Kaidan's life has never been easy. BAaT nearly drove him to madness, life after was a struggle, but now… Now he is ready. For whatever life tosses at him. Or so he thinks.

Spoilers for ME3 - Kaidan explores his doubts and reconnection with Shepard. Is Shepard the man he knew two years ago? Can Kaidan put his doubts to bed and acknowledge how he actually feels. Does Shepard feel the same way? Paragade. mShep/Kaidan.

John Shepard and his family move to Vancouver after an incident in Chicago and must adjust to the weird people of Normandy High School. Re-continued!

Kaidan thinks that maybe this time it's not about what John needs, but what he deserves.

Earthborn, lone survivor and hero of Elysium, John Shepard was ready for anything. Falling in love with a man was not on the list and what's even more shocking is his enthusiasm. Kaidan/M!Shep, Garrus/Tali and more! AU in some parts. Chapter 1 edited!

Shenko M/M love story.

This is an all out yaoi scene! Major yaoi for Gat and boss now.

Boss has been hopelessly searching for gat high and low, and once he has found him...well, what do you think is going to happen?

5 years later according to ...

A continuation of Boss is Boss, Is Boss coming to terms with his own feelings? Fuck if we know.

This is the begining of Gats love for his Male boss...Boss X Johnny Gat

Instead of finding Ashley Williams on Eden Prime, they find Ashton Williams; and instead of him being a Soldier, he's a Biotic Adept. And instead of there being just Shepard falling, it's Kaidan as well! Rated M for precautions...

Kaidan downloads a gay dating app and quickly gets a stalker.

An on-going fill of a kink meme's prompt: "Make a story based on this Shepard and Kaidan video." /watch?v YaZrAa547Qo&list FLS3XaG9vMy9dU p7wQy8uVw&index 1&feature plcp slash Kaidan/MaleShepard, implied Liara T'Soni/MaleShepard

It started with Liara and just went downhill from there. Shepard gets hit on, a lot. MShep/Kaidan

He'd been more than willing to sacrifice to save lives, but Kaidan wasn't quite ready to let him go that easy. MShep/Kaidan. Rated M to be safe. [INDEFINITE HIATUS]

After a breakout of some unknown STD, Johnny Gat and the boss are left with only one safe option: Each other. Johnny/M!Boss! Warning: M/M, yaoi, smut, all that good stuff. Oneshot. Please R/R!

A series of moments from Commander Shepard's life that have defined him, and turned him into the man he is. Some cruel, some violent, some beautiful, all of them important. No in-game scenes. MShep/Kaidan

A discovery made by EDI pertaining to a deserted Cerberus research facility proves to be quite the shocker to the crew, especially Kaidan. M!ShepxKaidan, M!ShepxLiara. Rated M for future chapters.

And a little bit of Kaidan too.

Pt 1 expounds on the mShep/Kaidan romance during ME3, and pts 2/3 follow the Synthesis ending as Kaidan & co. set out to deal with the aftermath of winning the war but losing Shepard. Written pre-Extended Cut, though some of what I wrote to reconcile my questions at the end felt pretty prescient once EC released. Some strong language & mature content, hope "M" covers it

Harbinger has underestimated Nathan Shepard not once, but twice and now that he's woken up in London after the attempt to trick him with the Catalyst, Shepard and his team will fight even harder to destroy the Reapers, and Nathan won't stop until they're gone and he can be at peace with Kaidan. M!Shenko slashtimes.

A collection of random one-shots or three-part short stories that explore the wonderful relationship of M!Shep and Kaidan. NEW: Shepard is no longer part of the 10th Street Reds but someone wants him to be. The only way to get his attention in the Reaper invasion is to kidnap his lover. However, every enemy underestimates the power of friendship and love.

Rated M for possible future content; violence and sexuality. An attempt to fit a more seriously flawed Shepard into the game. Please review and criticise; I haven't used a beta reader. Disclaimer: I don't own Mass Effect. Note: This has been, indefinitely, suspended.

Post Destroy ending High EMS. mShenko. Kaidan and Shepard prepare for their first Christmas together.

Aria's won back Omega. Now what? M!Shepard/Kaidan

Shepard is imprisoned the second he gets back to Earth after defeating the collectors. A civil war is brewing in Elysium while he lies in captivity, until a rescue team from the Normandy arrives, including a brand new addition to the crew. Kaidan isn't particularly interested in him, but will that change as Shepard gets more and more accustomed to their new member?

Shepard, a high-ranking Cerberus agent, is sent to capture humanity's first Spectre Kaidan Alenko after he receives a vision from a Prothean beacon on Eden Prime. Turns out, the vids do him no justice — and Shepard finds himself struggling with his loyalties. Written for ME Big Bang. Illustrated by Sammvitch.

A short scene: Commander Shepard and Kaidan Alenko struggle to shield ex-Cerberus scientists from a reaper horde.

The catalyst isn't quite what people seem to think it is. A/U story. Post ending.

And now he was pliant and boneless, slowly dripping off the surface of the bar in the lounge of the Normandy, and almost spilling out of his seat. This wasn't right. This wasn't Spectre Kaidan. He wasn't very spectral at all. Nothing about him was spectral. Time to get up and ... uggh... sit down again.

It'd been a year since the push to the conduit in London, and everyone's lives had moved on expect for Kaidan's. Despite the promotions and potentials, Kaidan has spent the past year just watching Shepard, looking after the commander as he heals from his injuries.

