I'm tired and cranky, so let's keep his short and sweet, shall we?

A Little About Me: I'm not getting into that much detail for this.

"But then why write it in the first place?"

Good question, imaginary voice. It seems that if I leave it out, my internal writing habits will quietly resent me, putting us in an awkward relationship where we eat dinner quietly at opposite ends of the table with little communication aside from the "This soup is pretty good..." statement, despite the fact that it's the same soup you've had for the last ten years and she quietly looks at you, saying nothing...Yeah, that sounds about right.

All I have to say is that my writing is...sub-par at best. That, and my self confidence has been dwindling quite rapidly every coming year, and that makes me quite the grumpy Gus.

Bio - self-explanatory. The account looks painfully boring without one, wouldn't you agree?

Name: Let's just stick with unstable, yeah?

Age: 20. You know, that age where you begin the first stage of "damn kids these days,"-type quotes when you look at the crap on TV the kids watch now, yet at the same time enjoying all the nostalgic things adults from your youth said exactly the same thing about! Yeah, I'm that old.

Sex: Male. Notice how i didn't take that cliche route over there. I am so original!

Locale: A college town somewhere here in Florida. HOWEVER, i refuse to consider myself Floridian, for too many reasons to explain. "Then what are you doing there?" You again!? Simply put, I'm strapped for cash, and I needed to avoid the unholy out-of-state fees. A native New Yorker, but too poor to return right now.

That's it...

My Purpose Here: I honestly would like to know that myself.

Well, I've never been that confident in my own ideas being shared (My friends and family see me writing all the time. They have no idea what about though). So, in this huge leap of faith, I've decided to ignore all my past fears and insecurities in an attempt to get my ideas across, despite the fact that I still lack an acceptable amount of self-confidence. I'm expecting myself to crash and burn one of these days, that's a fact. I'm just anxiously waiting for it to happen. It's the waiting I can't stand!

Convincing enough?

All right I think we're done here.

Oh yeah, before I forget, I have no formal training in writing, nor do I expect to get it any time soon (no decent writing classes around here). Please be merciful if the day ever comes that I decide to publish anything...or don't, whichever is more fun I suppose.

What I've done, what I'm up to:

I've been writing creatively for years now, ranging from short stories, opinion pieces/articles, poems (very rarely), but none of them ever long term, and none of them published on this site or elsewhere. The majority of my writings are handwritten and i have a tendency of quickly losing my manuscripts. Well, I never liked converting manuscripts anyway, so I guess it's for the better. As for the any typed writings i may have, I personally feel they shouldn't belong here. For one thing, they aren't fanfictions. Also, they are...meh, I don't know.

I'm currently working on two projects whenever I don't find myself to preoccupied with school. The first is a fanfiction based on Final Fantasy XI. I started it about two days after registering to the site. A prologue should be ready soon, and depending on reception, I'll see if it deserves continuation. The other is quite possibly my first story idea from way back in the day. I've been working on it for I'd say 5 or 6 years by now, and it is still in its planning stages. I have no intention of publishing any drafts regarding this story anywhere online. Its quite a complicated story, so I'll leave it at that.

Update 2/8/10:

Well, so much for that plan...

In case anyone's interested(not sure why you would be in all honesty), I'm still writing this damned fanfic of mine, and i want to say that the prologue is almost ready. The process of getting it perfect and well planned however, that's another story entirely. Thus far, i have a general outline of the entire story(how it starts, how it ends), but so far only 25(percent) of it is actually concrete, 5(percent) written in a suitable draft. So yeah, i have quite a bit of work to do. Stay tuned for a prologue one of these days. And I'll try not to pause for another 7 months either...

(looks like the site hates the percentage symbol. who'da thunkin'?)

Also, am i the only one who thinks a nice feature for the site is giving the writer the option of making a prologue instead of starting at chapter 1? Just a thought...

Yet another update 5/31/10

It's 4:58 AM...If this isn't insomnia, i don't know what is...

It would appear that I've become a dirty liar in terms of putting out that damn prologue. Oh well, I'm not fretting. I'd like to finally get it done and edit all the chapters I've written, but unfortunately, those college classes have the priority, and as such have given me a somewhat serious case of sleep deprivation and an unholy amount of stress. But one of these days will be the day.

The main trouble I have is crafting the proper prologue, and I've set a number of options, all of which have a number of pros and cons. Finding someone to help this in-confident man of absolute power has been another issue. *Sigh* I guess I'm on my own for now. A little helping hand would be greatly appreciated, assuming you can't properly place quotations in their respective positions.

And now to return to my indecisiveness of prologue-ing...the shame of it all...

Star Date: July 19, 2010

As much as I hate to admit defeat to enemy like this, it seems that writer's block caused a devastating amount of damage to both my primary stories. It's been more than a month, almost two now, since I last found some inspiration or motivation to write something. Combined with a high amount of continuity damage and countless revisions or redrafts, morale is at an all time low. And those pesky college classes don't make it any easier. I think i need a break from all this. As far as my fanfic goes, it's probably at 40ish percent so far, but that can all change. *sigh* I guess I'll have to wait it out then. Seemed to work last time. I just hope it doesn't last for a year again. Now that would be a humiliation now, wouldn't it...

Hey Look, it's October 30, 2010

Time flies, don't it?

Well, I'm happy to say that I'm back on the writing wagon for the next week or so until another critical college assignment gets in the way. So that being said, I'm continuing the process and am now at roughly 50ish percent settled on the story. The rest seems to be covered in a weird haze, so it'll take some time to get it out there completely. But as far as the prologue, the first few chapters, and the ending goes, it's looking up. the stuff after I have a general idea, it just needs fleshing out.

To those reading this woefully constructed profile, ...uh...thanks? Not quite sure why the traffic hits go up, I got nothing out there...

Now let's see how well this turns out to be this time...here's hoping...