Disclaimer: This story is a fictional work of my own, and is in no way associated to ATWT, CBS, their sponsors, or the actors. The events and characters depicted in this story are purely fictional and should not be misconstrued for real life events and characters. This story is A.U.
WARNINGS/RATING: MATURE. This chapter contains Strong Language, and Sexually Explicit Content.
"Through Thick and Thin"
Chapter: 16 (alternate ending
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Chad was seated in a booth downstairs at the restaurant waiting for Bryan. His face was still glowing from their full night of passion. Bryan's amorous ways had made an impression on Chad's body. He felt Bryan's fingertips still caressing his cheek, abdomen and thighs. He felt Bryan's tongue on his lips, neck and stomach. Bryan's green eyes had rested everywhere on Chad's body and he still felt the smoldering heat from them warming his skin.
He had ordered breakfast for Bryan and himself and was sipping on a Mimosa while he waited. His thoughts rewound to last evening at the clinic.
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Chad had smiled when Bryan led him into the waiting room. It was circus themed for the children. The walls were colorful and painted like the inside of a big top tent. Friendly looking cartoon-ish lions and tigers were smiling on the wall behind the reception desk. Elephants and clowns were painted tastefully on the opposite wall. Small tables and chairs, as well as adult sized chairs, were placed around the room as were books and various toys for any child's age. Bryan had showed him the examining rooms, the conference room and the lab. Lastly, he took Chad's hand and walked to his private office.
Chad had taken an awestruck look around. He saw Bryan's credentials hanging on the wall, his diploma and pictures of his family. There was a wall with bookshelves full of medical books. Bryan's desk was mahogany and large. Bryan had lifted Chad up and set his butt down on the desk. He asked with a sly look, "Will you help me break in my office?"
Chad had grinned and nodded enthusiastically, then Bryan had made love to him on the desk.
Bryan was sanitizing his desk when they were done and exclaimed, "Damn Chad! Whenever I'm going to be in here sitting at my desk, I'm going to hear your hoarse voice screaming out, your body thrashing, and your cock shooting off and hitting my computer screen."
Chad sipped his drink silently chuckling at that thought when Elliot walked up to his table with two plates in his hands.
Chad looked up and eyed Elliot with contempt then looked away. Nothing could take away his good mood, not even this asshole. Bryan told him he loved him and they had made love which made him feel incredibly euphoric.
Elliot set the two plates down and saw Chad sulking, waiting for Elliot to leave, not wanting to engage in conversation.
"Good morning. It seems as though you've 'lost' your date? Did he come to his senses?" Elliot said with scorn.
Chad looked at him with a smirk and said, "Shut the hell up. You don't know what you're talking about."
Elliot replied, "Perhaps, but I know how you young guys are. You use these men with money until you tire of them. You break their hearts with your empty promises of love and faithfulness, but you're all just little boys who want a "daddy" to take care you."
Chad snarled, "You stupid fuck! That's not how I am! Maybe YOU got burned like that, but I have no intention of using Bryan like that!"
"You're saying you two haven't had sex yet?" Elliot snarled back. "Somehow I find that hard to believe. You use sex as a way to get what you want, you're just a whorish hustler.
"This is none of your business, you sick fuck!" Chad yelled, catching the attention of the table next to him. He said in a lower voice, "Leave me the hell alone."
Elliot smirked knowing he was getting to Chad. "He's out of your league and you know it. You're a lowly poor college kid and he's a Doctor. I'm sure he's highly respected and revered."
Chad had felt the same way. What was Bryan doing with him? Why did Bryan want to be with him to begin with?
Chad sat silent while Elliot continued his insults and observations. He noticed the expensive leather bracelet Chad had on and asked, "Did Dr. Johnson give that piece of jewelry to you?"
Chad raised his hand a little and fingered the braided leather band. "What's it to you if he did?" He said agitatedly as he glowered at Elliot.
Elliot bent down low and said, "I could call the cops and tell them you accepted that as a gift in return for sex. I would say you came in here with a certain Doctor, a trick. Get my drift?"
Chad's mouth opened. He had a look of astonishment and fear on his face. He murmured, "What?"
Elliot said, "Go, Leave. I've called you a cab. Get out of here or I will call the police and say you were caught soliciting sex in the lobby."
"My friends will stick up for me. They'll know you're lying!" Chad spat.
