Looking at me, you'd see: A tall skinny pale girl in baggy dark pants and a black shirt with long auburn/brown hair with faded green tips. When I'm at school I wear Gothic makeup. (I take off the lipstick before going home because my parents hate it and threatened to take away ALL my makeup if I wear Gothic makeup... so they don't know. I made my teachers swear they wouldn't mention it at conferences.) I listen to my music (LINKIN PARK!!!) loud and I rarely smile; I talk even less when I'm at school. (At home I'm more comfortable but I'm still not cheerful or anything.) I only have one friend, and she lives in England, so my social life isn't exactly hopping. ((Hi Leanne!)) And I like it that way-- I hate popular kids. They piss me off. Especially popular girls. I especially hate how some of them try to act like I'm their friend when they must be absolutely insanely idiotic to not know that I'd rather put a blunt needle through my nose than have anything to do with them. (I'm being 100% truthful here, though I'd prefer a sharp needle.) And my policy with respecting authority? If anyone demands my respect, I say "I don't respect anyone until they have earned my respect. Have you done anything to earn my respect? No." Generally, I follow rules that I deem sensible ones. Or if they don't waste my time. I don't make it a habit to actively break rules for the sake of breaking them... But if I have something I want to write on the restroom stall wall, then I'll write it. I don't care if it's against the rules, or if what I'm writing is contoversial (it tends to be; I'm decidedly unAmerican and I'm an Athiest). I write on desks too. Lyrics, mostly-- ones that mean something to me.

But looking at me, you would not expect me to be in the accelerated math/science class, to have a Freshman (in COLLEGE) reading level, or write pages upon pages of quality writing every day. My dark mind is very productive. For all the times I don't talk, I think my thoughts instead. My life provides a lot of inspiration for my writing, which is why it's mostly not happy and cheerful. (FYI, I wrote the "Real Story" parodies about a year ago, when I was still naive and comparatively lighthearted.)

I have very little faith in humanity. We're intelligent enough monkeys to figure out nuclear warheads, but we're not nearly wise enough to stop putting so much energy into killing each other instead of helping each other. Maybe it's just because I live in America, but America seems especially bad in this regard. I'm very political, especially considering most girls my age seem only interested in fashion and who's dating Justin Timberlake.