Every day i wish that I wasn't here on this earth with the people that hate me so much. I wish thatI was some where else whereI wouldn't have to put up with the stuff I do now

Some people say violence dosen't solve anything i say it solves everything

Some people say that what you think should be exspressed if i did that half the people i know would be gone

Some people say cutting yourself is wrong but i say that they shouldn't care what's going on in other people's lives

Some people think that suiside isn't the answer but i say it's to late for me

to people i have told that i have a sick and twisted mind you don't even know the half of it

for those who don't know me or how i think well you should be very happy for yourselves that you don't know me

One Black
One Red
One repersents my soul
The other repersents
The blood running down my face
When I shed a tear for you

I WILL RULE THE WORLD ONE DAY! YOU KNOW I WILL YOUR JUST TO AFRAID TO ADMIT IT!

I havebeen sent down from heaven to reak havic on this god forsaken world to destroy all of those who don't belive in my power those who question my ability i shall kill them all with a single blowi will not be able to return until my mission is done so beware and be scared!

Near to the door
he paused to stand
as he took his class ring
off her hand
all who were watching
did not speak
as a silent tear
ran down his cheek
and through his mind
the memories ran
of the moments they walked
and ran in the sand hand and hand
but now her eyes
were so terrible cold
for he would never again
have her to hold
they watched in silence
as he bent near
and whispered the words..
"I LOVE YOU" in her ear
he touched her face
and started to cry
as he put on his ring
and wanted to die
and just then the wind
began to blow
as they lowered her casket
into the snow...
this is what happens
to man alive...
when friends let friends...
drink and drive.

I killed the boy I loved,
Though I didn't mean to do it.
I killed the boy I loved,
Yet I don't know how to put it.
I killed the boy I loved,
The one that I still love.
I killed the boy I love,
The one I can't get enough of.
I killed the boy I love,
My heart, my soul, my other half.
I killed the boy I love,
So I guess I really killed me.
I killed the boy I love,
Though not quite literally.
I killed the boy I love,
Only emotionally.
I killed the boy I love,
And hurt his friends as well.
I killed the boy I love,
As my heart began to swell.
I killed the boy I love,
So his friends told me to leave.
I killed the boy I love,
On this black and bloody eve.

I wrote your name in the sand
but the waves washed it away
I wrote your name on my hand
but I washed it the next day
I wrote your name on a paper
but accidentally threw it away
I wrote your name in my heart
forever it will stay

I have a boyfriend who grew up with me. His name is Jin. I always thought of him as a friend until last year, when we went to a trip from a club. I found that I fell in love with him.
Before that trip was over, I took a step and confessed my love for him. And soon, we became a pair of lovers, but we loved each other in different ways. I always concentrated on him only, but by his side, there were so many other girls. To me, he was the only one, but to him, maybe I was just another girl…

“Jin, do you want to go watch a movie?” I asked.
“I can’t”
“Why? You need to study at home?” I felt disappointment
grabbing me.
“No… I am going to meet a friend…”

He was always like that. He met girls in front of me, like it was nothing. To him, I was just a girlfriend. The word ‘love’ only came out from my mouth. Since I knew him, I had never heard him say ‘I love you’ before. To us, there weren’t any anniversaries at all.
He didn’t say anything from the first day and it continued till 100 days…200days… Everyday, before we say goodbye, he would just hand me a doll, everyday, without fail. I don’t know why…

