hands and arms hung limply at her sides. "Please forgive me Bella, I can't live without you. I'm sorry, I'm so, so, sorry!" I looked up into her eyes, and they we're blank with no emotion, she stood there, lifeless. I got to my feet placing my hands on her shoulders, "Bella, say something, anything. Fight me, punch me in the face, cuss at me, do something for crying out loud." Bella's face is a blank canvas, she spoke to me with no emotion, no life. "I can't Jacob, not now!" "Don't you want to tell me how much you hate me, how you think I am a bastard for what I did to you? There has to be something you want to say to me Bella." She opened her mouth slightly, "will you do anything for me Jacob?" I nodded, "anything?" I nodded again. "Take me to Edward!"

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