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Chapter 55 iTry to make things right
~ * Freddie * ~
I lean against Carly's door after I close it behind me, staring at my own apartment door. I feel absolutely terrible. I don't understand how I could've let this happen, how could I have been so clueless about what was happening…
I sigh deeply and stand up straight, trying to get myself together as I walk over to my own door, walking inside slowly. I smile slightly as I see Sam sitting on the couch and not locked up in our bedroom.
I look around the room, not noticing my mom in it and realizing she probably left for work. I walk over to Sam slowly and sit down on the couch next to her. ''Hi…''
Sam looks down, biting her lip slightly. ''Hey…''
I look at her, biting my lip too. ''Am I allowed to talk to you now?''
She rolls her eyes slightly. ''Yeah…''
I absolutely have no idea what to say to her. I feel completely lost for words…and that barely ever happens to me while talking to Sam…''
I sigh slightly. ''You know I love you right?''
She nods slowly. ''Mhm…''
''Like…more than anything. You're my everything…''
''Yeah…you've told me that before…'' She sighs softly.
I sit closer to her and wrap my arm around her slowly, hoping she won't push me away. I smile slightly when she doesn't and just lets me. ''Sam… I've realized I haven't really shown you how much I love you lately…and I should've done that. I'm sorry.''
I try to bring the slightest apology first, not letting her notice that Carly told me everything.
''Yeah…It's fine…guess you had an excuse huh?'' Sam looks down again.
''Well I guess…not really though, I know that. I really am sorry.''
''Kay…thanks…''
The way Sam talks to me breaks my heart, but I know it's all my own fault, cause I broke hers…and I'm so freaking mad at myself for that!
''Oh your mom had to leave for work by the way, she was running late.''
She's obviously trying to change the subject…great…
''Yeah I figured…did you two talk?''
Sam shakes her head and looks at me. ''Not particularly…why should we?''
''I don't know… I thought maybe you felt the need to talk to a female…''
She frowns slightly. ''I'm not a wimp.''
''I know, I know…nevermind.''
Sam sighs and looks down again. ''Freddie…''
''Yeah?''
''Nevermind.''
I sigh softly. I bet she was about to tell me what Carly told me but regretted it the last second. I have no idea what to do now… I can't just break the silence and throw all my apologies at her, that isn't gonna work.
I guess I'll try letting her tell me herself.
''No…what did you wanna say?''
''It doesn't matter.''
''It does.''
''No…''
''Yes…''
She sighs and I take her hand in mine gently. ''Just tell me…please?''
''You won't understand.'' She sighs again and stands up, walking to the fridge.
I look after her sadly. ''Sammy…''
''Please don't call me that…not now…''
I frown slightly to myself and look down. It really is bad…I messed up big time…how am I ever gonna make things right between us again?
What does she mean by 'you won't understand' though? What is there not to understand for me… Oh gosh…what if something else is going on too? Something with her…or with us…or whatever… this is scaring the heck out of me…
~ * Brad * ~
I stand in the elevator, on my way to Carly's apartment. I can't stop thinking about Sam and Freddie. I know Freddie has treated Sam badly when he was at his lowest point a while back, and I felt really bad for her, but it wasn't all his fault. He was under influence of both a mental illness and medicine and he wasn't himself.
The way Sam is acting right now is just really strange and I don't understand what's going on with her. I know she has trouble dealing with her emotions, but this is such a weird way to express them… As bad as I felt for Sam back then I now feel bad for Freddie…I think Sam is blaming him for too many things and punishing him too hard. I know what he did was wrong, but they could just continue happily now without any drama…why aren't they just doing that? I really wonder if there isn't something else that is bothering her and causing her to be like this…
I step out of the elevator and frown slightly as I see Freddie sitting slid down against his apartment door. I sigh and walk over to him, sitting down next to him. ''Hey man.''
He looks up at me. ''Oh, hey.''
''Having a hard time?''
Freddie shrugs. ''Just frustrated.''
I nod. ''I get it. I'm sorry man.''
''It's fine, it's my own fault.''
''Not completely…'' I put my hand on his shoulder and shake it slightly. ''Don't blame yourself too much. This doesn't have to do with just you. It's also just Sam's personality…she doesn't forgive easily.''
''I know, but still. If I hadn't been such a monster to her non of this would be going on right now.''
''You weren't a monster, you just weren't completely yourself.''
''I guess…'' Freddie sighs deeply.
''Hey do you wanna go boxing? Blow off some steam and get rid of that frustration?''
Freddie nods. ''Yeah that sounds good. Just let me get changed and I'll meet you on the parking lot in 10 minutes okay?''
I smile slightly and nod. ''Alright. See you in 10.''
