Hello adoring public Demons lolita back :) Did you miss me? Lmao. You couldnt considering I just posted last night. A lot of you say you A) Are unhappy with the ending B) Don't really understand it C) Think it was all a dream. OR D) All of the above. So im here to clear it up as much as I can :)
"Ryan?" He whispered. She lifted her tear stained face her tired blue eyes stared at him.
"I miss my mommy." She whimpered. "I want my daddy back. I want to stop feeling so sad all the time. I want to be a able to sleep at night. I hate trying so hard to just get through a day. I just want to be happy. Is that so much to ask?." She sobbed. "I don't want to wake up. Because when I dream. Your with me and you love me. So are my mommy and daddy. I don't have to pretend to fit in... Please don't make me go back." She wrapped her little arms around his neck. (This is to show that inside of Ryan's big tough girl additude is a broken little girl in mind body and soul)
"Ryan I'm here and I do love you. I love you so much." He held her close.
"Please Kider." She cried. "Just let me die." (She doesn't want to have to deal with reality again)
"No Ryan there are other options." Kider said forcefully.
"Like what?" She asked falling back into the seat.
"Silly little girl, we can go some where else. We can be together just you and me but please don't give up Ryan." He sobbed holding her face in his hands.
"My silly angry angel." She pressed her face into his chest. "I'll be happy... If I'm with you... But we gots to go's now." She said jumping off her thrown. She ran on her tiny legs back down the stairs. Kider was hot on her trail. Ryan flung open the door to the dungeon. Red Eye Ryan looked over her shoulder at little Ryan. And her eyes became soft and se shrank down smaller and small until she was the real Ryan's size. (Red Eye Ryan AKA Rage is shown in a teenagers body because Ryan's Rage grew with her but she held it in by medications and other things and when Kider released it, it took full force.)
She came foward to her they touched hands and Red eyed Ryan was gone in a red flash. Ryan's eyes flashed red before cooling and turning blue. (This is Rage joining Ryans emotional pool making her one) She ran out the back door through to her bed room. She touched yellow eyed Ryan's shoulder until she two was gone inside Ryan. (Yellow Eyed Ryan was fear and was captured in a moment of unadulterated terror.) The room turned to the room Kider had found her in tiny dwarf table included. She sprinted out that door and waiting for her their was Grey eyed (Grey Eyed Raven was Depression. The hangings friends and her 11 year old state showed her state of most depression right after her mom died and she felt as if she were killing her friends because soon they became depressed as well) Ryan and Pink Eyed Ryan (Happiness was kept in a place of perfection but she could only be with them in the grave yard so that is where Happy Ryan lied) they both touched her shoulder and disappeared.
"Ready Kider?" She asked her eyes glinting with childish amusement.
"For?" He asked.
"This." She grinned flicking her finger at the opening. It opened wide and there at the top was the bright light. "Take my hand." She smiled. Kider placed his hand in her tiny grasp. Wings sprouted from both their backs and they began to lift from the round toward the glowing light. Ryan gave Kider one more blinding smile. "See you on the other side." The light flashed around them and they were gone.
Ryan jolted from sleep. She looked around her room. Her heart was thrumming loudly in her chest. She clutched Joey close to her. She surveyed her room everything seemed to be in order. Big pink shag rug. Tiny dwarf table, Rocking horse, collection of Disney Tapes, Her lavender dress handing on the door nob. (ALL of this was said to make you realize Ryan is 5 years old again and has never met kider!) She ran a hand through her hair.
What a strange dream...She thought to herself. She laid her head back down on her pillow and snuggled back down into her pillow. Timmy and her were going to be watching Dracula tomorrow and she needed to be well rested at best. She could not get over how real that dream felt... Kider, Seth, Edward, Nira, Emily, Danni... They all seemed real to. And she couldn't get over how pretty she looked in her dream she almost giggled at the thought. And as she closed her eyes she slid into her normal sleeping position.
One hand around Joey and the other up clutching her make shift Ruby Ring necklace...
(But if all of this was dream how could she have Kider's Ruby Ring around her neck??)
I HOPE That cleared things up for you some what if not write me a review and ask me specific questions! And I will answer them as best I can! - Demons Lolita :)
