Chapter 53 - You don't deserve me for eternity

BPOV

Edward's gaping mouth told the whole story. I'd managed to wipe his smug grin off his face, quite easily too. He probably thought I'd put up a fight, that he'd have to play the heavy with me to get me to buy the car.

I had worked out long ago that there was very little point arguing with a Cullen, especially one of the Edward variety.

I knew he'd seen me run my hand over the body of it, I knew he could see how much I loved driving it, I knew if I protested he'd only come back and buy it when I wasn't with him. So I gave up and let him win, for a change.

I hoped he understood my black being hot reference. Judging by the darkening of his eyes right now I'd say my message had been heard and understood. Mission accomplished. We stood on the lot, hand in hand. Andrew had gone inside to write up the sale. We only had to wait to sign it and then we could leave. Edward had said nothing since I'd taken his hand.

I squeezed his hand and asked if he was ok.

"Isabella. I have never seen or heard anything so hot in my extremely long existence. I'm going to go inside that office and sign the paperwork. Please go and collect the Aston from the parking lot?" He let go of my hand and took the keys out of his jeans pocket and put them into my hand. "Bring it round to the front, I'll be one minute. You drive. We have one hour before you need to be at the hospital for your appointment. I intend to spend it making you cum." He growled into my ear as he kissed my neck.

I shivered from head to toe and stared into his pitch black eyes. He ran a hand through his hair, turned on his heel and headed into the office at a good clip.

Holy shit. Had he just said that? Did I imagine it?

I ran from the car yard and dove into the Aston, I floored it around the corner and was waiting in the street for him as he ran from the office towards me. He actually ran, at a human speed, but he ran to the car and dived into the passenger seat. He reached across the console and used his palm on the back of my neck to pull my face to his. He kissed me roughly on the lips then let my head go.

"Drive Bella." He growled. I didn't need to be told twice.

EPOV

"Take the next exit. Turn left at the end." She sucked in a breath as I ran my hand up her thigh. She turned left into the intersection and I said, "You'll see a sign for the parking garage on your left, go in there. Up the ramp, top floor." I punctuated each word with a tight squeeze of her leg, just above her knee.

She nodded but kept her eyes on the road.

We were at the entrance to the hospital and she was busy pulling the Aston this way and that, navigating up the steep ramps of the parking garage. At the top floor we stopped at the boom gate and I told her the four digit code to open it. Carlisle had access to this car park because he was staff. I often used it if I had to collect him.

"Go to the far end, behind the fire exit stairs." I told her. She did as I asked and parked the Aston in the space next to the stairs. We were completely concealed here. Anyone who drove past could see the car, but not into it until they were past it. I would hear anyone approaching anyway, so the odds that we'd be discovered were slim.

Bella was breathing heavily now.

I leaned over and took her neck in my hand as I had before, I pulled her to me and whispered that we should get in the back.

She nodded and reached out and pushed the button on the dash to turn the heater off. She was chuckling quietly as we both leapt from the car and got into the back seat.

The instant she closed the door I pulled her into my lap. I held her upright, her back to the door and claimed her mouth with mine.

She sighed into my mouth and it made me impossibly harder. She was trembling in my arms and it made me want her more. I could smell how excited she was. Her heart raced frantically in her chest and her eyes were heavy, she looked about ready to burst.

I'd never wanted her more than I did right then. I threaded my hand into her hair and devoured her open mouth. My tongue snaked into her mouth and I traced her lower lip then her teeth with it. She suckled it into her mouth and moaned into my open lips. Her hands tugged on my hair and it made me match her groan for groan.

I used my free hand to lift her shirt out of her jeans. She sucked in a sharp breath when my cold fingers found the soft flesh of her belly. I wasted no time with her bra, I used my nails to break the ribbon that held the two halves together over her breasts and let it fall aside. I took her whole right peak into my hand and gently stroked across the nipple with my thumb.

I sucked the sigh out of her mouth as her nipple peaked and puckered under my hand. I sat up straighter in the seat and pulled her tighter to my chest.

"I want you Bella. So badly." I groaned into her hair as I switched my thumb to the other breast.

