The next 48 hours was hell, Ella and Josh never left Landon's side. They would call home to see how Liam was doing, and he was just fine. Ben had gone home so Josh's mother could come down to the hospital to see them. She brought them some food, and fresh clothing.

Landon was now on a respirator as with the increased pressure that started late in the night before, was pressing on the part of his brain that controlled his breathing. Ella hadn't slept since he was admitted to the hospital. Josh tried to get her to go get some rest but she wouldn't. Josh dozed in the chair some; he got maybe twenty minutes of sleep.

Josh watched Ella talk to their son. She was so upset. She was so scared she was going to lose that little baby. The doctors kept telling them that only time will tell. They had just started a different type of medicine since the on previous didn't make any changes. Josh crossed the room and wrapped his arms around her from behind, kissing her head softly. He felt her to start to tremble; she had been crying a lot. He felt awful for her. He was just as upset about his baby but he needed to be strong for her.

"How is he doing?" Dr Miller asked as he entered the room and made his way over to Landon. He looked him all over. "Still no change." He said listening to the baby's heart. "I think that within the next few hours we should start to see a difference with him, if this new med is going to work."

"If this med doesn't work Alex, is there something else we can do?" Ella asked.

"I am going to converse with some doctors to see if I am on the right track with his treatment. I would hope he would start to come around soon." He said smiling softly at Ella. "I am going to do everything I can to make your boy well again."

Ella nodded her head, fighting back tears. "Thank you." She said as the doctor turned and left the room.

Josh came and stood beside her, he placed his hand on her shoulder. "Sweetheart he is going to be okay."

"What if he isn't?"

"I am not going to think that way." Josh said squeezing her shoulder lightly. "He is going to get better and we are going to take him home before Christmas. I am going to spoil him and Liam rotten."

Ella smiled at Josh. "I love you Josh."

Josh looked down at her, he cupped her face, wiped tears away with his thumbs. "I love you." He said softly. "You and the twins are everything to me." He said before he captured her mouth in a sweet softy kiss. He pulled back and gazed into her red puffy eyes, her nose was red too from crying. "I want us to get married sooner than later." He said looking at her. "I don't want to wait."

"We will talk about it when the Landon is better." She stated pulling away from Josh hold and going over to touch her boy.

"I am going to go out and call mom. She wants to bring Liam by today so he can see us. He has been asking for you Sweetheart."

"I really want to see him." She said softly.

Josh kissed her temple. "I will be back."

Ella nodded her head.

Josh went out and called his mom. "Hey mom how is Liam?"

"He is wonderful Josh. I don't know how you could ever thought of walking away from Ella and the boys. How is Landon doing?"

"He isn't good mom. I am worried sick."

"How is Ella?"

"She is a mess mom. I have never seen her so upset."

"Well you be there for her Joshua. She needs you"

"I know mom. I will see you later when you bring Liam down. What time you bringing him."

"Around two."

"Okay mom see you then." Josh ended the call with his mother, and checked his phone. He had three text messages for Cassandra. One was her apologize for being so bitchy when he left, one was to see how his little boy was, and the last one was that she missed him and couldn't wait to see him again.

Josh sighed, he thought about their night together, at first he wasn't into it, but after he relaxed and let her guide his body he totally loved every moment of it. She was a beautiful woman and she wasn't scared to try anything to please him. He knew it was wrong; he had to push it out of his mind. He loved Ella, everything was different with her. He would never do anything again go jeopardize what they had together.

He shut his phone off and went back into the ICU, Ella was still standing in the same spot he had left her in.

"Sweetheart I want you to take a break. Go get something to eat."

"I don't want to leave him Josh."

"Babe you need to take care of yourself. You are no good to him if you are sick."

She sighed and turned and looked at him. "You will stay right here?"

Josh nodded his head. "I am not leaving him alone."

Ella wrapped her arms around his waist and held him tightly. Josh wrapped his arms around her.

"Go eat." He said softly. She looked up at him and smiled before she covered his lips with his. She kissed him with urgency, tangled her hands in his hair. She sighed and pulled away from him. "I love you." She said softly.

Josh brushed her face with his thumb. "I love you." He said getting teary. "I never want to be without you or those boys. As soon as he is better, marry me." Josh said with all seriousness.

Ella giggled. "Right away?"

Josh nodded. "As soon as we can get married I want too."

"We will see Ramsay."

"Go eat."

By the time Ella got back Josh's mom had arrived with Liam. She was waiting in the family room outside the ICU. Josh was there with Liam on his lap. As soon as Liam seen his mother, he was off of Josh's lap and across the room into his mom's arms.

"Hey baby." Ella said hugging her baby boy tightly. "How are you." She said looking into his little face.

"Josh." He said pointing to his father. Josh smiled at them both. "Ben." He said pointing at Ben.

"L you look like hell." Ben said looking at her. "You need to take care of yourself. You should go home and sleep. I will stay here with Landon. You know I will call you if anything changes."

"I don't know." She said softly kissing her sons little head.

Josh came to her side. "Just for a few hours sweetheart. Liam will be thrilled to have us both home for a little. It will give mom a break."

"L you are dead on your feet." Ben said to her. " I will call if anything changes."

Ella sighed and looked at Josh. "Come on lets go home for a few hours and sleep."

Ella hugged Ben before she leaving. She knew he would call.

The drive home was not quiet. Liam babbled all the way home. He did have some words but it mostly was gibberish.

Once they were home, Ella went to settle Liam and Josh went to have a shower. He showered quickly and stood in front of the mirror. He looked at his reflection. He had knots in his stomach, he couldn't stop thinking about what had happened with Cassandra. He glanced in the mirror noticing red marks on his collar bone.

"What the fuck?" he said looking closer. "Fuck." He said noticing that he had two hickeys on his collar bone. He pulled his t-shirt on quickly as he heard Ella stumble into his room.

"Josh." She said softly.

"In here sweetheart." He said as she came into the bathroom and warped her arms around his torso from behind him. He felt her warm face pressed against his back. He felt her shudder. He turned and pulled her tightly in his arms. He kissed her head, and brushed his hand over her hair. She cried in his arms. "shhhhh…..he is going to be okay Ella."

She pulled back and wiped tears away with the back of her hand. "I hope so."

Josh place a one finger under her chin, lifting her face so he could see her eyes. They were puffy and red. He smiled at her. "He is going to be fine."

She nodded her head.

"Lets go get a few hours of rest." He said taking her by the hand and leading her into his room. He turned the covers back, she crawled in. He moved in beside her. She cuddled up against his body.

They laid there in silence, she had her head on his chest, he played with her hair.

"I have missed you so much." She said softly looking up at him.

He looked down at her. "I missed you." Before he could get the words out, she was straddling his hips, her lips were on his. He kissed her. He felt her hands slide under his t-shirt. He was lost in the moment; he wanted her so much at this moment. He almost forgot about the marks left behind on his body from another woman not even 24 hours ago. Josh stopped kissing her and pulled back breathless. "we should be resting Ella." He said grinning at her with one side of his mouth. He pushed her aside gently. "Sleep sweetheart."

She sighed and turned away from him. He could tell he had hurt her feelings. But he couldn't let her see those hickey's on his body. That would be the end of everything he held so dear to his heart. He put his arm around her, she didn't move away she relaxed back into his embrace. He heard her breathing shallow out, she was asleep.

He sighed. He was so stupid. He could lose everything if she found out. He had to keep her from finding out. He wouldn't let anyone or anything come between them again.