Violetta
I had walked out in tears from my argument with Mason. It was terrible, and I discovered just how much this actually hurt him. I hated myself, and I hated him, and I didn't know what to do anymore. What I needed more than ever was someone to talk to and someone to hold me, but everyone was angry with me except for Leah, and when I was close to the house and listened in, she was in an argument with Bella and Edward.
Mason couldn't follow me out into the pitch black forest because the girls were asleep and he couldn't leave them alone.
Tears were still pouring out of my eyes and I was still sobbing. I dropped to the ground and lent my back against a tree, pulling my knees to my chest. It was freezing out here. Even a vampire's touch felt like it would warm me up.
"Carlisle, she's broken down outside." I heard Esme say from inside the house. As much as I wanted someone to comfort me, I also didn't want anyone near me. It was a complicated feeling, but I decided against the comfort and got a cigarette out, lighting it and closing my eyes. No one would come out to me after seeing the lit cigarette, right?
My phone was exploding from Mason calling and texting me, the last text he sent read:
"Honey, I am so sorry this had to happen, but please come back and settle this with me. I calmed down, we can just talk, not argue. I love you Violetta."
I cried harder and after a few minutes, I put the useless cigarette butt down and put my head on my knees. I heard the back door open, listening for any noise, and I heard Carlisle's footsteps approach me. He had waited until I put the cigarette out.
He sat down beside me on the damp ground, "This isn't you, Violetta."
I didn't reply to him. Even if I wanted to, I was too choked up on my tears.
He sighed, "Look, I don't want to upset you more than you already are, but there are so many different and safe ways of controlling your stress. It's mostly caused by your depression, so the medication can help you, for one."
"Forget about the fucking medication! I don't need it!" I yelled. He didn't react at all, just watched and waited for me to calm down a bit.
Once I had dropped my head back down, he started listing several different ways that he thought could help relieve stress. I listened to him, but I was also listening to the sounds around me so I was aware if anyone else approached us.
He stopped his list and waited for me to communicate in some way. His phone buzzed and he unlocked it, looking at the text. A few seconds later, he put it back into his pocket and looked back at me.
"Come here." He said quietly. I lifted my head slightly and looked at him with one eye. He smiled and pulled me into his arms. He held me in complete silence for a long while, and I assumed it was Edward who texted him and told him that this is what I really needed.
I heard the backdoor slide open and close followed by footsteps.
"Sorry." Rosalie said quietly as she walked passed us.
"Where are you going?" I asked.
"To…hunt…"
"You're going to watch over the girls so Mason can look for me, aren't you?"
"He's really worried." She said.
I shook my head, "Don't go there."
"Why not?"
"Because I don't want to talk to him and because it's a mess."
"It's been 2 days! How is it a mess already? You've spent all your time here anyway."
"I messed it up like...20 minutes ago."
She gave my sympathetic eyes before she continued into the trees.
Carlisle kissed my forehead, "He was getting through to you, wasn't he?"
I admitted it with a nod and buried my face into his chest.
"Vi, to be honest, if you weren't breast feeding and didn't have 2 very small children constantly around you, this might not have been so much of a big deal, but this is really dangerous. Granted, we could have handled it better, but we're all just trying to make you see the dangers."
"I see them." I mumbled, "I just ignore them."
"So you want to poison your daughters?"
"No." I shook my head.
"I don't understand." He said.
"This is the first thing that I have found that actually seemed to help me. It's selfish, but I'm so over life right now and I can't handle it without some form of relaxation."
He sighed, "Look, I hate to say it, but sex?"
"But Lyla and Charlotte are always around, and when they're asleep, they're crying throughout the night."
"Make a date night."
"What?"
"Choose a night during the week where someone is free and willing to take the girls. They can stay at this house, and you and Mason can go out the movies or for dinner or whatever you want to do, and then you can spend some alone time at your cottage."
I stared at him in silence.
"Esme and Rosalie will be more than happy to have them, assuming Rosalie isn't working on that night, and I'll take them whenever I don't have a shift. Eleazar and Carmen don't work at night, I'm sure they'll take them."
I nodded, "Well, I mean, I have to see if Mason is going to take my daughters and leave or not."
"What?"
"He said if I don't quit then he's taking Lyla and Charlotte and he's leaving."
"That's not a great way to handle it, but if it helps." He shrugged his shoulders.
I heard footsteps and knew Mason was walked towards the house. He walked out of the trees and looked at us, "Jesus christ, Violetta. Do you have any idea how worried I have been?"
"Go home." I said.
"Did you look at my texts?"
I ignored him and closed my eyes, dropping my head back to Carlisle's chest.
He kissed my hair and turned to look at Mason, "The good news is, you were getting through to her."
We all looked up as we heard Bella yell out to Leah, who was outside and phased before our eyes. She ran through the gate and straight passed us. A few seconds later, Seth was phased and followed her, howling as if to call her back. He looked at Mason as he passed.
Renesmee stood at the gate, a few metres from us, looking to where they went. She looked so lost and torn between sides.
"Renesmee, don't follow her." Edward ordered from the backdoor beside Bella.
"Give her a fucking break!" I yelled at Edward and Bella.
"Letty." Carlisle hushed.
"No, they've been attacking her for at least an hour. That's not okay. She isn't even their child."
"I know, but Esme and I decided we didn't want to do it. Esme has been standing at that window and staring out, waiting to see if you would come back."
I kissed Carlisle's cheek, "I'm sorry daddy."
He kissed my forehead and I wiped my eyes before standing from his arms. He stood up, "What are you going?"
"I'm going home and I'm going to bed." I said.
He smiled and kissed my forehead again, "Goodnight."
"I love you." I said to him.
"I love you too, sweetheart."
He nodded to Mason before he walked through the gate and inside. I wasn't sure which home I was going to yet.
"I don't want to argue anymore." Mason said once Carlisle disappeared.
"Don't worry, I'm quitting. I might need your help, though."
He smiled and sighed in relief, "Thank you. So much."
I nodded and walked to him, taking the cigarette packet and lighter out of my pocket. He took the packet, "If I were you, I would keep that in your bag in case we are to run into some unwanted vampires one day."
I nodded, "Yeah, good idea." I slipped the lighter back into my pocket and he kissed my forehead.
"My god, you're freezing." He said, pulling to me to his body. I shivered at the touch and closed my eyes.
"Violetta, please promise me you'll never do anything stupid like this again?"
"I promise." I said quietly. I looked up at him and he left a few small kisses on my lips.
"Come on, we should go and let Rosalie return to her husband."
I nodded and he took my hand, pulling me into the trees. I told him about Carlisle's date night suggestion and he was all for it.