Then one day…
Me: Um, Jin, I …
Jin: What…don’t drag, just say..
Me: I love you.
Jin: ……you….um, just take this doll and go home.
That was how he ignored my ‘three words’ and handed me the doll. Then he disappeared, like he was running away. The dolls I received from him everyday, filled my room, one by one. There were many…
Then one day came, my 15th year old birthday. When I got up in the morning, I pictured a party with him, and stranded myself in my room, waiting for his call. But… lunch passed, dinner passed… and soon the sky was dark… he still didn’t call. It was already tiring to look at the phone anymore. Then around 2am in the morning, he suddenly called me and woke me from my sleep. He told me to come out of the house. Still, I felt joy and I ran out happily.
Me: Jin…
Jin: Here…take this…
Again, he handed me a little doll.
Me: What’s this?
Jin: I didn’t give it to you yesterday, so I am giving it to you now. I’m going home now, bye.
Me: Wait, wait! Do you know what today is?
Jin: Today? Huh?
I felt so sad, I thought he would remember my birthday. He turned around and walked away like nothing had happen.Then I shouted… “Wait…”
Jin: You have something to say?
Me: Tell me, tell me you love me…
Jin: What!
Me: Tell me
I put my pathetic self behind and clung on to him. But he just said simple cold words and left.
“I don’t want to say…that I love someone so easily, if you are desperate to hear it, then find someone else.”
That was what he said. Then he ran off. My legs felt numb… and I collapsed to the ground. He didn’t want to say it easily… How could he…. I felt that… Maybe he is not the right guy for me…
After that day, I stranded myself at home crying, just crying. He didn’t call me, although I was waiting. He just continued handing me a little doll every morning outside my house. That’s how those dolls piled up in my room… everyday
After a month, I got myself together and went to school. But what made the pain resurface was that… I saw him on a street… with another girl… He had a smile on his face, one that he never showed me…as he touched the doll… I ran straight back home and looked at the dolls in my room, and tears fell… Why did he gave these to me… Those dolls are probably picked out by some other girls…In a fit of anger, I threw the dolls around. Then suddenly, the phone rang. It was him.
He told me to come out to the bus stop outside my house. I tried to calm myself down and walked to the bus stop. I kept reminding myself that I am going to forget him, that… it’s going to end. Then he came into my sight, holding a big doll.

Jin: Jo, I thought you were pissed, you really came?
I couldn’t help hating him, acting like nothing had happen and joking around. Soon, he held out the doll as usual…
Me: I don’t need it.
Jin: What….why…
I grabbed the doll from his hands and threw it on the road.
Me: I don’t need this doll, I don’t need it anymore! I don’t want to see a person like you again!
I spitted out all the words that were inside me. But unlike other days, his eyes very shaking.
“I’m sorry”
He apologized in a tiny voice.
He then walked over to the road to pick up the doll…
Me: You stupid! Why are you picking up the doll! Just throw it away!

But he ignored me and just went to pick the doll. Then…

Honk~ Honk~
With a loud honk, a big truck was heading towards him.
“Jin! Move! Move away!” I shouted…
But he didn’t hear me, he squatted down and picked up the doll.
“Jin, move!”
HONK~!
“Boom!” That sound, so terrifying.
That’s how he went away from me.
That’s how he went away without even opening his eyes to say one word to me.
After that day, I had to go through everyday with guiltiness and the sadness of losing him… And after spending two months like a crazy person… I took out the dolls.

Those were the only gifts he left me since the day we started going out. I remembered the days I spent with him and started to count the days… when we were in love…

“One…two… three…”
That was how… I started to count the dolls…
“Four hundred and eighty four… four hundred and eighty
five…”
It all ended with 485 dolls.
I then started to cry again, with a doll in my arms. I hugged it tightly, then suddenly…

“I love you~, I love you~”
I dropped the dolls,shocked.

“I….lo..ve…you?”
I picked up the dolls and pressed its stomach.

“I love you~ I love you~”
It can’t be! I pressed all the dolls’ stomach as it piled on the side.
“I love you~”
“I love you~”
“I love you~”
Those words came out non-stop. I…love you… Why didn’t I realize that….That his heart was always by my side, protecting me. Why didn’t I realize that he love me this much… I took out the doll under the bed and pressed it’s stomach,
that was the last doll, the one that fell on the road. It had his blood stain on it. The voice came out, the one that I was missing so much…

“Jo…Do you know what today is? We’ve been loving each other for 486 days. Do you know what 486 is? I couldn’t say I love you…. Um… since I was too shy… If you
forgive me and take this doll, I will say that I love you… everyday… till I die… Jo… I love you…”

The tears came flowing out of me. Why? Why? I asked god, why do I only know about all this now? He can’t be by my side, but he loved me until his last minute…

For that… and for that reason… to me… it became courage… to live a beautiful life…

sad story but i love it! but i'm just really messed up that way!