Freddie smiles slightly and I watch him walk into his apartment. Wow he looks so upset. I really hope him and Sam work things out together. I can't stand seeing two of my best friends like this.
I get into the elevator and go up to my own apartment, walking inside and going into my room. I change into gym clothes and put my stuff in my bag before walking out of my room and my apartment again.
I get back into the elevator and push the button to go down to the first floor. I bite my lip slightly as the elevator stops on the 8th floor and watch the doors open.
I stand face to face with Sam. Well this gives me an opportunity to talk to her about this situation as well. I smile slightly as she walks into the elevator. ''Hey.''
''Hey.'' Sam says and she sighs quietly.''
''How you feeling?''
She shrugs. ''Pretty crappy. But I can't lock myself in our apartment all day right?''
I shake my head. ''No I guess not. Where you going?''
''I don't know, out. Might get some chicken.''
I smirk slightly. ''Okay, now that sounds like you.''
She smirks back slightly. ''What about you? Where you going?''
''To the gym.''
''With Freddie?''
I nod. ''Yeah.''
She nods too and then looks down.
I bite my lip slightly and look at her. He's really upset y'know… He's really sorry about the way he acted, he understands he hurt you.''
''Yeah well…'' she sighs ''I can't just forgive him just cause he finally gets it now.''
''I understand that, but I do really hope you guys can work this out. There's no one else who can do that for you, it's all on you two.''
''I know that Brad.''
''Alright. Well, I'm here for you if you need me okay? Just cause Freddie is my best friend doesn't mean I don't understand you as well.''
Sam smiles slightly and nods. ''Thanks. Have fun in the gym.''
''Thank you. Have fun eating chicken.'' I smirk slightly.
Sam rolls her eyes slightly. ''Later Brad.''
''Later'' I say as we reach the first floor and Sam walks out of the elevator and out of Bushwell. I wait a moment and then walk out too, walking over to Freddie's car on the parking lot and waiting for him.
I lean against his car and wait for a couple minutes till he comes down and walks over to me.
''You ready to get beaten?'' I smirk playfully.
''If I'm ready for that? Dude you will never beat me.'' He smirks.
He's probably right. With Freddie's skills and muscular posture he will probably always beat me with my beginner skills and small posture but oh well.
''You just wait. In a couple weeks, with a few training sessions I'll kick your ass.'' I bluff and grin.
''Sure, whatever dreams make you happy.'' Freddie grins and chuckles slightly as we get in the car.
At least I got him to laugh. I want him to have a little distraction of whatever is going on between him and Sam.
Freddie starts the engine and drives away after we've put our seatbelts on. ''Hey did you see Sam? I heard her leave the apartment but she didn't say anything.'' He sighs. ''I really hope she won't do anything crazy. Whenever Sam is feeling upset or angry she can do some pretty insane shit.''
''Yeah I think we all know that.'' I sigh and then shake my head. ''But yeah I saw her in the elevator, she said she just wanted to get out for a bit. She said she was gonna get some chicken so I'm sure she's fine right?'' I smirk slightly.
Freddie smiles slightly and nods. ''Okay. Yeah I guess so, as far as she can be fine right now.''
I nod.
''I really don't know what to do.'' Freddie says and he sighs again. ''She's so distant towards me and I don't know what I can do to make her forgive me. What if I lose her over this? She's my everything, I need her…'' Freddie bites his lip.
I put my hand on his shoulder and shake my head. ''I'm pretty sure you won't lose her. She loves you just as much as you love her. And she needs you as well, probably more than you need her. You're her world Freddie.''
''I know that I guess but I really messed up. She's really pissed at me and I understand, I mean who wouldn't feel that way? I acted like an asshole towards her.''
''Yes you did but that wasn't your intention. And I know that she understands that as well, she just needs time to be able to forgive you. Just take it slow, keep reminding her of how much you love her even if she doesn't act the same way towards you right now.''
Freddie nods slowly. ''Yeah…I'll do that. Thanks.''
''You're welcome. Don't worry, it'll be okay.''
''I really hope so, I'll do anything. I feel like this isn't the only thing going on with her… I'm really worried about her. What if she's sick or something?'' Freddie bites his lip hard.
''Freddie, come on now you're just being paranoid. I'm sure she's fine. She's just upset, just like you. And you guys need to work this out together.''
Freddie sighs again and nods. ''Yeah you're right… sorry.''
''It's fine don't worry.''
I smile as we reach the gym. ''Now let's do this!''
Freddie smirks slightly and nods. We get out of the car and walk into the gym. I'm really hoping to get his mind of it. I guess I'll let him kick my ass for that, just to boost his ego a bit today. I smirk slightly.
