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I decided to skip a little into the future, because I didn't want to write more about Christmas and that kind of stuff; it is the beginning of 2012 now.
Gerard.
I and Alex sat at a Starbucks, with tons of coffee in front us and two pieces of white papers, we were supposed to plan our wedding… but we ended up just staring at the papers or drink even more coffee. I was relieved that she could drink coffee again, because she was a monster when she was trying to live without her precious caffeine. But she is my monster.
"So when, where and how?" I asked for the hundredth time, we really needed to sort some things out now.
"Remember when we were teens and you asked where I had my happiest memories from?" Alex asked, and I remembered what she had answered.
"You told me about that trip you made that summer when you were ten and Bob eleven… you and your parents went to a beach here in California and you just spend your days bathing, playing… having the time of your life. Wasn't that the summer before your family went through hell with the divorce and everything?"
"It was." She nodded. "And I do believe that some of my happiest memories from my childhood were from that vacation… and I haven't been back there since…" I saw where this was going and I smiled at her.
"Alex do you want us to get married at that beach?"
"Is it a bad idea…? I mean we kinda don't have so many… and I don't want to get married after a show, I just don't want it to be that way!"
"Alex, it sounds perfect!" I leaned over the table and gave her a kiss.
"We have a place! Let us celebrate with some coffee!" I giggled. "What we need to have a reward system!" she said and gave me another kiss before she bought us more coffee.
When she came back I had actually written some stuff down at my paper.
"So before or after the baby?" she said thoughtfully.
"I don't know what you think, but I would like to marry you as fast as possible… and there will be so much other things to think about when the little one comes around… So I would say before! What do you think?"
"But I'm gonna look all…" she said with a troubled voice.
"You are gonna look all what?"
"Pregnant…"
"What have I said, you have never before in your life looked better! Besides you decided the beach, this is mine!"
"Blackmailing." She glared over at me. "Well played Gerard Arthur Way. Before it is!"
"A date then?" we both picked up our phones and started to look at when we could get married before the kid came and when we wouldn't freeze our asses to death.
"First of March? It is a Saturday… I should be like eight and a half months then…" it was about two and a half months until then.
"First of March sounds good to me!"
"Who should come then?" Alex asked me when I started to take notes about what we had decided.
"When I thought about marrying you I always pictured a small wedding, you know just family and close friends. The people that matters the most to us are the ones who should come."
"I have an idea, we can do a list each and then we'll see who we want to come?"
"Ohh why did you ever agree to marry me? I can't believe there is so much work, so many things to think about!" I sighed with a smile, she looked at me and I could read in her eyes that she knew I was only kidding.
"Oh don't you blame me mister no one forced you to propose to me!" she giggled and stroke my fingers over my hand.
"Touché!"
Finally we managed to have the wedding at Aliso Beach, the first of March, and we actually wanted a minister to perform the ceremony.
Alex.
Later on the same night.
Fray was at Mikey's and that meant that me and Gee had the house to ourselves, something we celebrated with homemade dinner, romantic of course. And then we spend the rest of the evening cuddled up in the sofa watching old horror movies and eating ice-cream.
Gee had already drifted away to dreamland but I couldn't get relaxed enough to join him. Instead all this wedding talk had made my brain to spin.
What would have happened if I never got pregnant, if we never had Fray? If me and Gee never had fallen in love? What if I never had left? Those things kept on spinning in my brain until Gerard woke up after a while.
"Are you still awake? Is it the baby, does it keep you up? Or is it something else?"
"No… I couldn't relax… all this wedding talk made me think of what had happened if we never had fucked back then, if we had used protection… if I never left… that kind of stuff…" he reached out and lit the light and stroke me over my chin. Then he got up from the bed without a word he opened up the window and lit up a cigarette. He stood there, thinking as he drew the smoke down his lungs. He was so beautiful. No he was prefect.
"I guess we never will know the answer to that…" I mumbled, feeling silly over the fact that I even was thinking about it.
"You might know soon enough…" I heard him mumble over where he stood.
"What? Gerard what did you say?" I felt anger rise inside of me, I hated when he did this and the dream I had a long time ago came to my mind.
"I said no we will never know that…" I stared at him, because I knew that wasn't what he had said before!
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