Chap 54
2nd January
"Carla Connor... Dr carter will see you now"
"Hiya Carla. Come in take a seat"
"Thanks for seeing me Dr Carter"
"No problem. How's the little one doing?"
"Oh she's great. Ken has her at today, me and peter both working. I'm a little worried about what she be like flying on Thursday"
"Oh I'm sure she will be ok Carla"
"So what can I do for you?"
"We'll remember when I was pregnant with Emmie and then after I had her and you said that my cycles would go back to normal?"
"Yes. I do. Have things still not been right Carla?"
"No and I was here with a Locum one day before Christmas to go back on my pill and she said that I would have to wait untill I got back to normal"
"Yea she is right Carla. I can't give you a prescription for a contraceptive pill without knowing your exact dates because it will be ineffective. What I can do is some tests to try and determine the cause of the irregularities, but it takes time"
"What are my other options?"
"We'll there are different forms of contraception. There's the injection, the bar..."
"Let me stop you there, the reason I liked the pill was because I could come on and off it when I liked, it gave me the control, like of I wanted to mid my period I could an just keep taking my pill"
"But Carla that's not the right way to use the pill"
"Oh everyone does it" Carla was getting frustrated now.
"Look, maybe you should talk to Peter and discuss other options, more permanent one perhaps"
Carla's stomach turned. At that very moment all she thought if was Simon and Emmie. What if Peter had of got that done before, she wouldn't have her beautiful little girl.
They had never discussed the concept of more kids, but they had never ruled it out either.
At that moment Carla felt like she was a losing a baby she didn't even have just the thought of a permanent fix to not having kids.
"I think your right Dr Carter. Ill speak to him when were back and ill make another appointment with you. Thanks"
Later that night
Carla couldn't shift the feeling she had since her visit with Dr Carter. She felt silly. Should I talk to someone? Who? What do I say? All these thoughts buzzing around her head at one hundred miles an hour as she bathed her little girl, dressing her for bed. As scared as she was about having a baby she wouldn't change it for the world, she loved Emmie. She loved Peter and Simon. They had a perfect little family set up and the support of friends and family. Her thoughts were interrupted.
"Carla. Babe. You ok?" She felt peters arms snake in around her slim waist as he gently kissed the back of her neck. She felt calm again. He did it to her. She was going to talk to him. She had to... He was so upset that she had spoke to Michelle about being pregnant before him. He never let on but she knew deep down.
"Sorry baby I'm just thinking about our holiday. I can't wait" Carla lied. She was thinking about the holiday, looking forward to it. But she needed to just tell him what was really on her mind.
"Why don't I take over here and get Simon sorted while I'm at it and you take a bath and we can watch a film or something when the kids are in bed?" Peter offered.
"I'd love that... If you sure baby" Carla planted a soft kiss on his cheek as she went off for a nice long soak
Lying on the sofa a couple of hours later Carla lay across peters chest with a DVD on in the background but she was in a world of her own.
"Peter i need to talk to you about something"
"Sure. What is it?" He said as he propped himself up on the sofa, a worried look across his face.
"I wanted to wait until we were back from France but I just can't get it out of my head"
"Carla your worrying me babe. Please what's wrong"
"Peter I went to see Dr Carter before Christmas, only it was a locum, about going back on the pill"
"Ok, and what's wrong with that"
Carla explained to Peter everything that doctor carter had said before cautiously approaching the subject that hurt her the most... "A permanent fix" Peter repeated a couple of times.
"Yea... I'm not saying I want more kids Peter... I love Emmie and Simon and you, this family we have is everything to me but when Dr. Carter said it..." Carla struggled to find the words to tell Peter how she felt.
"I felt like someone was telling me I've lost something I never actually had. I mean how stupid does that sound? How can you lose something you never had?..." Carla rambled on as Peter listened, taking in every word she said.
"Hey come here to me... Shhhhh... It's ok" Peter cuddled Carla close to him a the two of them took time to digest the situation.
"hey there will be no permanent solutions okay, I don't want that and either do you. We will work something out. If you can't get the pill I'm sure there are other options baby"
"Peter I'm not saying I want another baby... I'm happy, but I'm not saying in the future.."
"Hey" Peter cut her off as she began crying again. "We have been okay so far, maybe we should just play it by ear and if it happens its meant to be, if not then that's fine too"
"Really" Carla was shocked.
"I don't want what I had with Leanne Carla, timetables and only having sex when it's time to get pregnant, it horrible, it takes the romance and the spark out of the relationship. We have fun, we have a great sex life" Peter continued as he stroked Carla's arm lovingly. "I don't want to lose that"
"I like the sound of that. Just see what happens..." With that the two were locked in passionate embrace as they made their way from the sofa towards the bedroom before Carla broke their kiss...
"Peter. We should stay out here I don't want to wake emmie. We have to fly tomorrow"
"We've never woke her before" Peter tried to reignite their kiss.
Carla bit his bottom lip seductively as she refused to budge. "Tonight. I want. You. To make me scream..."
Peter was already hard but hearing Carla talking like that instantly made his cock ache for her.