"Unngh nnn." Was all that came out of her mouth as she spread her lips over my throat.

I pushed her back a little, her lips made a loud sucking noise as she let my throat go. I sat her half up against the door half leaning into the seat and I pulled myself out from under her. She parted her knees and let them fall aside and I knelt between them, hovering over her. She put her hands onto my neck and pulled my mouth back to hers. I let her tongue into my mouth as I reached for the button on her jeans. She slid herself further down into the seat, allowing me to tug the zipper down.

"Lift your hips baby." I groaned into her open mouth.

She used my neck as leverage and did as I asked. I slid one hand under her to hold her steady and used the other to tug her jeans down to her knees. I moved backward, away from her legs and slid them the rest of the way off. I quickly moved back between her legs and began kissing her again. She was panting now, pulling at my hair and I knew she needed more. More contact, more relief from the ache between her legs.

I left her lips and trailed wet open-mouthed kisses towards her neck. I put one hand next to her head, bracing myself against the door and used the other to pull her panties aside. The crotch of her panties was so wet I could feel it on the back of my hand as I slid my fingers across her silken lips. She hissed loudly against my shoulder as I slid a finger up her folds towards her swollen clit.

"You're so wet. Do you want me Bella?" I asked against the mark on her throat.

"Oh god Edward, yes, I want you so badly. Please. Please." She begged.

I gave her what she wanted. I slid my index finger into her and felt the familiar clench of her muscles around me. Her scent flooded my mouth and nostrils and I growled against her ear. She pushed her hips up to meet my hand as I slid in and out of her at a steady pace.

"More." She cried against my shoulder.

I pulled my finger out and slid two in with the next push. She cried out again and I felt her teeth dig into my neck as she clenched around my fingers.

I could feel her juices sliding over my fingers, and I wanted to taste them, I had imagined that before. My senses were so keen I could almost taste her on my tongue anyway, from her pungent scent on the air. But I wanted desperately to taste her off my fingers.

I pulled them out of her and bought them to my lips. I lapped at her on my fingers and saw her eyes widen as she watched me do it. I closed my eyes and drank her in. It was nearly as good as the taste of her blood, nearly. Sweet, salty.

"Oh god Edward." She moaned against my throat. I could feel her tongue lapping at my skin as she writhed beneath me. I slipped both my fingers back into her warmth and she bit down on me again.

I curved my fingers upwards and stroked her sweet spot, waiting for the cry that came from her lips as I found it. She clutched at my hair and dug her nails into my scalp.

"Do you want this Bella? Tell me you want this." I hissed into her ear.

"I want this, I want you." She screamed as the first waves hit her.

"Tell me baby. Tell me." I purred into her ear as she climaxed on my hand.

"Edward, Edward, unngh nnn, oh god, I'm cumming. Yes. Yes. I love you. Yes." She cried over and over as I felt her muscles clamp down onto my now stilled fingers. I pressed my thumb to her clit and she bucked against me as another wave came over her. I lay my head against her chest and listened to the racing of her heart as the orgasm took her wholly over.

As she stilled and her breath quietened I withdrew my fingers and while I still had my face pressed to her chest I licked them clean. She drew in a deep breath when she realized what I'd just done, but said nothing.

She continued to run her hands through my hair as we lay together, she pressed a kiss to my head and whispered that she loved me and I smiled to myself.

"I love you too Isabella, so very much." I kissed her chest and hugged her tightly.

BPOV

My bra was ruined, my jeans were wrinkled and my panties were dripping wet. I didn't give a shit. I thanked god for Alice as I pulled my sweater over my head, hiding my braless-ness from all and sundry.

The god who walked beside me into the waiting room had just given me an orgasm in the backseat of his Aston Martin. His hair looked like it always did, mine probably looked like a haystack. Another thing I couldn't care less about right now.

I knew I was grinning stupidly. I didn't give a shit about that either.

I chanced a glance at Edward and saw the mirror image of my own grin on his beautiful face. He had his arm across the back of my chair and he leant down and whispered into my ear that he knew what that grin was for.

I blushed severely at that and smacked him on the leg. He chuckled but said nothing more.

