Roxanna lifted her hand to his hair, burying her fingers in it as she took a few shaky breaths. "So, you know how we haven't been using protection when we've been having sex?" He nodded. "Well, during the last break, one of your sperm fertilized one of my eggs, and…I'm pregnant."

Suddenly, all the confusing pieces began to fall into place. Her weight gain, the way she cried so easily, and the small glow that had started to appear on her face when she was daydreaming. "We're having a baby?" he said lowly as he awkwardly tried to maneuver his hand so that he could feel her stomach. She nodded a little before sitting up and scooting against the headboard, allowing him easier access to her body. His hand slowly spread out on her torso, feeling the gentle rise that spoke of the new life growing there. It was still so slight that the average person wouldn't notice it, but now that he knew what to look for, it was obvious. "Our baby."

"Yeah," she breathed out, letting out a soft laugh when he squirmed around on the mattress until his head rested on her stomach. "I don't think you'll be able to feel anything yet, Henrik. That's not for another twelve to fourteen weeks."

"I know, but I want to listen, my love."

A watery laugh escaped her lips as she shook her head, and he nodded in response, reaching his hand up. Roxanna took hold of it, threading their fingers together as she took another deep breath. "The pregnancy is also why I reacted so strongly. I know that there are so many hormones coursing through my body right now, and that it's making me react differently than I might, normally. But I was so afraid to tell you about the pregnancy."

The smile slipped from his lips as her words sunk into his heart. "Why were you afraid?" he asked lowly, meeting her eyes steadily.

"Because I didn't want you to leave me the way you left Maja, and I didn't want to have to say goodbye to my child."

Henrik felt like someone had sucker punched him as the air left his lungs and the full weight of the damage his words had wrought. "Oh, Roxanna," he breathed out as he turned his head and pressed his lips against her stomach. "What did I do to you?"

"You didn't know what I was going to tell you. I wanted to tell you in Sweden, but then Maja was so cold to me, and it never seemed the right time to say anything." She rubbed her lips together a few times before letting go of his hand and patting the space next to her. He nodded before adjusting his position once more, resting against the headboard as Roxanna scooted over and let her head thump down against his chest. "I didn't realise how fragile I was about this until I heard you today. Even though I know it wasn't you, that fear just burrowed deeply into my mind, overcoming my rational, logical, side, and making me want to run as far away as I could. I knew I couldn't do that to you, but I wanted to. Everything in me was so focused on protecting the baby at all costs."

He felt her tears splash down on his chest, and he let his fingers dance up and down her back, trying to think of the right words to say. There wasn't anything that he really could say that would remove that fear from her brain, and he felt a piece of his heart crack as he dropped a kiss to the top of her head. "That just goes to show how excellent a mother you'll be, Roxanna. I, I just wish that we hadn't found that out because of my stupidity."

Roxanna sighed a little as she dragged her fingers up and down his back. "We can't change the past, all we can do is make changes for the future. I just have to ask you something, because that fear is now in my heart. Please, if there ever comes a time when we fall out of love, don't take our baby away?"

His first instinct was to protest, to tell her that he could never do that to her, but he knew that Roxanna wouldn't believe that assertion, not after the little display he had given at lunch. Instead, he pulled back from her a little, still holding onto her as he focused his gaze on her. Her eyes still held a deep sadness, and he nodded as he tried to get his words in order. "I will try to prove to you that my love for you is never ending, that I would do anything in my power to not hurt you again in the way I just did. However, I'm only human, and I know that I'll make mistakes, that I'll do something that will cut you to the quick, and then I'll have to apologise once more. But I want you to know that I love you, with all of my broken heart and broken brain. And I will love our little baby just as much. I will never leave you, my darling, not now, not ever. I promise."

"We shouldn't make promises that we can't keep, Henrik. But I understand your intent, and I love you, too. With every bit of my broken heart."

Henrik nodded solemnly as he sat up and reclined against the headboard next to her, welcoming her head on his shoulder as he slung his arm around their waists, his thumb tapping against her body in a light tempo as a delicate silence fell between them. Finally, though, he drew in a soft, deep, breath, knowing that they had to broach the next topic, and that it might hurt Roxanna more in the process. "When would you prefer to get married, now? I know it's going to be our special day, but with the pregnancy, you might not be able to get the dress that you want. And I don't want us to hurtle headlong into a ceremony where we feel rushed. After everything I did to hurt you, I just want this to absolutely perfect for you."

"Well, I really want to get married in the church that I grew up in. I've always dreamed of Dad walking me down the aisle, you know. Well, no, you wouldn't, but now you do. And I want an autumn wedding, late September or early October. Since it's May now, that would only leave us around five months to get everything planned. So, I think that we should wait until next year to officially marry. If that's not too long for you to wait."

"You've given me one of the greatest gifts in the world, and I love you all the more for that. I think that I might wait forever for you to be ready. Though I think in a year's time, we can have a proper holiday, as well."

"I'd rather save that money for a house, actually. Since we're going to have two children sooner rather than later, we're going to need the extra space." She glanced up at him, giving him a nervous look. "Unless you had your heart set on a honeymoon? I can be flexible, if that's what you want."

"Well, since we're close to the Scottish border, we could just spend a week up there, in the Borders, where we have the time for ourselves as a family?"

Roxanna relaxed a little as she nodded. "Yes, that sounds perfect," she finally breathed out before leaning over and kissing him once more. "Now, how about we seal this promise to ourselves?" He gave her a little grin as he kissed her once more, knowing that they had so much to look forward to.