"Most likely, but I can feign innocence and say that I came to the wrong conclusion about you. However, by then the police will already have made a scene and your Doctor friend will be embarrassed to say the least. He won't want anything to do with you after the rumors start flying. He won't want to be associated or connected to you with the town thinking that you're a whore. He won't want the reputation of being seen with someone as questionable as you." Elliot smiled evily.
Chad stood up angrily and said through clenched teeth, "Fine asshole, but leave Bryan out of this!!"
"Cabs' out front waiting for you... kid." Elliot watched Chad get his bag and walk to the lobby. Elliot muttered to himself, "Stupid college punk kids think they can use anyone and do anything they want."
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Josh and Terry came downstairs and went to the desk to check out. Josh had his arm around Terry's shoulders protectively, as if he was sheltering him from the turmoil and misfortune they were experiencing.
Josh looked around. Not seeing anyone, he rang the tiny dome shaped bell sitting on the counter. Elliot was smiling when he came into the lobby and took his place behind the desk.
"Checking in or.... out?" Elliot lost his smile when he saw the two college boys in front of him.
Josh had put their bags on the floor and stood up. "Checking out." he looked at Elliot and smiled.
"Hello Joshua, how are things?" Elliot looked at Terry with displeasure, then back at Josh's face.
"Fine thanks. This is Terry, my boyfriend." Josh pulled Terry nearer.
"So I gathered, I saw you both here a while back. I didn't get a chance to say hello." Elliot said, lacking warmth in his voice.
Josh laughed and said, "It seemed as if you were busy bothering our other friends, Bryan and Chad."
Elliot leaned forward and muttered, "So, I've been thinking, was I just a fun fuck for you or did you care about me like you said you did before you quit calling? Huh? I'd really like to know!"
Terry looked at Josh and rolled his eyes in disappointment. He walked to a chair and sat down.
"What right do you have to ask me that? That was like 6 months ago! Get over it!" Josh whispered harshly.
"Is that your answer to everything! Get over it? I told you that I want us to be together and that I was falling in love with you. What did you do? You said that you would stop screwing around, then I find out you can't keep your little prick in your pants!"
"El, I specifically told you that I would "try" to stop, besides, that was a long time ago. I'm sorry I led you on, but I couldn't settle down with you. I was insatiable."
"That's no excuse! You used me to get what you wanted and when that wasn't enough you went out and cheated with a countless number of guys!"
Josh looked astonished, "I told you we weren't an item Elliot! I told you I didn't want to be tied down!"
"Bullshit! You led me on when you told me that I was the best lover you had while you fucked me! You probably say that to everyone, including him over there!" Elliot pointed to Terry who had his head resting back against the wall with his eyes closed. Terry had a massive headache from worry and anxiety, and now Josh and Elliot were going at it.
Terry sighed and asserted himself, "Shut up you two." but his words fell on deaf ears.
Elliot and Josh kept at it, going back and forth with insults and comebacks.
Terry yelled, "Shut the hell up! Josh lets go!"
Josh turned around and bit his lip then turned back to Elliot. "Get a fucking life man! I've changed!" he spun around and walked to Terry. "Let's get out of this hell hole."
Terry stood up feeling defeated and down. "Josh? Can you just drop me off at the dorm and hang out somewhere else? I kinda wanna be alone."
They walked to the car. "I guess. You don't want to be around me? Is that it?"
Terry shook his head slowly. "No, I just want to think." he said in a monotone voice.
Josh looked at him as he backed the car out of the parking lot. He said in a worried voice, "I'm sorry the condom had a hole in it Terry. I wish I could do something. I feel horrible. Can't I just stay with you and hold you?"
Terry sighed heavily and said softly, "It's not your fault. I want to be alone for awhile. Please?" He stared out the window with tears in his eyes that he wouldn't let fall.
Josh drove the rest of the way in silence. He stopped outside the dorm, then Terry reached for the door handle.
Josh reached out and touched Terry's arm, getting his attention. Terry slowly turned his head and looked at him with his eyebrows raised in question.
"I love you Terry." Josh leaned over to kiss him.
Terry quickly pecked Josh on the lips, turned away and mumbled, "Me too." He got out of the car and without looking back, walked in through the building's front doors.
Josh let out the breath he was holding and drove away. He knew he shouldn't leave Terry alone. Bryan told him that he should support Terry, but if supporting him meant giving Terry his space, he was willing to help that way. He didn't want to be gone long, so he drove to Java and sat at a table sipping an espresso.