"I though is was a tradition for the wolf to eat the grandmother not the grandomther to eat every poor basterd that come's to visit"

I have totaly discovered that i'm in love with candy and that is kewl with me!

I wish i was a wereling it would be kewl!

( for the people who don't know what a wereling is it's a person who get bitten by a werewolf and turns into one)

but sadly i'm a silver blood

and it SUCKS.

i have a very creative imagination and i love it!

" OMG this has been my theme song for like the past two days!" my friend

" What is it? " me

" Dance Dance " my friend

" WOW... YOUR SO STUPID! " me

Phone conversation with my Bf

Me- " Yeah we were all talking about things and it was so funny "

Matthew- " what were you talking about?"

Me- " Well we were teasing Aimee cuz she likes a guy with small hands and small feet"

Matthew- " ok so? "

Me- " Well we were saying that the bigger the hands the bigger the ... and then we also said the bigger the feet the bigger the ... and i said the smaller the feet the bigger the ..."

Matthew- " no that's wrong what you said it's the bigger the feet"

I'm mentaly scared FOR LIFE he has size 13 shoes! so not an image that i needed in my head

don't you think that it's really werid when someone asks you something and it's really akward and you really want to answer yes but it's so akward all you can do is just sit there looking in the other direction?

well if you do i know how you feel belive me i know how you feel

lol

Love is like a black hole

You never know what's going to happen

There are always loop holes and secret doors

But you don't know where you are

Until you get there

But there is always heart break

Peope always say you don'r understand love

Until your in love

But even when your in love you don't know

Every on has a diffrent point of view

Love can mean so many diffrent things

werid yes i know i wrote it for english to say what love means to me!

it's stupid and it's not good but you don't have to go and tell me that now lol

jk

jk

Coversation inbetween me and my (sister)

Me : I HATE razors

Aimee: Why?

Me : Cuz there ploting to take over the world but cutting people and making them BLEED to death!

Aimee: OK?

Me: THERE GOING TO KILL US ALL... just like those damn squirrls!

Violets are blue

Roses are red

I'm coming aboard

So prepare to EAT LEAD!

A good friend once said to me don't make fun of someone if you can't handle getting made fun of back. Well i make fun of people and i get made fun of, so i don't want to hear any bull shit from you people saying " You don't know what it's like to be made fun of ! " I get teased every god d day of my life. For how i dress or talk or even act. so don't even bother telling me your f sob stories cuz i don't want to hear it from you people!

well yeah...

i make a wish that every day i wasn't here that you weren't there that we were both here together

willfall4uturner (6:41:55 PM): i was at teh mall buying Michelle's b-day present
willfall4uturner (6:42:16 PM): and this guy at the photo stand, the ones in teh middle fo the aile thingies of the mall..
willfall4uturner (6:42:22 PM): yeah, he was looking at porno on his copmputer

... my friends tell me very werid things...

lol

but i got to love them! after all there what i got! and i hope it stays that way!

- Love You Guys So Much ( not really guys! 4 girls )

humbug...

yes i say humbug..

let me see...

i have 2 twins, 2 sisters ,1 mom, 1 dad, 1 triplet

and none of them are really part of my family!

i'm happy as hell got my glasses today finally!

let's just put it this way i can't find one guy that wont treat me like shit at all i always find ones who treat me like i'm nothing and the ones that i find that are actaully nice to are way to old!

today me and ashley we were at the mall and we passed by the store dicks and she said really load...

" I Love Dicks"

and i started to laugh so hard

also we were at the park and i asked

" why do you always wear flip flops?"

" cuz when i wear sneakers it feels like my feet can't breath"

that was such a stupid ashley moment!

For the whole chinses zodiac thing

I'm a monkey :)

and it says i should aim for a rat or a tiger

and the guy i like is born in 1988 and he's a dragon...

and i'm so happy...

but he's 18...

so we can't go out