Love so Silent
Chapter Fifty Six
The next morning I woke up highly confused. I was always one of those people who didn't remember much in the mornings. So it took a few seconds for last night to come back to me. I sat up in the bed. I wonder how long it will take me to get use to living here? I sighed and pulled back the covers. I quickly changed into my school uniform and did the usual morning routine. After getting ready I opened the door and stepped into the living room. Snape was nowhere in sight but since there was a pillow and blanket on the couch I assumed thats where he slept last night.
I grabbed my bag from where the house elves put it and decided to go eat breakfast before classes. Its something I've been avoiding the last couple days. After I made sure my ring was hidden under my shirt I headed out the door. As suspected Harry, Hermione, and Ron wanted to know where I've been. I just shrugged. "I've been staying in the dungeons." That teckniquely wasn't a lie.
"You should stay in Gryffindor tower tonight," Harry said. "I miss you." I swallowed my food.
"Um yeah we'll see," I mummbled. Harry didn't push it anymore. He saw that I didn't want to talk about it. During breakfast I watched as each of them casted me worried glances. I sighed and sat down my toast. I wasn't hungry anymore. I stood up. "I'll see you in class." I felt someones eyes following me on my way out but I didn't pay it any attention. I found myself feeling restless the rest of the day. When classes were finally over I felt relieved but the feeling of restlesness stayed. After a few minutes of paceing Snapes Chambers I decided to go on a run in the forest in my Animagus form. Its been a while since I've done that and I missed it.
I sneakily snuck out of the castle without being spotted. When I was in the cover of the trees I let the transformation take over. My bones grew out and twisted to form the bones of a wolf. I threw my head back and howled. I took off running. I didn't even care about where I was going. All I could feel was that I was free. The wind moved through my hair and I picked up speed. This is what I had been missing. This feeling of pure bliss. I crouched down mid run and jumped over a fallen tree. I skidded to a stop and looked around the small clearing. It was the same clearing I once called mine. The one that I met Sirius in. At the memory of Sirius I felt a pang at my heart.
I transformed back into a human and sat down on the fallen tree. I closed my eyes and just let the memories wash over me. A small smile graced my lips as I remembered him. The only regret I had about him is that he never got to live as a free man. That he died having people think that he was a convict. I shook my head of those thoughts and turned back into my wolf. I felt the need to run again. It cleared my mind and the only thing I paid attention to was the trees that whirled by. The feeling of the forest floor under my paws. By the time I came back to my scenses it was already night fall and I figured it was after dinner. That probably meant I had an hour and a half before I would be in trouble for being out of the castle. I ran back to the edge of the forest and then turned back into a human. I hadn't realized I transformed back so close to Hagrids hut.
I began to make my way back across the castle grounds. "Eris, is that you?" came Hagrids voice. I stopped mid stride and turned around.
"Hello Hagrid. I'm just on my way to the castle." He nodded. I had a feeling he knew I came out of the forest. Thankfully it seemed like he wasn't going to mention it.
"Mind some company on your way," he asked. I shrugged and allowed him to follow me. "Its a beautiful night out ain't it." I looked up at the sky to see the stars and moon.
"Yes its quite beautiful." We walked in silence the rest of the way but as I was about to go inside he stopped me.
"The forest is a dangerous place at night Eris." I sighed. Of course he would bring it up.
"I know Hagrid. I didn't go far I just needed to think." He let go of me and nodded. I made my way through the castle. I caught myself heading to Gryffindor tower and changed direction. I said the password and the portrait swung open to let me in. Snape looked up as I entered. He closed the book he had been reading and sat it aside. In that moment I knew he wanted to talk. I strode over to the couch that was opposite him and sat down. He watched for a few moments before opening his mouth to talk.
"Where have you been? Its almost curfew." I settled into the couch before answering.
"I was out walking." I watched as he looked for any signs of me lieing. He wouldn't find any because I was out walking or running. He sighed.
"Whats wrong Eris?" I crossed my arms over my chest.
"I don't know what your talking about. Nothings wrong." His eyes narrowed at me.
"Don't give me that crap Eris. I know something is wrong. You don't just disappear. So I'll ask again what is wrong?" I huffed and glared at him.
"What do you care. Its not like you really give a crap about me. I'm just someone you've been stuck with because you've been ordered to." By the end of that sentence I was on my feet and starting to walk to the door. I'd stay at Gryffindor tower tonight. Before I could make it to the door however Snape caught my arm. effectively stopping me from going anywhere.
"Is that what you believe? That I don't care about you." I stared up at him telling him with my eyes that, that was exactly what I thought. "Dammit Eris I do care about you. More than I should." I was confused by that last statement. I blinked up at him. His face showed the anger that my words had brought and his eyes were hard. I opened my mouth to say something but no sound came out. I didn't know what he meant by that so what was I suppose to say? He growled and before I could comprehand what was going on his lips crashed down onto mine.
I didn't even stop to think. I kissed him back with all the passion that I had. I was trying to tell him in that kiss that I loved him. One of his hands was on the small of my back while the other was holding the back of my neck. I pressed myself closer to him and wrapped my arms around his neck. The kiss was amazing. I lost myself in it and forgot about everything. It wasn't until we both needed to breath that he pulled back. He kept his arms around me and laid his forehead on mine. His breath washed over my face. It smelt like mint and chocolate.
"I love you Eris," he whispered to me. The way he said it had me shivering in delight. "I know I shouldn't but I do." I frowned slightly at that last part. I tightened my grip on him.
"I love you too." I moved the inch or so that was between us and kissed him. He responded as soon as my lips met his. This kiss wasn't filled with passion and urgency like the last. This one was gentle and loving. It took my breath away. That night I laid in his arms and decided I didn't want to be anywhere else. I could die in that moment and I'd die happy.
He finally told her! I enjoyed writing this chapter and couldn't keep a smile off my face. There a lot of cliche in it but who doesn't like some cliche fluff.
Hope you guys enjoyed this chapter. Sixth year is coming to a rapid end. I think the next chapter will be the last one for Sixth year.
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