The reviews on the last chapter made me so incredibly happy. I know you have heard this before but again, you guys are AMAZING! This chapter is going to be purely Mark and Lexie. ENJOY! = )
Lexie laid on her bed, legs curled under her and a blanket draped over her legs. She had a bottle of water on her nightstand and the remote control in her hand. She sighed with exasperation when she heard heavy footsteps trudging up the stairs.
"Mark. You can go home. I'm fine." She tried.
"I told you no three times already." He told her. "Let it go."
Meredith and Derek were sitting up in there bed, Haley fast asleep in the middle. Derek's nose was in a surgery book and Meredith was looking at her phone. Both couldn't help but listen to the argument above them.
"Do you think they'll solve anything?" Derek asked Meredith.
"Give them some time. They'll accomplish something."
"Yeah. A migraine." He muttered, earning a playful punch on the arm.
"Don't talk to me like I'm four years old!" They heard Lexie shout, causing them to look up.
"Damn it, Lexie!" Mark shouted back.
"Ah, the sweet sounds of family." Meredith looked at Derek with a sigh as he closed his book and she turned the light off.
"What do I have to do to make you realize that I am fine?" Lexie asked Mark as he rolled out a sleeping bag that Meredith had given him.
"Enough." He said. "I'm staying here and that's the end of it."
"Mark." She sighed. "I don't want you to worry...and I don't want to put you in a position where things get...confusing."
"What are you talking about?" He laid on his stomach to look at her while she spoke.
"Where does Shannen think you are?" Lexie raised an eyebrow. "Mark?"
"There is no Shannen." He answered, bluntly.
"She doesn't exist?"
"We broke up about a month ago." He explained, concentrating on the floor.
"Why didn't you say anything?" She asked.
"I didn't want you to think I was trying to trap you into anything."
Lexie sighed. "By breaking up with your girlfriend?"
"I didn't want it to seem like I broke it off because of you." Mark said.
"Why did you break it off? Honestly." Lexie knew she probably shouldn't have asked.
"Honestly." He paused for a moment. "I couldn't see anything with her long-term."
"Do you see yourself having a long-term relationship with anyone?" She asked as she looked down and picked at her bedspread, causing Mark to smile a little.
"No. I don't think so." He answered.
"Why?" Lexie said, obviously upset. " You deserve a healthy stable relationship. I don't want to hate myself forever knowing that I was the one who broke you."
Mark looked at her oddly.
"I mean emotionally." She corrected. "Not the penis thing- You know what I'm trying to say!"
"I do and I appreciate it, but I can't just move on after what we had, Lex." He said, before rolling over and laying on his back. "Does Meredith ever do maintenance on these wood floors? The boards are all uneven."
"It's Meredith's." Lexie giggled. "Of course there is no maintenance going on here."
"I see." He groaned as he rolled over again, clearly trying to find a comfortable position.
Lexie closed her eyes and took a deep breath.
"Fine. Come on." She said, moving over and patting the empty space next to her.
"I'm fine."
"Gee, where have I heard that before?" She chuckled. "Come on, the floor is awful and I feel bad enough already, so, get your ass up here."
"Okay. Yes, ma'am." He responded.
As soon as she felt his body heat next to hers, she couldn't help but flash back to the life she had before. The life when his presence next to her was so typical that after a while the feeling became numb to her.
"What are you thinking about?" Mark asked.
"Hmm?" She snapped back to reality.
"You're deep in thought." He laughed at her. "What's on your mind?"
"Can I be honest with you?" Lexie asked.
"Of course. Always."
"I was thinking about how I miss this." Lexie said. "How I miss us."
"I miss it, too." He admitted.
"I miss talking to you like this and being close to you like this." She told him, turning her head to look him in the eye.
"Lexie." He whispered, so light that she could almost feel it more than hear it.
Mark moved in, catching her lips with his and kissing her deeply. The two only parted for a tiny bit of air, before continuing, Mark ending up on top of her. Lexie opened her eyes and pushed on Mark's chest, breaking away from the kiss.
"Wait."
"What's the matter?" He inquired.
"We have to stop." Lexie stated, trying to catch her breath. "Because this is where things get confusing and I can't think when you do-"
Mark kissed her again, silencing her doubt.
"Don't think about it." He told her. "Does it feel right?"
Lexie nodded in agreement.
"Then don't think." Mark said. "Just feel it and the rest will melt away."
"But-" Lexie didn't finish her thought before Mark had taken her ability to speak away.
The next morning, Lexie awoke to Mark on his stomach next to her, shirtless. She prayed that what she thought happened, hadn't actually happened.
Please don't be naked. She thought to herself as she peeked under the comforter covering her.
"Oh, God!" She said, covering her face, and waking the man sleeping next to her. "Oh, no."
"What's the matter?" Mark asked, yawning.
"What's the matter?" She looked at him like he was insane. "We had sex last night."
"I know." He smirked. "It was one for the record books."
"This is not funny. We should not have done this at all."
"Why are you freaking out?" He was now confused. "It's not like we haven't had sex before. We have a kid to prove that point."
"Mark, we're separated." She tried to explain. "Separated does not include having sex with the one you are supposed to be separated from."
"What if the separation was a mistake?"
"Mark-"
"No, come on." He attempted. "You felt like this was right, too. You know it and I know it, because I felt it too. Can you honestly say that it felt wrong to you?"
"It's too complicated."
"Stop thinking about it for five seconds and just tell me what you feel." He told her, growing aggravated.
"What do you want from me?" She asked.
"Lexie, I know you love me."
"Of course I love you." Lexie went off. "If I didn't love you, I wouldnt have this problem. I wouldn't be this neurotic. I wouldn't be a wreck ninety percent of the time. I would see clearly if I didn't love you."
"Lex-"
"Do you know how much easier things would be if I could just turn off how I feel about you?" She told him. "I want you more than anyone and I love you deeply. I just feel like, right now, it's not enough, for either of us."
"Lexie-"
"Thank you for staying and keeping an eye on me, but I think I have it from here." She said, staring at the floor.
"I'll be back to check on you tonight." He told her, as he threw his clothes on.
Lexie kept her eyes clenched shut. A mixture of keeping from looking at him and keeping her tears from falling.
"I have to go check on Haley." She threw her sweats on and walked past him. "You can just let yourself out."
Mark stayed behind, closed his eyes, and sighed. This was going to be harder than he thought.
I know this was a little short but I did keep the main focus on Mark and Lexie only. Meredith and Derek only got a couple lines of dialogue. Anyway, make my day an ! I love hearing your feedback! Until next time, my lovelies!
