Man oh man. This week has been busy. Sorry guys, right when I came back from my vacation I started my junior year of high school. And it has been busy busy. Like very busy. Right now I should be sleeping but I just had to write, because it was literally killing me haha. But before I let you guys go read. This is the only time that what I'm about to say, you actually really need to do.

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"She's not in it?" He said slowly.

Alice closed her eyes and took a breath, "No Edward. She's not."

Edward looked down at the dying girl in his arms. His love, his life, was dying. The blood draining from the open wound cut deeply into her wrist. She had lost so much blood, so much time, "If I bit her, she dies." He looked up and saw Alice's confused look, "If I let my venom go through her veins, the plans she made for her future die."

"And if you don't, they still die." Alice said, "I understand what your saying, but Edward if you bite her she's still going to live. Maybe not the way she had planned, but honestly has anything gone the way we've planned? Think about it Edward, I know she wishes this could be different right now, but you can't change what's happening. Either you fix this now or let everything you've done to stop it, die. It's all up to you, I'm not doing anything for you." Alice scooted back from Bella, "It's your choice not mine."

"It's not mine," He looked into Bella's half open eyes, "It's hers."

"Then ask her." Emmett said.

Edward continued to look at her. The pigments in her face were as white as his skin, her heart beat slower by the second, "Bella...? Can you hear me?" With force, she opened her eye's wider and moaned a slow painful sound. Taking that as a yes, he continued his question, "Your dying Bella. I don't have enough time to take you to the hospital, to a doctor. I don't have enough time to, to keep you human. I'm sorry, but the only two options are death or..." He swallowed air down his dry throat, "Become one of us."

He took a quick glance up at Alice, but then went back down to Bella, "If I bite you, you won't be the same. You'll have super speed, the urge to bite humans for their blood, your eyes will change, your sight will become significant, your hair wont grow, you wont get taller. Your body will literally freeze as is. You won't be able to have children." He said stumbling over the last part, "But you will still be able to walk on this planet, after a while you can see your dad. It's this, or death."

Bella stared at him, his voice barely getting into her ears. She could hear him, but it sounded like he was whispering. Still she could hear every word he said, everything he was warning her about. Either she died never being able to, see his face, touch his skin, kiss his lips. Never able to, hug her father, see his smile, smell his attempts to cook food. Her life would end in a abandoned top floor of a building she didn't even know was here in the city in the first place.

The thoughts of being one of them now ran through her mind. She would be exactly like Edward, his color skin, color eyes. His speed, his sight. She would be a female version of him, another Alice or Rosalie. She would be a Cullen. Even with the changes, at least she would still be in the world and not above it. At least she could watch everyone else grow up, live on while she would continue to be a seventeen year old girl. That was better than being six feet under.

"And, it's going to hurt. Really bad, for three days." Edward added, "But honestly, it's worth it."

Bella could hear the difference in his voice now. She could tell he no longer questioned the thought of changing her. With the way he spoke, now he wanted to. He wanted her to live human or not. Bella took in a weak breath and with as much force as she could pull out from her weakened body, "Bite...me." A newly formed tear ran down the side of her cheek.

Alice gasped at the sound of her voice, "Edward, you heard her. This is what she wants."

"She doesn't want it, she has to do it. It's not a choice anymore." He said as he stiffened his body.

"But she doesn't want to die, she wants to be here with you. This is what she wants." Emmett said looking down.

Edward looked away from the group and out the windowless wall towards the city, "Leave...please."

"Are you sure?" Alice asked.

"Yes Alice, I'm positive I won't suck the last drop of blood she has. Trust me, I can do this." He looked back towards her, "Just call Carlisle and tell him everything."

"Everything?"

"Everything Alice. Don't leave out a part." He looked down at Bella and smiled, "Tell him I'll be bringing something extra with me."

"I will." Alice stood up and looked at Emmett then to Jasper, "Let's go guys." She walked behind the two guys to the elevator but before stepping in, she turned around to looked at Edward once more, "I'll stand watch outside and make sure Ryan doesn't try to sneak back in."

"Thank you." Edward smiled.

"Your welcome. Your making the right choice." She turned back and ran for the elevator.

Edward watched the doors shut, then looked down at Bella. Her entire shirt was stained red from the over flow during the minutes spent fighting Ryan. He bit his lip and pulled her up closer. Edward lets his legs straighten out in front of him and placed Bella's bottom between them. He turned her chin so that the right side of her face laid on his chest. With a swift move of his hand, he lightly tossed her hair to fall behind her back. He wrapped his left arm around her body, holding onto her right hip. He used his right palm to hold her face as he kissed her forehead.

Edward Cullen took a deep breath and lowered his face to her ear, "I love you...please forgive me." He closed his eyes, placing his cold lips on her neck. With a breath he pushed his teeth in, breaking the skin beneath.

As the rest of the blood from her body poured slowly into his mouth, Edward's venom filled it's place. Bella's body tensed up beneath his hold, he quickly grabbed tighter as she straightened and kicked her legs. Loud moans of pain came out from her half open mouth. As much as he wanted to pull away, he kept his teeth where they were, letting the venom keep spilling out. His ear right by her mouth, the breath from her body hitting it softly with his grunt and moan for help. Her legs began to kick a little fast as the poison spread through.

A wet substance hit the side of Edward's cheek. He quickly pulled his teeth out and looked at her. The tears were streaming out faster, "Bella I'm sorry. Please Bella, it'll be over soon. Please Bella, I'm sorry. Please stop. Please." He babbled. Edward looked at her wrist and picked it up, bringing it closer to his mouth. When it got closer, Bella pulled it away and grabbed onto his shirt, "Bella I need to. I need to let it go in there." Edward tugged at her hand, still it remained attached to the cloth, "Bella please!"