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Bryan headed downstairs to the restaurant. He walked through, then once again while Elliot kept a close eye on him.
"May I help you with something Dr. Johnson?" he asked with a smile on his face.
Bryan looked past Elliot then at his face. He said kindly, "Yes, if you wouldn't mind. I'm looking for Chad, the blond young man that you've seen me with. Have you seen him?"
Elliot nodded and said, "He left. Took a cab."
Bryan raised an eyebrow and said with one side of his face turned away. He looked at the manager with distrust and total skepticism.
"Now why would he do that do you suppose?" Bryan asked suspiciously.
Elliot cleared his throat. "I told him to leave because I was onto his game. This Chad person is obviously using you for some sort of gain. He is immature and very rude. I have had experience with their type. These college kids only want a quick hook up that's all. They cannot be trusted because they are not reliable and they grow tired of relationships fast."
Bryan was appalled. He leaned forward with a menacing look on his face, ready to beat the shit out of Elliot. He expressed strong disapproval and anger, "Who gave you the right to send MY boyfriend away? I'd like to speak to the owner.. NOW!"
Elliot nodded ashamedly. He dialed Lilly Snyder and spoke softly into the receiver, then handed the phone to Bryan.
Bryan eyed Elliot with disbelief at the arrogance and gall of this man. He grabbed the phone, covered the phone with his free hand and said with a sneer, "Excuse me! I'd like some privacy!"
Elliot excused himself. He knew he was going to be fired for his actions, but he didn't care. He was planning on moving to Vegas to work in the bigger hotels there. He truly had good intentions and thought he was honestly doing Bryan a favor by showing him that these young indecisive spoiled brats weren't worth the heartache.
Bryan spoke calmly and professionally to Mrs. Snyder. She was very polite and accommodating.
"I am very sorry you had to experience that Dr. Johnson. I will speak to Elliot immediately and he will be terminated. I don't condone behavior like his in my hotel and I am grateful that you let me know the circumstances of your stay."
"Like I said Mrs. Snyder, I agree his actions were uncalled for. Luckily I know Chad well enough and he wouldn't have run off like Elliot would have liked me believe."
"I apologize once again for Elliot's behavior sir. May I offer you a complimentary night to stay in one of our more expensive suites Doctor Johnson?"
"No, thats quite alright and call me Bryan. Doctor seems so pretentious. By the way, your son, Luciano, is a very upstanding young man."
Lilly smiled and commented, "That is very kind of you to say Bryan. Call me Lilly. You know him through Noah?"
Bryan answered with a smile in his voice, "No, we met through Chad. He used to date Noah. They continue to remain friends and we were introduced recently."
"Oh how nice! Well if I can't persuade you with a free night, how about a free meal? Luke and Noah are visiting for Thanksgiving and we would love for you and Chad to come as well. Luke's grandmother Emma cooks so much food and there will be plenty to go around."
Bryan grinned, "You know what? That sounds like a deal. Chad and I would love to join you and your family for thanksgiving dinner. Is there anything I can bring?"
Lilly laughed whole heartedly, "Oh no! We are going to have leftovers for weeks as it is. She cooks up a storm. I'll give you the address. Got a pen and paper?"
Bryan felt his jacked pocket then checked the desk of the hotel. "Um, no I don't. I can get directions from Luciano."
"I look forward to meeting you and Chad." Lilly smiled into the phone. "See you then."
Bryan put his overnight bag in the car and turned the heater on high. He dialed Chad's cell. The voice mail picked up, so he hung up. He checked the time on his watch and thought that if he left right now, he'd almost make it in time to start work. He made another phone call, then put his car in reverse and took a left out of the parking lot.
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Luke woke up first. He stared at Noah's bare back and neck, then quickly turned his head and saw that Toke was still asleep. He directed his attention to Noah again and stuck out his tongue and made contact with the nape of Noah's neck. Noah sighed in his sleep, but didn't wake up.
Luke placed his lips on Noah and planted kisses on the back of Noah's neck and shoulder, while intermittently giving him long licks of his warm wet tongue. His arms encircle Noah's chest from behind and lightly stroked his skin. He began to get more aggressive and sucked the smooth skin on the nape of Noah's neck..
Noah woke up and moaned. He whispered, "Luuuuke.. ahhh."
Luke chuckled and murmured, "You taste delicious baby."
Noah turned his body around and faced Luke with a salacious look.
