Don't hurt me please for not updateing. Lots of exams...maths tomorrow ( forgive me and review :)

Meredith sat crossed legged on the couch, her sweat pants and jumper swamping her tiny frame but clinging to her bump. The reruns of friends had finished and now the repeats of cheers had been running for an hour.

Meredith put her hair up in a pony tail and lifted the bottle of juice that was down by the side of the couch. Derek had been due back an hour before and Meredith knew he was probably avoiding her, giving her the space she wanted but also needed.

Everyone had been fussing over the baby, not giving Meredith a chance to think. In a good way, not having time had prevented Meredith from thinking about the accident, but at times she wished she could just go back.

'Oh my god,' The strip turned blue. She was pregnant. Meredith's hand trembled and the test fell to the floor, narrowly avoiding Meredith's feet.. She jumped back, her hand instinctively going over her stomach. The silence of the house made Meredith nervous. Natalie was at day care and Derek working. She was alone, nobody trying to get into the bathroom. Lifting the test, Meredith lifted her coat and keys and made her way to the hospital.

The roads were quiet.. Meredith couldn't listen to music, the blue strip sitting next to her on the passenger seat. She was pregnant, having a baby. They hadn't been trying and weren't planning on it happening.

Meredith slowed down as she reached the junction but the lights turned from red to amber and finally to green. Meredith speed up, not counting on a stray car running the red light. Meredith tried to brake, but he kept ploughing into the side of her.

Meredith lifted her hands off the steering wheel and wrapped them around herself. Meredith curled up, her head buried into her chest. The car stopped after going onto it's side. Opening her eyes slowly, the first thing she saw was blood coming from her arm and the feeling on blood trickling down her face.

'Are you ok?' Meredith squinted as the male stood in front of her, trying to pull her out.

'Derek…I need to see Derek' Meredith closed her eyes, trying to block out the pain as he pulled her from the wreckage. She laid in the middle of the road as the motorists stopped to help, the male driver of the other car trying to keep her awake.

'I'm so sorry…I got a phone call…my wife…she's in hospital…she had a heart attack,' Meredith counted to ten before hearing the gasp of the motorist. Opening her eyes she started sobbing. Blood was on her trousers.

'Your pregnant?' Meredith sat up, nodding, and started pulling her trousers off.

'Hold on…wait, don't start stripping in the middle of the street,' Meredith's stomach started spasming, causing her to scream out in pain. She fell back, her head landing on the guys lap.

'What we got?' Two paramedics walked over, instantly lifting Meredith away from him.

'She's pregnant, that's all I know. I didn't mean for this to happen,'

The words echoed in Meredith's ears. He didn't mean for it to happen but it did, almost destroying her and her life. Meredith opened her eyes at the sound of the front door. She prayed that it wouldn't wake Natalie.

'Mere?'

'I'm in here,' Derek came in and sat down on the couch next to her.

'I'm sorry I yelled at you earlier. I just…'

'You feel like all any body cares about is the baby and not you and that as long as the baby is ok then you must be fine,'

'Yeah,' Derek stood up and pulled Meredith to her feet.

'What are you doing?'

'It's a surprise,'

'I hate surprises,' Derek grinned mischievously.

'Where are we going? Natalie's up the stairs,' Derek took Meredith to the front door and opened it. Addison and Mark were standing with the twins, both of them fast asleep.

'I'll see you guys later,' Mark pushed Meredith and Derek out the house.

'I'm not dressed for going out,'

'It doesn't matter,' Meredith watched Derek the whole way to the deserted buildings.

'Derek, you gonna tell me what we are doing here?'

'You'll see,' Derek took hold of her hand and she followed him dutifully still watching where he was going.

'Hey, I'm here under shepherd. I arranged it with Simon,' The electronic door opened as soon as Derek finished talking over the buzzer. Meredith followed him up the concrete stairs to a pure white door. Derek went behind Meredith and pushed her forward gently. Leaning down he whispered in her ear.

'Have fun,' Derek opened the door, allowing Meredith to see inside. It was pure white with candles lit up everywhere.

'what…'

'Go and be pampered. Forget about everything and just relax,' Meredith went forward a few steps her hand still in Derek's.

'What have you planned?'

'You'll see,' A tall black haired guy, the same height and build as Derek came forward.

'Derek, good to see you again. And this must be the beautiful woman you were talking about earlier. Meredith I presume,'

'Yeah,'

'I'm Simon,' Meredith nodded and then started smiling broadly at Derek.