Carlisle came out of the hall and stood with a file in his hand at the entrance to the open cubicle. "Miss Swan." He nodded at me and smiled. I grabbed Edward's hand and pulled him along behind me.

I said hi to Carlisle as we went past him and into the cubicle.

"Hey Dad." Edward said as he sat in the chair to the side of the bed.

"How did you fair at the car yard?" Carlisle asked as he took my cast into his hand and examined my fingers. I choked back my laugh, if only he knew the effect my car buying trip had had!

"It went well. I'll have the car in ten days." I looked over at Edward, he was grinning from ear to ear at me.

"Excellent. Did she drive a hard bargain Edward?" He asked over his shoulder. Edward rolled his eyes, very pointedly in my direction, waggled his eyebrows and said, "Oh yeah, she's quite the shopper. She definitely got more than she thought she'd get."

I was horrified. That was as good as telling Carlisle that he'd just had his hand in my knickers in the car park! I scowled at him and Carlisle chuckled.

"I'm going to cut the cast off now, we'll have a look and get you down to x-ray." He turned my hand over and reached for a pair of serrated cutters on the table beside the bed head. He clipped the cast from my wrist to my fingers and as it fell away I stretched my fingers fully. It was blissful.

He rolled my hand over in his own and began running his fingers between the bones on the top of my hand, then down my broken finger and over my knuckles. It didn't hurt at all now, they just felt swollen and full. It felt so good to have the weight of the cast off.

"Any pain?" Carlisle asked.

"No, none at all." He wrote some notes on my file and then said he'd go and arrange the x-ray.

As soon as he went through the curtain Edward was up on the bed with me. He kissed me hard on the lips and buried his nose in my hair.

"Carlisle is hanging shit on me all the way down the corridor to the x-ray department." He laughed against my neck.

"Oh great." I groaned. "He probably thinks the worst, right?"

"Oh no, he thinks you are far worse than I am. He knows I'm innocent and that you keep leading me astray." I could hear the laughter in his voice but I slapped his arm anyway.

"Yeah right. You? Innocent? With a face like that? Right. You make Casanova look like an altar boy!" I laughed.

"Oh, that wounds me Isabella. I am innocent. Look at me, you know it's true. Nobody would want me, I'm cold and hard, so very very hard, who would want me hey?" He grinned at me.

"If you don't stop with the double entendres I'll have to stop being so accommodating Mr Cullen." I pouted, he kissed me again and went back to his chair with his hands in the air in surrender.

"Ok, I see how you are. You've learnt this behavior from Rose. She withholds favors as a punishment too. I never thought you'd do this to me Isabella, I thought you loved me?" He had the sweetest pouty face on. I was about to jump off the bed and into his lap when he said, "Carlisle" and pointed to the curtain.

I stayed on the bed but scowled at him playfully.

Carlisle came back into the cubicle with a wide smile on his face. "You can go down to x-ray now Bella. You," he pointed to Edward, "can stay here." Edward grumbled but stayed put as I made my way to the x-ray department with the slip of paper Carlisle handed me.

EPOV

"You reek of her Edward." Carlisle shook his head as he wrote on Bella's file.

I flared my nostrils and took a long pull of the air around me. "Yeah, I do." I said quietly, trying to not look too proud.

"Half your luck. I'm on duty here till three am." He chuckled, still writing on the file.

"How's her hand?" I asked, trying to change the subject.

"Fine. The x-ray is a precaution, in case something hasn't set in quite the right position, but it feels good under manipulation, I'm not worried." He put the chart down on the bed and sat on it. I knew what was coming. I felt my anger rise before he opened his mouth. "From your body language I'm guessing you've not bought it up?" He asked.

I shook my head and willed him to leave it alone with my scowl. I could hear people shuffling around in the corridors and halls and didn't want to discuss this here.

"This is not a discussion for here, but I want you to know I've not changed my mind. My stance remains the same." He took up her chart again and tucked it under his arm. He stood to leave, holding the curtain between his fingers, he shot me a look that was pure pity. "I'm sorry Edward, unless she tells me otherwise I'll fight to save her, for you." I fought my growl, he slipped between the curtains and I sat trembling in the chair.

