Helloooooooo. Ok I haven't updated for a while. I just took a small break from writing and I'm back now. Also I came back with an awesome but difficult song. Seems like I needed that break very much to move forward. Anyway, so this chapter is dedicated to a guest named JadeBeckTogether. The song I'm going to write the story about is Lithium by Evanescence. Wow ok I love this song but I really have no idea what to write about it. So I better start writing it. Enjoy!

JadeBeckTogether I hope you like your one-shot! Thanks for reviewing!

Lithium by Evanescence

Jade's POV

"Lithium" I hear the doctor's voice suggesting my father a solution to my problem. Ever since I broke up with Beck I've stopped talking to everyone. This is the last time we break up though. We did once six years ago. That was my fault for being stupid and breaking up with him cause a girl kept on sending messages in his phone. We broke up twice five years ago. That was his fault for not opening a stupid door. And we broke for the third and last time five months ago. This was both our fault. A fault that no one recognized. He has moved on now. Professional actor. I used to be one too. I don't have the strength anymore though. Too bad but I'm the one with the depression. Everyone is trying to help me. I don't need help. I really don't. But they want to bring me back to reality. Who said I'm ready? You said I'm ready to face the reality and get away from this blur world I've made for me. It doesn't hurt that much this way. I don't want to lock me up inside in the real word. It's gonna be worse. It's gonna be darker and harder to move on. Lithium. That's what they think the solution to my problem is gonna be. Still no one can understand that I don't want to forget how it feels without Beck. Beck. You were the only one to always understand me. And you left one more time. Lithium isn't gonna help cause I want to stay in love with my sorrow. The pain is bearable. I can handle it. I can live with it. But God I want to let it go so bad even though I know I'm not that strong anymore.

"She has stopped eating two weeks ago and she only drinks water. She doesn't speak. She only nods or shakes her head or just ignores us. She sleeps at day and stays awake at night. She doesn't sing or act anymore. Her whole life these two things were her passion. Even when I tried to stop her from fulfilling her dreams she fought for them. Now she just refuses to spend a single minute on them"

These are my dad's words. At least he admits he made my teenage years a living hell. The doctor lets us leave half an hour later. He kept on talking something I didn't pay attention to. As we reach the house I lock myself in my room. I can hear my dad banging on the door to get me out but I ignore him. I don't know when but the banging stops after all. Time for sleep Beck. I know that it's you in front of me. You can't be fake. I know you left all your life to come here to me. You always hide in my room until the door gets locked and then you come out.

"He is not going to hear you so come closer" I say to you and you smile. Oh Beck I always loved this smile. I sit on my bed but you stay there looking at me "Come to bed, don't make me sleep alone please" I beg and I see you approaching me. You seem sad. You couldn't hide the emptiness you let it show. You don't wrap your hands around me like you always do but I don't protest although I never wanted it to be so cold.

"I love you" I say and you nod. I guess today you just didn't drink enough to say you love me too. As I close my eyes I take one last look at you and then lose myself in the dark. When I wake up I see my door wide open. What is going on? Beck has left and I panic. I look around and see my dad sitting on the sofa looking at me.

"Well hello. Time for this situation to stop" he says as he hands me this medicine named Lithium. I just look at him but don't move. He gets up and tries to catch me but I move quickly away from me. But he knows better. Some nurses catch me and turn me around. My dad tries to open my mouth but I keep it shut. He can't do this to me. This is so wrong.

"Leave me alone" I try to shout. It's the first time I speak to him after a long time. Clearly a mistake. Cause he takes the chance to shove the pills in my mouth. I try to spit them out but the nurses put their hands on my mouth. I fight, fight, fight. Till I give up and slid to the floor. The same thing happens every day. Every single day. I try to go away. They always catch me. Lithium gets inside me. And tears fall down my cheeks. I'm alone now. I'm sitting on the floor. Beck hasn't come for a long time. I try to stand up but I can't hold on to me. My legs shake. I wonder what's wrong with me. But I don't give up this time. I stand up. I don't want to let it lay me down this time and drown my will to fly to him. To Beck. The lights are off as always. I close the curtains and stay there still. Here in the darkness I know myself. I know I can be strong again even though I say I can't. I know that Beck doesn't care anymore about me. He has even left from here. I have to go away too. But I can't break free until I let it go. Let this stupid feeling go and keep on with my life. The life I've given up for five and a half months now. I hear the door opening. I turn and look at my dad. He has the pills again. I get up and approach him. He seems unsure but opens the lights. I take the pills out of his hand and shove them in my mouth. There's no reason to fight anymore. They will give them to me anyway. My dad seems so happy and relieved. He tries to hug me but I stop him.

"Let me go" I say calmly and he backs up quietly. I pass him and the nurses by and climb down the stairs. As I get a glass of water I see my brother looking at me with mixed emotions.

"What are you looking at?" I ask him and he seems pretty confused.

"N-nothing" he stutters and I roll my eyes.

"Whatever" I answer and go back to my room. And I freeze. Beck is there. Again. It has been a long time being absent. And now he's back. I give him a death glare and sit on my bed. I see he's fading a little bit. Good. I have some time left to tell all the things I want.

"Darling, I forgive you after all. Anything is better than to be alone" I look at him and he lowers his head "And in the end I guess I had to fall to understand what I'm really doing all this time. I always find my place among the ashes don't I? But no more funny business. We're done here" I look him in the eyes. He opens his mouth to say something but then closes it. That's right Beck. This is the end. This is goodbye. Lithium helped me get up from the ground and even though I still stay in love with you I know that sometime I'm gonna be able to move on. As he fades away I take a deep breath. Time to be happy. Leave the pain beside. I'm gonna let it go. And I'm gonna start from now on. Cause I deserve it.

Hope you liked it! See ya next time bade-lovers!