'So what are we having done today?' Meredith looked at Derek.

'Full,'

'Full eh? What did you do?' Derek's face went red.

'Didn't understand,' Simon nodded.

'Let me guess he didn't tell you he was doing this?'

'How did you know?'

'I went through University with Derek when I was still deciding what to do. We were in a band together,'

'Derek wasn't the main singer,' Derek pretended to be offended.

'Tell me you haven't subjected this wonderful woman to your deafening singing,'

'Hey, I could spill some stories on you,'

'I'm shutting up now. Ok, Lets get you through here,' Meredith followed Simon through, the grip on Derek's hand still not letting go.

'I will see you later. What time do you expect to be done at?'

'Derek, this is not something that is to be rushed. We'll phone you when were nearly done,' Derek kissed Meredith on the forehead.

'Have fun. Remember and relax. Enjoy it. Go with the flow,' Derek watched as Simon ushered her away into another room.

'God help you Meredith, you won't escape,' Derek left and went on a mission to find a certain present her knew he had to get. Meredith slipped into the large white robe, still feeling quite anxious.

'Do what he said. Relax. I'm not going to eat you,' Meredith smiled and really did actually start to relax.

'Now, I do belive that you are about seven months pregnant?'

'How'd you guess?'

'I have my ways,' Simon handed Meredith a black bathing suit and left her to get changed into it.

'You ready?' Meredith tightened her hair back away from her face. Simon took her through to a large room with a large round pool in the middle of it.

'Ok Meredith. If you just jump in, we'll get started,' Meredith eased herself into the water and lay on her back. The water was warm and soothing, not too hot or too cold and didn't seem to get any cooler as she lay in the water, her body releasing any stress it had.

'Hey, I'm Paula. I'm going to be working with you today so can you just turn onto the gel pad and kneel on it for me? I also need to ask are you ok with me coming into the water with you?'

'Yeah sure,' Paula slipped off her T-Shirt to reveal a white swimming costume.

'Ok, I'm going to start working on your back. Do you have any history of back pain or anything like that?'

'Except for being pregnant, no,' Paula laughed. Meredith put her hands on the edge of the pool and kneeled down on the gel like pads.

'So how's the pregnancy been for you?' Meredith was surprised by the question. No one had asked specifically how the pregnancy had been for her and now some one had asked, she just wanted to let everything out.

'Amazing but also a nightmare,'

'You can tell me as much or as little as you want. Anything that is said doesn't go any further,' Meredith smiled.

'This is my second baby but it's also my third, if that makes sense. I had a miscarriage after an accident. I never really thought being pregnant again would be so strange or so annoying. Everyone seems to care about the baby and if the baby's ok,'

'And nobody seems to think that you're a separate person?'

'Exactly. Derek's been great but it's like I've become…invisible at times and all he sees is a baby,'

'Worst of all he doesn't see it,'

'Yeah. I mean for example, I was in contact with a chemical at work that a patient was burned with. I didn't know that it can effect un born children. Everyone told me to go and see my doctor but no one asked if I had been burned or if I was feeling ok. And when I said something to Derek he thought I was just being sensitive,'

'And were you being sensitive or is it a big thing?'

'No, it is a big thing and I think if I hadn't had the miscarriage it would just be like my first pregnancy,'

'You have another child?'

'Natalie. She'll be hitting two in a month. She's an angel,'

'You know what your having?'

'A boy. We're going to wait though, pick a name for him once he's born. We did it for Natalie, so we'll do it for him,'

'Does she know mommies having a baby?'

'She's really cute and points to my stomach and says baby,'

'You looking forward to him arriving?'

'What? And loose the bloatedness, belly burn, swollen ankles, cravings, and tiredness? No, seriously though I am dieing to see him. It seems like yesterday I was just telling Derek that I was pregnant and now, he's nearly here,'

'well remember, you trade all that in for the late nights, sore breasts if you breast feed, dirty nappies, sickness, piles and piles of washing, not being able to leave the house without an entire baby shop on your arm and having everyone stop and ask you how your feeling cause you look like crap from the sleepless nights,'

'But every single one of those things will be worth it when he sits up for the first time, smiles, talks, and walks. I'd do it again and again. No surgery or drug could give you the same high as knowing that you're a mom and that there's a tiny person waiting for you at home that needs you more than anything else in this world. All those things during and after pregnancy are so worth it,'