I put my head in my hands and ran over the conversation from last night and today again. What Carlisle saw as 'for me' I saw as 'against Bella'. I couldn't reconcile the two halves of the equation any other way. I'd tried. I'd sat at the foot of Bella's bed all night thinking about it. Carlisle was as set in his belief that changing Bella would be in my best interest as I was set in my belief that leaving her human was in hers.

The only conclusion I had drawn since our conversation last night had been that Carlisle was totally sincere in his belief. He really did believe I'd not survive losing her, even through natural causes or old age.

I drew in a couple of deep breaths to steady myself. Mental images of me hovering over Bella's dead body flashed in my brain and seized me with a painful clenching in my chest. The vision of her dead, by any means, took with it my reason for existing at all. By fair means or foul, if Bella perished I'd be close behind.

I was sucking in great gulps of air now. I needed to get a hold of myself before both Carlisle and Bella returned. I stood and paced the length of the room. I plunged my hands into my pockets to keep them still. I focused on the hideous pattern on the floor tiles, anything to distract myself from the pain of the images.

"Are you alright Edward? You look like you've seen a ghost." She came and stood by my side and took my hand out of my pocket and held it in hers. The warmth of her skin ignited my love for her and I pulled her to me, drinking in her scent, surrounding myself with the feel of her, the smell of her, the taste of her in the air.

"I'm fine love, now that you're here. What did the technician say?" I positioned her at the side of the bed and she scooted back onto it.

"He said it's healing fine. I have to wait for Carlisle though." She looked me over, from head to toe, I worked hard to put a smile on my face. "What's going on? Did you and Carlisle have another argument?"

Fucking Alice and her big mouth! "No love. He's gone to get you a brace. He'll be back in a minute and then I can take you home." I grinned down at her.

Carlisle came in then, carrying a dark blue wrist brace. He took Bella's hand in his, "I've checked over your x-rays and it's healing nicely. Good clean break, the bones are knitting as they should be. A week or so in this brace and you'll be good to go. I don't recommend throwing any punches anytime soon, but if you keep this on you'll be fine." He grinned down at her and she smiled widely.

"Thank you Carlisle."

"You're most welcome Bella. What have you two got planned for this afternoon?" He asked as he filled out the results page of her file.

"I'm going to drop Bella at home with Esme again, I'm going back to the school to collect Alice and Rose same as yesterday."

"I'll see you at home in the morning then son. Tell your mother I'm looking forward to seeing her at three." He clapped me on the shoulder and chuckled.

BPOV

They looked normal near each other but I could tell that things were strained. I knew what it was about too. Me.

I had asked Esme about it this afternoon and she'd confirmed it. Carlisle and Edward had come to blows yesterday in his office and by the looks of Edward they'd come close again today in the hospital.

Esme said it was the one thing they'd never see eye to eye on. Edward was certain he was right and so was Carlisle. She explained to me that Carlisle wanted me to choose for myself, Edward was determined to never let anything happen that forced me to make the choice.

I didn't talk to her about how I felt, or what my decision was. I wanted to talk to Edward about that first.

That's how we'd gotten here.

Edward sat on the end of my bed with his head in his hands. I sat in the rocker with my head in mine.

We'd been arguing about it for three hours solid. Not heatedly, just passionately. Thankfully Charlie had gone to bed early tonight, even with the three hour slog it was still relatively early, midnight.

We had gotten a little loud about an hour ago and Edward had dived out the window just in time, Charlie had come to my door to see if I was ok. I told him I'd had a bad dream and to go back to bed.

Edward came back in and sat back on the edge of the bed and we began again.

I tried my best to make him see that if given the choice I wanted to be changed. I tried to explain that the situation with the wolves only made my resolve deeper, that I was surer of what I wanted now than ever before, but he would have none of it. I told him I was in no hurry for it to happen, but if it meant being without him I wanted it.

He outright refused to relay that message to Carlisle citing my inexperience, youth and stubbornness as the reasons I was incapable of making this decision for myself. He told me I had no idea what I was agreeing to, that I could not begin to fathom what I'd lose.