"No." She struggled to say.

"I'm sorry Bella." Edward used his force to rip it off of his shirt. As her wrist laid in his shirt, she struggled to pull it away. As much as he hated it, he put the wound into his mouth and let the venom flow in. This time Bella screamed with pain and Edward dropped her wrist, "Bella...I am sorry." He squeezed her tighter into his chest as he sat there, listening to her wail, feeling her kicks. He held on tight.

Bella sat there as it rolled through her body. It felt like her entire body was being engulfed in fire, starting from her neck down. She tried to scream louder, but nothing would come out. Not only did she want to scream from the pain, but for everything she was about to lose. Every hope and dream for a future. Every childhood dream to start a family, to raise little Swans. To be there as they said their first words, took their first steps. To watch them as they went off to their first day of school. To be there when they walked into high school and to watch them go off to college. To see them start their own family.

How about her eighteenth birthday? The year she would finally become an adult to everyone around her, the year every teenager dreaded for. Now that wouldn't come, the birthday parties with the family. The gifts, college. Nothing now. She would continue to be a seventeen year old girl to everyone. Never feeling the joy of celebrating the day of turning a year older.

Her hopes and dreams, her everything is gone.

December 25, 1994

"Bella, are you ready to see what Santa brought you?" Her mother asked kindly.

"Santa was here? Yes mommy, lets go. Where's daddy?" The two year old Bella asked as she bounced down the stairs, "Daddy where are you?"

"Right here darling." He said as he walked to the bottom of the stairs.

Bella smiled brightly at him and took a jump from the third stairs case, "Daddy catch me."

Charlie laughed kindly and caught his daughter as she jumped into his arms. She smiled and kissed his cheek, "Merry Christmas daddy."

"Merry Christmas to you too Bells." He looked up the stairs at his beautiful, older reflection of his daughter, "Come on honey. She needs her mother too." He joked.

"Oh I wouldn't miss this for the world." She laughed as she walked down the stairs.

Charlie put down Bella and watched her run to the closet present. Quickly she ripped the paper off and sat down starring at the box, "Bella, thats a play kitchen."

"A play kitchen?" She smiled, "Yay."

Charlie chuckled, "Thats so you can practice making food for you children someday."

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Bella's heartbeat went faster as he held her closer. She tried to pull the air through her lungs, but it was much harder as her chest bounced like her heart had been replaced with a ball. It felt like she was hyperventilating.

Edward looked down, "It's okay Bella, just try to breath slowly. For me, just try. I know it's hard, I know the pain. I know it feels unbearable and I am sorry Bella. But after three days it will be gone, I know it sounds like a long time. I understand, but just please hear me out. After that third day, you'll open your eyes to a whole new world..."

"I don't want it!" She yelled.

"Please Bella don't say that..." Edward begged, "You said to. You said bite me, I wouldn't have done if you didn't want me too. Please don't say that. I'm sorry. I love you dearly and I want whats best for you. Bella, everything will be alright. I promise."

Bella Swan's Seventh Birthday

"Oh my goodness," Her mother said as she kissed her cheek, "Already seventeen. It's amazing how fast you kids grow."

"Oh mom," Bella said as her cheeks turned red, "I'll always be your little girl." She giggled.

"You got that right Bella." Her mother smiled.

Bella leaned forward and blew out the candles that sat on top of her cake, "One more year..."

"You just turned seventeen and your already thinking about turning eighteen?"

Bella laughed, "Sorry mom."

"Well just promise me you'll come here from your dads to celebrate."

"I promise." She threw her hands around her mothers neck and pulled her in, "I promise..."

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Edward watched in pain as she tried to struggle away from his hold, but with every slip to try to get away he held on tighter. He wrapped his right arm around her knees trying to keep her legs still, "Things will be better, just hear me. You can still see your dad, if you want we can explain everything to him. I'll do whatever you want."

"Leave me alone." Bella cried out.

"I'm sorry, that I can never do." He gently laid his head on top of Bella's.

Flashes of her entire family floated through her head

Bella smiled and hugged her mom, "I'll call you everyday, I promise."

"Dad, I'm about to be late." She grabbed a hold of her fathers neck and hugged him, "I'll make dinner when I come home."

"Grandma." Bella shrieked, "You came!" She gently hugged her.

Bella looked up at her aunt, "Oh you know I'll meet someone in forks." She stood up and hugged her, "Either that or I'm coming back." They laughed together as they hugged.

"Where's Addison?" Bella asked her mom as she looked around for her two year old cousin. A little blond girl peeked behind the wall, "There you are darling." The little girl ran up to her, throwing her tiny arms around Bella's neck and squeezing tightly,"I'll miss you too."

Bella looked into his eyes, gathering every feature about him, "I love you Edward."

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Bella loosen the grip on his shirt and stopped her legs from kicked. She sucked in a breath as the pain grew, the hot feeling now went into her stomach. It felt as if it was eating every organ away. She tried to stop the tears, but she couldn't. The kickes and the moaning, it was killing Edward to have to deal with. After all she did tell him to, she did tell him to take her life into his own hands. He did what she wanted and she wanted to live. Not only to see her father, but to see him. To kiss him for entirety and never let go. And now she wouldn't have to.

"I...love you...Edward." She managed to squeeze out as the pain grew even more unbearable.

A giant sigh of relief exited Edwards body as he tightened his grip on her. He smiled down and began to continuously kiss her head, "I love you too."

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