Luke opened his mouth half way and wiggled his tongue at his lover. Noah quickly placed a hand behind Luke's neck and drew him near. His eyes slowly closed as he kissed Luke deeply. Luke wrapped his arm around Noah's waist and gently tugged at his body, indicating he roll on top of him.
Noah broke the kiss and glanced at Toke. He was still sleeping soundly. Noah mounted Luke, dove in and attacked the side of Luke's neck. He pushed his jean clad hips to Luke's and ground his erection against his, then muttered in his ear, "I want you. I want to be alone with you." then he sucked and nibbled on his earlobe.
Luke pushed the back of his head against his pillow and he said huskily, "I need a really good fuck Noah."
Noah grinned and said, "I'm just the man for that position babe." then he leaned low, to Luke's ear and breathed, "I love your body."
Luke rubbed the palm of his hands up and down Noah's back and moaned, "You're making me so hard. I can't wait to undress you and ravish your body."
Noah held Luke's face and lowered his head. He forcefully kissed Luke, pressing their lips together, then they each opened their mouths for their tongues to meet.
Noah's hips were gliding and gyrating against Luke. They were so wrapped up in the kiss when a loud cough filled the silent room. Like a shot, Noah rolled off Luke and grumbled, "Shit."
Toke got up and rolled his eyes. "Jesus! Control yourselves. Don't you get like.. rug burn when you do that with your jeans on or were you trying to start a fucking fire? Where's the fire extinguisher when ya need one?" he teased, then walked into the bathroom with clean clothes and shut the door.
Luke and Noah giggled. They kissed once more and rose off the bed.
When Toke came out of the bathroom showered and changed, he said, "I have to go. I gotta get Mick and take her back to the apartment. I'm her only ride.
"I can take her." Noah wrapped an arm around Luke when he volunteered. "Luke and I, that is."
Toke shook his head. "No, it'll give Mick and I a chance to figure out who's moving out... maybe she already has a place picked out. Either way, we need to talk."
"Good luck." Luke sounded serious as he looked Toke in the eye.
"Thanks you two." Toke said and grabbed his bag, then left.
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Luke and Noah had just showered and lay naked on the bed. Noah was lying on his back and Luke was facing him. His fingers were tracing every inch of Noah's body. Each one of Noah's firm muscles were being outlined by Luke's fingertip. His hand explored and went over every curve of his body with firm pressure. Then Luke decided to continue to explore Noah's body, this time with his tongue.
Noah started trembling, gasping and whimpering. His head was reeling with the feel of light licking and nipping. He couldn't contain the force of the loud groan emerging from his throat when he felt the tingling of Luke's love bites on his thighs.
Luke gradually moved back up Noah's body. He paused at and passed his tongue over each nipple before continuing. He stopped at the base of Noah's throat to suck on the skin almost to point of hurting. Luke drew back, then place light feathery kisses on the bright red mark. Luke traced the shape of Noah's lips with a fingertip as he kissed and soothed Noah's throat.
When he finished the detailed attention to Noah's neck, Luke raised his head and wiggled his eyebrows while flashing a lopsided smile to Noah. He bent over Noah's face and kissed the tip of his nose, then the leading edge of Luke's tongue met Noah's tantalizing lips.
Noah responded by parting his lips and accepted Luke's curious tongue into his mouth. Their tongues swiftly danced unhampered by restraint. Luke continued to run his hand along the inside of Noah's thigh.
His voice was deep and husky when he asked "Can I top you from behind?"
Noah licked his lips and opened his eyes. "You bet!" he answered readily.
Luke bit his lip and said, "Lay on your stomach babe. I'll be right back." Luke got up and got out the KY he had packed for their overnight stay. He walked back to the bed with a sly smirk on his face. He sat next to Noah, who had turned over. With his index finger, Luke traced the crack of his ass.
"UMMMM" Noah buried his face in the pillow.
Luke licked his lips and requested with authority, "Spread your legs. Open those babies wide for me."
Noah spread his legs thinking at the same time that he loved the fact that his lover was making a comeback to normalcy. The anti-anxiety pills were really helping Luke become the person Noah had met last summer. The sure and confident man he had been.
Luke got right between Noah's muscular legs and stared at the view of Noah's ass. He rubbed one cheek with the palm of his hand, then pinched it while saying, "Damn Noah, you are so fucking gorgeous. Look at that ass!
Luke bent over and licked up the crack with his wet tongue, then moved his face to the right cheek. He kissed and licked that side while his hand kneaded the other cheek.