I had gotten angrier and angrier, he had gotten sadder and sadder.

So I did the only thing I could. I got changed into jeans and a sweater, grabbed my coat, cell phone and house keys and went down the stairs and out the front door. I knew he was following me, I could feel him there, two paces behind.

I kept my gaze pointedly forward. He said nothing and made no move to come any closer, so we walked.

I spent the time running over what I would say to Carlisle when I got there, how I would word my answer. I knew Edward would be angry, that he would try to convince me to change my mind, but I could see no way to be with him without letting Carlisle know what I wanted, should something ever happen.

Halfway to the highway he pulled on my hand and threw me onto his back. He ran the rest of the way to his house and he put me on the bottom step of the back patio and left me there.

He went in through the back door, leaving it open for me, he took off up the stairs. He didn't look back and I didn't watch him go. I went in through the back door myself a few seconds later, into the kitchen and straight into Alice's arms.

"It's ok Bella. He doesn't mean it. He's scared, that's all." She crooned as I cried.

"He thinks I'm a child Alice. I'm good enough for him to play with but not to make my own decisions. I'm so angry right now." I yelled into her shoulder, knowing he could hear me clearly.

"Dry your eyes now Bella. He's bringing Carlisle downstairs with him. He's very angry but he doesn't mean what he's about to say, ok, will you trust me on this?" She whispered to me, I nodded bleakly. "He's about to say some things that will hurt you, but he doesn't mean them, he's just desperate to protect you. Trust me."

I stiffened when I saw them come down the stairs. Carlisle looked pained, like he was being forced to do this and I knew that Edward would've just said some awful things to him to make him come down to the kitchen.

Edward was radiating anger. His face was contorted into a grimace and his eyes were the blackest I'd ever seen them. They were half closed in a squint and he was baring his teeth as they walked. I could hear the grumbling from his chest as they came closer. Alice held my hand at the counter and I felt her squeeze it as they approached.

"Go on then Bella. Tell him." He shoved Carlisle forward, closer to me and I cringed back against the counter. "Tell him you want to be a monster like me. Tell him you're ready to give up being human so you can be a beast like me. Go on. You were convinced that's what you wanted half an hour ago. Tell him. Tell him you'd much rather be cold and unyielding like me. Go on, he's waiting Isabella, tell him." He screamed at me.

"Edward you're scaring her." Alice said quietly.

"Good. Maybe she could do with a good dose of fear. Come on Bella. This is what you wanted. You want eternity, this is how you get it. You beg this creature here," He pulled Carlisle in front of him, pushing him in between us, "You ask him to drain the life out of you and that's what you get. Eternity. You wanted to tell him to change you if he needed to. I'm presenting you with your chance." He bellowed. His eyes kept scanning the room around him and I could tell he was in full flight now, his anger was consuming him. His pupils had all but disappeared, his eyes were almost completely black. He was spitting foamy venom out of his mouth at the ends of his sentences, it splashed down onto the floor as he whipped his head between Carlisle and me.

"Edward, this is not right, son. Please. Don't do this like this." Carlisle was pleading with him.

"Bella you just told Alice that I was treating you like a child. This is your chance to behave like an adult. Say it. Out loud. Tell him what you want. He won't deny you. He's told me that already. He'll do it with or without my consent. He'll snatch your life away and say he did it for me. He owes me no loyalty and mine for him was frittered away when he said he'd do it despite what I wanted. " He took hold of Carlisle's dress shirt at the shoulder and I heard it rip as Edward tugged Carlisle closer to me at the counter. Carlisle grimaced as he stumbled forward.

"Edward this is unacceptable. You're frightening her. Stop this now." Esme said as she came to stand beside me, on the other side of Alice. She took the hand with the brace on it into her own hand and held it tightly.

"This is what I am Esme. This is what she'd be getting. She should know and understand the animal I am. She is determined to be this way too, this is what she wants for herself. Only now that she's faced with it she seems to have lost her nerve." He let go of Carlisle and took a step toward me. "Tell him. Tell us all. Just so we are all absolutely clear. If anything happens, tell us what you want Bella. Not that it matters, does it Carlisle? You'll turn her into a bloodsucker whether I can stand to be near her afterward or not. Go on, tell her Carlisle. Tell her what you told me. " He was so loud and so close to me that I my ears stung with the sound and the air fluttered around my face as he spoke.

