Yesterday I talked to Axel. I had a whole list of things to say to him. Heck, I'd written a script (not to use, just to make sure I knew what I was and wasn't going to say)! But when the time came, he gave me this soft smile before I could even say anything. And I melted. I couldn't remember any of what I had mentally rehearsed and even worse, I don't think I wanted to say it anyway. So in the end, we ended up kissing again. It was in the stairs. I asked if we could talk after lunch, so we waited for everyone to be in class and before I could say a thing, his arm around my waist and mouth over my lips interrupted me. It was those passionate kinds of kisses that leave you lusting for more. Much like the one he'd given me on my birthday. Oh right… I should probably explain that. Okay. Here goes. So like I had said before, I snuck away to write my daily entry and when I got out of the bathroom, Axel was waiting for me. We just kind of talked a little. Then he had his hand up my shirt and his mouth over mine. He kind of tasted like alcohol and raspberries so I figured he was just drunk and that this kiss, like the other, meant nothing to him. He started playing with my nipple rings and whispered something about my lying about what piercings I had when we had first met. I tried really hard to keep from moaning, but I accidentally let it slip and when I did, he pressed his knee against my uh… thing. Then we kinda slid against the wall into the nearest room and he ended up shagging me. The next thing I knew, it was morning and I woke up (naked) in his bed. When I went down stairs I only found Riku and this boy who were making out in the kitchen. They told me everyone had gone to school and well, you know the rest of the story from there. I don't know if this was a passionate kind of sex or just a casual, I'm-drunk-so-lets-fuck sort of thing. I don't know what to think anymore. I'm going to bed.
