Dean's POV
I understand now how Lara must have felt all those years. I have never been possessed before and I have definitely never been possessed by an angel before. Is this how Jimmy felt until he died? Overwhelmed with power, unable to move, trapped in a small corner of his mind. I truly hope not. I can feel the essence of what I can only assume is God in my groin that Raphael injected me with. I have a feeling this is not what Mary went through 2,000 years ago.
It takes me awhile but I am finally aware enough to see out of my eyes. Well I guess they're still my eyes even though Raphael is steering the boat right now. He's looking at her. She looks lovely. I didn't even get the chance to tell her how lovely she looks in her wedding dress. It's simple and elegant. It suits her. I will make it up to her when this is over. I will give her the real wedding she deserves. Right now I just need to focus on keeping her safe.
I watch has Raphael uses my hand to open the bedroom door and usher Lara in. He points to the bed. "You promised Raphael!" I yell at him. His laugh surrounds me. How does an angel's laugh sound evil? Lara obediently sits on the edge of the bed.
"Can I have him back yet?" She asks him nervously. She had been so brave downstairs but I can see she is starting to crumble. I am starting to crumble myself to be honest. But I need to stay strong for her. My hand reaches out and caresses her face and she pulls back. My other hand grabs her by the hair and pulls her forward while he uses me to caress her face.
"If either of you start to defy my I will take over his body again and you both will regret it. Your time with Sam with seem like the most romantic night you have ever had after I am through with you. Do you understand Lara?" I hate hearing my voice sound so scary and menacing especially towards her.
She shakes her head and I can see her hands shaking. He closes our eyes and I feel Raphael start to switch places with me. "What I am doing for you is out of respect for my father choosing her and nothing more. Do not mistake this for an act of kindness or good will. All I want out of this is the child and you down the road to accept Michael."
"I understand. Don't think that because you are giving us this kindness I will not forget that you forced her into this position regardless Raphael. Ask your brother Zachariah. I don't take threats kindly. Oh wait, you can't, he's dead."
"One slip up mud monkey…" He threatens has he slips away to my subconscious mind and I am free of him. I have control again. I open my eyes and look down at her.
"Dean?" She asks me. I knell down in front of her. "It's me sweet heart. I'm so sorry about this."
She smiles and touches my face and pulls me to her chest. "It's fine. If we didn't do what he wanted he was going to kill Gabby and Bobby and then torture you in front of me. This I can handle, that I couldn't."
She's right. I couldn't have handled that either. This is the only way. I pull back and I look into her blue eyes. "I wanted to tell you that you look gorgeous in your wedding dress." She blushes and brings her hands up to her eyes and shakes her head. I pull them away. "You do look stunning." She smiles and kisses me. It took me an entire week at the beach to make her believe that I think she is beautiful and I have a feeling it's going to take the rest of our lives to make her feel the same way.
"You look handsome in your tux Dean. And I think I am going to get this one right, you look very James Bond. Shaken not stirred if I'm remembering correctly." I laugh and kiss her. She got her first pop culture reference. I feel Raphael start to get restless inside of me. I want to slam him back but I know if I do he will take over me again.
"Why don't we change first?" I suggest, trying to put off the inevitable as long as I can. She blushes and heads to the dresser and pulls out a night gown I have never seen. She looks at me and smiles. "Another thing that Jody made me buy."
I turn around to give her the chance to change. I don't want Raphael to see her naked, which is stupid because he is about to very soon anyways. He has stayed true to his promise though. He has made himself scarce and I don't feel him lurking in my mind. I can still feel his presence but it has recessed to the background. I take off my jacket and throw it on the ground and undo the bow tie and pull off the cummerbund he put me in I look down at my left hand and I can't believe I have a wedding band on. I'm married. I'm married to Lara. I can't believe it. I kick off the dress shoes and socks that magically appeared on my body. I untuck my shirt and start to undo the buttons when I feel Lara come up behind me and wrap her hands and around me and rest her head on my back. "Let me Dean." She says in a whisper.