"Bella. Let Alice take you home love." Carlisle said quietly. "Edward, you need to stop now, this is getting us nowhere." Carlisle put a hand on Edward's arm and Edward turned on him. A loud roar leapt out of his throat as Edward lunged. Carlisle stepped aside with ease and let Edward fly past him. He didn't turn to face Edward. He kept his eyes on me the whole time. "Alice?" He questioned and I felt Alice squeeze my hand.

Edward was stalking back toward the counter again now, pushing past Carlisle and coming to stand right in front of me. He was breathing heavily, I could smell the acidity of the venom as it flew from his lips when he spoke. "Go on. Go home. You can't even bring yourself to say it out loud, what we are. Go home Bella. Come back when you've grown up."

I pulled my hand out of Alice's and slapped him resoundingly across his cheek. I knew it wouldn't hurt him but it was enough to stun him momentarily. He blinked rapidly and I took my chance where I saw it. I pulled myself up to my full height, squared my shoulders, looked him straight in the eye and said, "Fuck you Edward Cullen. You don't deserve me for all eternity. I am going to let Alice take me home now, but I want you to listen to this before I leave. Look at me while I say it, I need you to hear it and understand this Edward."

I took another step forward and pressed my hand to his chest, I took a deep breath and I began so quietly he had to lean forward to hear me. "I love you. Completely. Without reservation. I want to be with you forever. But you don't get to do this. This is my life, I decide what to do with it." I let my hand fall from his chest and I took a small step backwards, standing between Esme and Alice again. "I'm sorry for all this Carlisle, I never meant for this to go this way. Esme, thanks for being here. Alice, please take me home now. I'll see you all tomorrow night."

I walked past Edward and out the back door, down the steps and around the side of the house to the driveway. I stood at the door to Alice's car and waited for her to unlock the doors.

EPOV

"Don't say a word Edward." Esme shot me a look of pure loathing. She stopped beside Carlisle and put a soft kiss on his cheek before going upstairs to their suite.

"I'll forgive you for this one day Edward, but not today, and I won't forget." She thought as she went up the stairs three at a time.

Carlisle stood in the middle of the kitchen. He was so angry he couldn't form coherent thoughts. They came to his brain in a jumbled mess, most of them out of order or not relevant.

I was not ready to hear what he needed to say to me. I needed him to stand quietly for another few minutes, gather himself, and map out in his mind what he needed to tell me.

I let my mind range out and I listened for the sounds that would reassure me that I was doing the right thing.

I ran over what I wanted to say and do and steadied myself, squaring my shoulders and calming myself enough to stand still while he berated me.

Maybe four full minutes later he began.

"That was unforgivable Edward." Carlisle said quietly.

"I meant every word of it." I spat at his feet.

"I know, that's what makes it so horrible. You've just destroyed her and you don't give a fuck." He pulled the shoulder of his shirt back up into its correct position. "I've never been ashamed of you before. She was right, you don't deserve her, at all. Not now and not for eternity. I am going to go upstairs now and console Esme. Have a think about whether or not you wish to remain a Cullen. I have no desire to insist any longer. Good night Edward."

I waited until he turned to leave before I spoke.

"If I leave and don't return do I have your word you'll leave her human?"

I felt him hit me squarely in my back and even though I saw the thought in his mind before he did it I did nothing to prevent it. He tore the shirt off my back and clawed at my head and neck with his nails. The primal scream that came out of his throat scared me more than I'd ever admit. I let him force me to the floor of the kitchen and allowed him to land punch after punch to my back and kidneys. He flung me over so that I was face up and kept punching. Hacking sobs came out of his chest mixed with curses and growls and I knew I deserved them all.

"Carlisle stop, you're killing him." Esme screamed, standing above us and trying desperately to pull him off me.

I continued to lie passively on the floor, absorbing his anger as he hit me over and over again.

