Here it goes.

I am withlovej. I'm not quite sure how I thought of this pen name, but I love it and I'm going to stick to it. You can call me J, though. My father calls me Hana, though it's not my name; it's not anyone in our family's name. When I was little, he used to call me Hana Banana because it rhymed, so I guess it stuck. He still calls me Hana now. My girlfriends all call me Lei or LoLo, so you can call me that if it tickles your fancy. And my husband calls me J. Maybe that's where the pen name came from. It really does not matter what you call me, so go with whatever.

By now, you're probably rolling your eyes and waiting for me to just get on with it. So, I am a writer. That's simply what I am. There's absolutely no other way to put it better. Ever since I was just a wee ankle biter, I've always been that talkative child you loved but also wanted to 'accidentally' leave in the car. My mind travels faster than the speed of light (that's 3x108 m/s). If you were to have a look inside my head, you'd see all of the gears turning, the ideas all being conjured up and prepared to be unleashed. To deal with my—as if you could call it this—insanely aroused imagination (not that kind of aroused), I write. I used to write for my school's newsletter, I write journals, I write stories, I write FanFictions and I even write poetry (you wouldn't want to read it, it sucks).

The thing I love most about writing is that I can do whatever I fancy. I don't have to follow strict rules like I would have to during a chess game or match or whatever it's called. All I need is a pen and some paper, or a computer. That works just as well—if not, then better. I love when I'm writing a story and I lose myself in it. I really create this new world for myself and I get to live in it as I write. What I love is the drama and the angst in stories (especially Jacob and Bella stories). When writing or even reading a story (as long as it's really well-written), it's as if I am that character. When they feel guilt deep in their souls, I feel it, too. I feel as if I'm about to explode, like I need to just get rid of whatever secret or thing it is I'm not telling anyone. If the character's depressed or in pain, I really let myself sort of drown in it. I allow my heart to bleed out and onto the paper as the ink bleeds from my pen. The depression takes over my mind and I let my mind wander to those thoughts of 'What's the point of life?' or 'How am I supposed to go on?'. . . it's all of that that really draws me in.

My stories are going to all be about Twilight. Stephenie Meyer is incredibly wonderful for supplying me with Jacob and Bella (and maybe Edward), but she was so wrong to ruin what Jake and Bella had. That being said, all of my FanFics are pretty much just my way of fixing all of what she screwed over. Ever since I was sitting on the bus in secondary and my friend started reading New Moon aloud to me, I was hooked. My life then revolved around Jacob. I went out and bought the books and read them. I can honestly say I've read New Moon and Breaking Dawn at least twelve times each. I'm absolutely mad; I've bookmarked every Jacob scene so I don't have to read all of the horrible plot screw-ups and I can just read about my teenaged mutant wolf boy. If I wasn't already married, I would definitely marry Jacob, but I'm quite happy with my badass of a husband. He's my own Jacob—and he's got a motorbike, too (BONUS!).

Anyway, I can't wait to for y'all to read my stories when I finally put them out there (currently, I'm on hiatus because I've got terrible writer's block). I can't wait to read all of the stories out there either.

with love,

J