I turn around and I choke on my breath for a moment. She looks stunning. Her dark brown hair is loose and cascading down her back in soft waves. She is wearing a long dark blue silk night gown with a plunging neck line. It makes the other one she had look prudish. There is a long slit that trails up her naked leg. I can tell she's nervous. Her hands are shaking has they undo the buttons to my shirt but I allow her to finish and slip the shirt of my shoulders. She may be nervous but when she looks up at me with her big blue eyes I know she's alright with this. Her eyes aren't scared or angry they are shining with love. I don't know how it is possible but they are. "You like so beautiful Lara. I love you so much." She stands up on her toes and puts her arms around my neck and pulls me down to her and kisses me.
At first it is just an innocent kiss. Just the meeting of two sets up lips but it doesn't take long to change that. I've been staring at those lips for months now and I've just started to enjoy them. I could spend the rest of my life enjoying just her lips. Even at the beach I still held back a little. I didn't want to rush her or get too carried away. I take my time. They are soft and sweet. I don't know if I have ever felt such soft and wonderful lips on mine before. I slowly deepen the kiss not wanting to make her more nervous. I know that the demons have forced her to be with plenty of other men but in the end they were rape. I want this to feel different and I guess technically Raphael did make her a virgin again making this her first time. Even if she can still remember all the others, even if she can still remember the dream world with me I think sadly. I want her to enjoy this even though Raphael is currently wearing me. I thought I would have more time to make her comfortable with this. Raphael has robbed me of being able to prepare her for this. I am going to kill him for that. She opens her mouth slightly and I slowly enter her mouth. And I thought her lips were sweet! She tastes like heaven and with an angel in me I can actually say that it's true, she does.
I'm surprised when Lara's tongue darts across my teeth and she bites down softly on my lips. We've kissed before but this is different. She's still shy but she's growing less and less with each passing second. I allow her to take what she wants from me. When I feel her legs start to grow weak I catch her and we both let out a laugh. I pick her up and carry her to the bed and slowly let her down. I take my hands and frame her face. "This isn't how our first time was supposed to be sweetheart."
She smiles and lifts her face up to mine and softly kisses me. "It's alright. In the end it's just you and me." She's right. He may be knocking around in my body somewhere but it's just her and I.
I move my hand from her face and push her hair back until it's splayed out on the pillow behind her. "If you want me to stop, just say it and I'll wait till your ready." She smiles and shakes her head. "I don't think that's an option right now Dean. It will be alright we're in the same place we were 30 minute ago when I told you I was ready." Her hands nervously start to unbutton my tux pants and she helps me slide them off along with my boxers. I softly move the straps of her night gown off her shoulders and pull it off her body then move back to her face.
I lean down once again and start the assault on her lips. I want her to be so consumed with desire that she's able to forget that he's still in here watching. I don't know if it's possible for that but I can try. I feel him start to push against me. "Hurry it along Winchester. I don't have all of eternity." I push him back and continue what I was doing.
I take my time building her up. I move to her neck and down her collar bone. I see the scar there and I stop for a moment to give it a kiss. She moans slightly beneath me and she wraps her arms around me and pulls me back up to her mouth. It took me a week at the beach but she is finally most comfortable with her scars. When I've kissed her senseless I move further down her and take her breast into my mouth. She starts to moan and buck beneath me. She's like clay beneath me. "Dean" she sighs out softly. "It's ok sweetheart just relax" I say to her has I move on to her other breast. I remember her bullet hole scar and I take a moment to kiss that has well. Her eyes open up wide, she grows tense beneath me, and she looks at me. Her hand starts to flutter to her scar and try to cover it. I move it away. I know what she's thinking. "You're so beautiful sweetheart don't try to cover yourself up." I lean down and kiss her again until she relaxes.
Raphael is getting restless. He's pushing against my mind and he's telling me to hurry. I slam him back. "Give me time! I am going to do what you want but I need time!" I snarl back at him. He subsides and falls back into my mind. She's calm again and I trail kisses down her chest to her belly button and I look up at her face. Her eyes are heavy and she's breathing heavy. I can't hold him back much longer. He's getting frustrated.
I move back up to her mouth and I kiss her lips has I use my knee to part her thighs. She opens her eyes again and I see she's nervous. "This might hurt for a moment sweetheart try and relax." I hate the idea of hurting her but if Raphael did has he said he did it will for a moment.