Eventually he reigned in the anger and the punches became less frequent. His sobs abated and the growls retreated, the cursing, however, increased.

"You fucking waste of oxygen. You lying son of a bitch. How fucking dare you use me that way. How dare you fucking draw me in and force pain on her. She doesn't deserve this. We don't deserve this. You did this on purpose? How could you? How fucking dare you disgrace me this way. You're a coward and a liar and a cheat and if you leave her now I'll go straight there and sink my teeth into her throat the second she opens her eyes. I'll change her to spite you motherfucker. Do you hear me Edward? I'll change her to spite you. I'll spend the next thousand years enjoying your agony if you leave her now, on purpose, like this."

"Carlisle, that's enough." Esme was shouting at him now.

"Go away Esme. Please." He stood over me and we both watched her leave.

"You lying sack of shit. How could you do this? For what? I swear to god and all that's holy if you leave her now I will hunt you myself. Nowhere you go will be safe from me Edward. I will make it my only aim to find you and deny you any happiness. I'll tear you apart myself if you don't undo this. I can't fucking believe this. After everything I've done for you. I made you you bastard. I wasted my venom on you. I could've let you die, I saved you. I've kept you for a hundred years. I've shared everything with you. Taught you everything I know." He wiped his venom off his lips with the back of his hand and walked away to the other end of the room. His anger was nearly spent now. I deserved every single syllable he threw at me. He marched back to me and stood not two inches from my face, his distaste for what I'd manufactured here was evident in the way he spoke next.

"If you intend to leave go now." He hissed. "Make it a clean break for her. I'll change her anyway, to spare her the human pain of what you're about to do to her. Run, but go far enough away to be gone from her completely. If she doesn't hunt you down and kill you herself I will. Bank on it." He went back to the doorway and opened the sliding glass door, he held it open for me.

I wiped my hand across my lips and then down the front of my jeans to get rid of the venom. I looked to where he stood in the doorway, ran a hand through my hair, strode purposefully to him and looked him straight in the eye

BPOV

Alice came round to the car and I slumped against it, ready to let the tears come.

"Thank you for trusting me Bella. I need you to trust me for a little longer, ok?"

She held onto my shoulders and looked me dead in the eye. I nodded and she led me to the front of the house. She turned her back to me and asked me to climb on. It felt strange to do this with Alice, she seemed so small.

I held on tightly around her neck and she jumped onto the tiny balcony that stood above the front porch. She used her fingers to slide across the front fascia of the house and then she jumped up into the open window. She set me down on my feet and motioned for me to be quiet.

She used her fingers to show me she wanted me to follow her and we crept out the door onto the landing. She held her finger to her lips again and motioned for me to sit on the landing. When I did she pointed to the kitchen. I could clearly see Edward and Carlisle now. They stood stock still, right where they had been when I left. She didn't sit with me so I figured this was for my benefit, not hers.

She went back into the room we'd come out of and closed the door.

I listened to their argument in shock. Carlisle couldn't mean what he said, could he? He couldn't want Edward to renounce his name? My chest heaved with the weight of what Edward had done.

Then I heard Edward say, "If I leave and don't return do I have your word you'll leave her human?" I stifled the gasp that tried to escape from between my lips.

Son of a bitch. He'd played me. again. Fucking dirty rotten bastard piece of shit asshole bastard bitch. He'd set me up for this agony. Why would he do that?

I watched as Carlisle sprang at him, pinned him to the ground and punched the crap out of him. I cried and cried softly as I watched. A part of me knew he was fine, this couldn't hurt him, but when Esme ran in and said Carlisle would kill him I felt a moment of panic.

When Carlisle began screaming at him I knew the physical part of the fight was over. Soon after that Esme came up the stairs, she gasped when she saw me sitting there and ran to me and wrapped me into her arms.

I had no tears left though. I wanted to see how this would play out now. I knew I'd been played, Edward had done this all on purpose. He'd manufactured this for a reason and I wanted to know what that reason was.

I nodded towards the kitchen and Esme loosened her grip on me. She sat beside me and watched as I did. I think what had actually gone on here tonight finally dawned on us both when Edward said, "If she still wants me after that I'll fucking change her myself."