Noah raised his ass and begged breathlessly, "Please.... would you... Ahhhhh"
Luke had already spread Noah's cheeks apart and went down on him. He licked circles around Noah's hole. Electric bolts shot up through Noah's body when he felt the tip of Luke's tongue penetrate him.
"UUUH, more!" Noah let out a strangled cry.
Luke's tongue probed deeper and moved in and out faster as he pulled Noah's hips to his face.
Noah gasped "Luuuuke"
Luke withdrew his tongue to replace it with what Noah really wanted. He aligned his cock with Noah's body and pressed up against him. He firmly entered Noah with a grunt and held onto Noah's hips.
Noah sucked in a deep lungful of air when he felt every inch of Luke's cock, every twitch and every brush against his 'pleasure spot as Luke slid all the way into him.
Luke stalled when he couldn't go any deeper. Countless minutes passed while Noah waited for some kind of movement from Luke. Then Noah waited some more, for what seemed like an eternity. He turned his head and looked over his shoulder at Luke.
Luke smiled contentedly with his evil lopsided smile and flexed his cock inside Noah.
Noah reached back and ran his hand up and down Luke's thigh and pleaded, "Move that sweet ass and make me yours." He pushed himself back onto Luke and almost pushed Luke off the bed in the process.
Luke wrapped his arms around Noah's chest and leaned onto his back. He kissed the nape of Noah's neck and muttered, "Boy you are impatient. You want it? I'm gonna give it to ya babe."
They both breathed really heavily when Noah had tightened the wall of his muscles to keep Luke inside longer, but Luke withdrew his cock nearly all the way.
"AUUWWWW!"
"AUUUHHHHH!"
Luke's lips locked on the juncture between Noah's neck and shoulder before the onslaught of ramming his ass began. He sucked on the skin and took small nips with his teeth.
Noah's impatience grew and he pushed back against Luke once again. In turn, Luke pushed up into Noah forcefully which caused Noah to fall to his elbows and he almost hit his head on the head board.
"AAAAH! Shit Luke!" Noah called out when he felt Luke's piercing hit him just right.
"Get up babe, I'm gonna ride you like you've never been ridden before." Luke said lustfully. His hand came around to the front of Noah's body and griped his erection as he rotated his hips, deviating from the usual in and out motion.
Noah's senses were overwhelmed. He let out a long low moan, then reached back and pulled Luke's thigh to his ass to signal that he wanted more. They drew away from each other at the same time and clashed together as one in unison.
Their bodies shuddered together as waves built up inside them. Luke began to stroke Noah's cock to the rhythm of his own hips moving against him.
They felt the pressure that was withheld inside them. Luke continued to pump Noah's cock furiously knowing they were on the verge of cumming.
Noah clamped down his inner muscles beyond Luke's ability to withstand. Noah felt the warmth flooding throughout him and inside him when Luke came. Intense feelings of elation washed over Noah as he released the first of many shots of cum forcefully, then ebbing off as he shouted and swore.
When the shock~waves of ecstasy finally subsided and faded, Luke collapsed against Noah and totally withdrew from him this time.
"God, that was incredible" Noah gasped and shivered. The beauty of what they had shared was surreal and breathtaking. Peace showed on his face.
"I think so too." Luke quietly replied. A sense of total serenity softened his face.
Luke rolled off Noah's back and faced him. His hand went under Noah's chin to raise his head to look into his blue eyes searching and reaching to his very soul. His lips brushed against Noah's cheek.
"I love you." Luke smiled.
Noah felt shivers run up and down his spine. "I love you too Luke." He kissed Luke's lips and felt emotional. They feel the kiss throughout their entire being.
Luke reached for and held Noah's hand. He brought it to his silken lips and kissed it. "Every time I hear your voice express your love for me, I hear another reason to keep and cherish you forever Noah." He looked back up into his eyes. They were shining even a brighter blue now.
Noah's eyes were glistening with tears. He responded with a smile.
Luke continued, "Without you, I wouldn't be who I am today. You're my life." He caressed Noah's cheek, wiping the tears away.
Noah kissed Luke tenderly. "You've made me the happiest man in the world." He brushed his lips across Luke's lips again. "I love you so much." he breathed the words into Luke's mouth, then kissed him with adoration and burning affection.
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Josh checked the time. It had only been a few insignificant minutes and already he was missing Terry. He pulled his cell phone out of his pocket and stared at it. He had pressed the buttons to Terry's cell. All he had to do was push 'call' then thought better of it.