I lean down and kiss her while I trace my hands down her sides. I feel her shiver against me and I bring them back up to massage her breasts. She allows her pleasure to take over again and she looks at me with lidded eyes and kisses me. Her hands start to trace my back and grab into my sides. I keep one hand on her breasts and move the other down to her center. She's tight and she's wet. Her eyes start to flutter open again and I start to move my fingers hoping to lull her back to being relaxed. She relaxes and starts to move under me. I feel her nails start to lightly dig into my back and I know I won't be able to hold on much longer. I move my knee and slowly separate her legs further while I continue to move my fingers inside of her.
She looks up at me and I can see her eyes are clouded over and I've accomplished my goal. This is different than with anyone else I have been with and I know it. I usually only care about me but this is all about her and that's more rewarding than all those nights combined together.
I pull my fingers out and I slowly enter her giving her time to adjust to my size. She looks up at me and she tightens and I lean down and kiss her. "I love you." I murmur into her mouth. "I love you too." She says with a gasp. She starts to relax and I slowly start to rock into her. She catches on fast and soon we are moving as one. She's moaning and moving beneath me and I've forgotten all about the angel whose forcing me to do this. It's just her and I. I can feel she's close. I lean down and kiss her and she meets my stare. "Dean." She moans out.
"Stay with me sweetheart." I say to her as we move. She starts to moan loader and buck up against me. She moves her hands down my back to my hips and digs into my sides. "Dean!" She yells out and I feel her getting closer to the edge. Then like an eruption we both cum and collapse on her.
Just like that I feel Raphael leave my body and it's just her and I again. I roll off of her pulling her on to my chest and I leave a trail of kisses on her hairline. "I will love you forever sweetheart. It's just you and I again." I whisper into her ears. She smiles and relaxes.
"That was amazing Dean." She says lazily with a smile. I accomplished my goal regardless of that asshole wearing me. I pull her into me and kiss her forehead. "It was superb." I say to her and she smiles and closes her eyes.
At first I don't know what's going on. It feels like the bed is shaking and there is a bright light in the room like its daylight. I start to panic and I sit up as she falls down on the pillow next to me. The shaking and the light are coming from her. The whole room beings to shake and it sounds like thunder only the thunder is right there and not in the sky miles and miles away. The sound is deafening. Somehow I hear pounding on the door and Cas bursts in. I look down at Lara and her eyes are starting to burn brightly and it looks like she's having a seizure. Her whole body is shaking. Every limb is moving and she's starting to foam at the mouth a little. "What's happening?" I yell at him over the roar.
He runs to the bed and knells down and touches her forehead. Her body goes rigid and her eyes open big and her mouth opens wide as if she is going to scream. Light beams shoot out of her mouth and eyes. I have to look away it is so bright. It slowly dims and I open my eyes again and she is passed out next to me. Cas continues to pet her forehead. "The seed has taken root Dean." He looks up at me and his eyes are full of fear.
"What's wrong Cas?" I stutter out has I lean over her checking her for wounds. I've never seen him this worried before. Not even downstairs when 5 angels we're holding him back. He grabs my arm. "It's a lot on her Dean. I think she will be ok. I mean she was created for this. It shouldn't have been that violent but I told him he did it wrong. Gabriel was the only angel trained to do this. When this happened to Mary it was so mild. I'm pretty sure the entire town heard what happened in here."
I reach down to the side of the bed and pull on my boxers and stand up. "Where is he? I am going to fucking kill him." Cas looks back at the door and I see Raphael standing there. I lunge at him and he puts his arm and up and I fall back.
"Cas you are in charge of protecting them. Make sure that child is born and keep Dean alive." He looks at me and cocks his head to the side and laughs. "That was fun. We'll have to do it again sometime."
I try to lunge at him again and he puts his arm up and I slam against the wall and slide down it. He walks over to me and puts his hands around my neck and lifts me up until I am looking at him level in the eyes. "Raise the child and know if anything happens to him I will take it out on her." He says pointing towards Lara who is still passed out on the bed. "Once he is born I do not need her anymore. If something happens to him I will make you watch has I slowly kill your wife in front of you." He drops me and I slump to the floor. When I look back up he's gone.
I crawl to the bed and climb back in and look down at her. "Cas is she going to survive?" He looks at me and for the first time since I have known him I see tears in his eyes. "I hope so Dean."
a/n so I may have practiced a love scene on previous chapters but this is a bit out of my realm but I felt they deserved to have one… so I'm totally sorry if it was horrid.