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Terry sat on his bed with the scissors in his hand, the ones that had pierced the condom he and Josh used last night. He cursed himself for not checking the foil wrapper before putting it in his wallet.
He opened the scissors wide and placed the end of one blade against his forearm and dragged it across his skin making a mark, not deep, but enough to draw blood. He felt the pain shoot down his arm while he remembered Josh's astonished panic stricken face when he broke down in their room at the hotel. He felt that he had caused Josh to feel guilty and responsible for everything. He didn't mean to cause Josh so much worry and pain. He made another 5 inch mark on his arm....
Josh had enough. He got up from the table in Java and drove back the the dorm. He didn't care that Terry needed to be alone. Josh didn't want to be alone, he wanted to be with Terry.
When Josh opened the door to the room he stood still, frozen in time. Terry looked up from his wounds and dropped the scissors. He quickly hid his arm behind his back a little too late.
"What the fucking hell are you doing?!" Josh yelled. "I leave you alone so you can hurt yourself?"
Josh ran to the bed and grabbed Terry's arm. He turned it over and looked at his bloodied forearm.
Terry pulled his arm away and cradled it. Josh got up and went to the bathroom across the hall. He wet some paper towels and brought them to the room. He took Terry's arm by the elbow and wiped off his forearm delicately. Josh looked up and met Terry's eyes with tears spilling from the corners of his eyes.
"Why did you do this?" Josh asked anxiously.
Terry shrugged. He looked down, feeling ashamed, and muttered, "I'm sorry."
Josh bit his lip recalling the last time Terry had cut himself. He remembered that Luke had taken care of Terry and told Josh that Terry had been feeling a tremendous amount of pain and that's why he cut.
"I know you think the condom thing is your fault and you feel guilty for some reason, but Terry, babe, it's not."
Terry averted his eyes and licked the corner of his mouth, then sighed.
"I think you need to see someone about this." Josh looked down at Terry's arm and took the paper towels off to see how bad Terry had cut himself.
"No!" Terry said forcefully and pulled his arm away.
Josh looked at the determination on Terry's face and said, "Just give it some thought please? I don't want you cutting yourself anymore. When you do, it hurts me too."
Terry pondered that statement and nodded. He wasn't in the mood for talking or much else.
"Lets go to the hospital and get your blood drawn for the HIV test ok?" Josh stated and looked at his emotionally distressed boyfriend.
"Are you planning on committing me because if you make me see a shrink there, I won't forgive you. I don't need to see someone!"
Josh held Terry's hand and caressed it. "I would never betray your trust like that, you know that... don't you?"
Terry looked away. Ignoring the question, he changed the subject and spoke quietly, "You slept with that older guy, Elliot, at the Lakeview and didn't tell me. When was that?"
Josh spoke, "Six months before I knew I was in love with you. Why?"
"I was just wondering. Why did you cheat on him?"
Josh let out a small laugh. "I didn't cheat on him, I was a player. I haven't been in a serious relationship with anyone but you, you know this already." He took both of Terry's hands in his own and held on to them.
Terry nodded and didn't say a word, but his mind was busy.
Josh stared at Terry hard and continued, "I fucked around until I knew I wanted to be with you. You're everything I've ever wanted. I don't want you to ever forget that, got it?"
Terry glanced down at Josh's hands holding his and answered under his breath. "Yes." as he wondered how he could resolve the situation of his cutting. The silence after his reply was full of tension and awkwardness.
Josh studied Terry's face. He knew Terry was having a hard time meeting his eyes.
He unlaced one hand and lifted Terry's chin so his eyes were eye level with Josh's.
"Babe, I'm sorry you went through this alone. You must have been in so much pain to think that you needed to do this to your arm.
Terry frowned slightly. He wanted to forget, deny any wrong doing, any pain he'd felt before.
Josh let his statement slip as it seemed to upset Terry and cause him shame. "Can I at least take you to the hospital to get your blood drawn for the test?" Josh asked as he pulled Terry up to his feet.
Terry nodded and hugged Josh who kissed him on the cheek.
Terry said, "I'm sorry I sent you away. I didn't think you'd want to be around me after I freaked out last night. I know I made you feel guilty, which made me feel guilty."
Josh squeezed him really hard and said, "Lets not place blame. We'd only end up hurting each other. Come on, I'll drive."