Based off a tweet by Raphael Sbarge; "to all those who may be wondering... I am a lousy speller. Just for the record..." Shepard finds out that despite his powerful biotic abilities, Kaidan hasn't always been the best speller in the galaxy.

The great Commander Shepard brought feuds between alien races to grinding halts through sheer democracy. He'd risked his life to save his home planet, and by extension, the rest of the galaxy, too. But he'd survived only to bleed to death. He could have lived to see his lover again, to raise a family, retire, buy a fucking beach house, but no one found him in time. Shame. Drabble.

Alenko x M!Shepard. Romance, humour, drama, fluffy 'round the edges. "As the court is aware, Major Alenko is both Lieutenant Commander Shepard's senior and superior.There is sufficient evidence to indicate that the Major abused his authority and relationship to influence and manipulate the Lieutenant Commander to further his caree-" Shepard interrupted very clearly. "What the fu-"

A post synthesis EC fic, Kaidan is left heart broken after Shepards death he cant and doesn't want to believe that he's really gone. Romance story between Kaidan and Mshep rated for language and sexual content reviews are always welcome and appreciated! :

There are many moments in Shepard's live which had given him reasons to live. But there was only one man Shepard wanted to stay alive for. The problem is that he doesn't know if the man feels the same. Originally written for MassEffectKinkmeme. M!ShepXKaidan. Rated M just in case. Set during ME2 and ME3 Post EC-ending.

When fighting in a war which has no end in sight. It's easy to forget what you have, until it's ripped away from you. This is a Yaio fic so don't like don't read! Disclaimer inside.

Kaidan and Shepard have always been good friends, but just close they really felt has only just hit home. Kaidan/mShepard romance. Dialogue has been altered to something more romantic hopefully! Reviews are welcome of course!

Explores the first few weeks after the Normandy crashes on the Jungle planet. Kaidan needs to focus on leading the survivors to avoid falling into depression, but he knows it's only a matter of time before the pain of losing Shepard catches up to him. Story based on High EMS Destroy ending, was started before the EC. Except for some areas fits with EC too.

Story of Kaidan & Nathan Shepard, post-EC. A story of rescue & recovery, with flashbacks. M/M Romance. No in-game scenes

In which Shepard runs into fangirls, finds haven in the Normandy and an unexpected piece of news. ONE-SHOT. Can be read as a stand-alone piece! Companion piece to Get Out.

"Give us hope and a fighting chance. Hell, the Reapers better watch themselves." Every hero needs a hero every now and then. And Kaidan is exactly what Shepard needs.

How can one find love in the midst of a war of that which the Galaxy has never beheld? Daily drabbles explaining the hardships faced between two brothers-in-arms as they attempt to establish a mutual love that both have been dancing around for years. Renegade!Shep trying to be Paragon. Done for the 30 Day's of Writing Challenege.

Shepard and the allied races end the war, but Kaidan is left with nothing at all. He confessed to Shepard on the Citadel, but his Commander didn't feel the same way. Kaidan tries to get Shepard to like him, but it's more complicated than he thinks. The Krogan are on the warpath after the genophage is cured, and Kaidan and Shepard have to find a way to make it through.

A fic spanning across all three Mass Effect game, it chronicles Kaidan and Shepard's relationship from their first kiss to their nights together on the Normandy, and finally to the ending of the third game. Rated for sexual content, because I don't know how to read the rules.

They had been going on without shore leave long enough for things to get tense. Shepard calls for a fight night to relieve the tension among the crew and, namely, between himself and Kaidan. Written for kinkmeme.

An on-going fill of a kink meme's prompt. Basically, what would happen if an LI turned out to be indoctrinated while Shepard and the squad are rushing for the beam in London. Kaidan/MaleShepard

A little snippet. Shepard visits Kaidan in the hospital. MShep/Kaidan.

Three years after the war when the world is new, some wounds are still old but raw. John and Kaidan both found themselves in situation, they couldn't easily handle. MShepXKaidan. Includ. Sex and Violence. And lots of ME cursing. All set before the EC.

Kaidan catches Shepard drinking straight from the milk carton. Again. AU one-shot.

Kaidan Alenko looks back on his life while preparing for a celebration marking the third year anniversary of the end of the Reaper War.

Do tell me, Lt, is it tough to dream and yet not believe the fantasy for a moment? From after the catastrophe of the first Normandy to the reunion on Horizon; Kaidan/ M Shepard, slash

A collection of vignettes focusing on the more intimate moments in the progression of Commander Shepard's relationship with the Alliance sentinel. M!Shepard/Kaidan with hints of M!Shepard/Liara. Rated M for some sexual content and profanity.

"Major. He did it." This time there was something else other than shocked realization in Jokers voice, something like concern. Thats when it hit him. "Kaidan…" "He did it." His voice was cracked, filled with pain. "He… he…"

The ones closest to John Shepard come to English Bay to remember him.

Story about Shepard and Kaidan meeting in Grissom Academy. Shepard goes to train with N7 and Kaidan to lead a biotics program for the Alliance. Other characters included.

Sort of a prompt from the kinkmeme. Kaidan and Shepard take a little downtime on the Citadel.

Prompt from the Kinkmeme. Shepard is exhausted and it's up to Kaidan to wake him up and get him ready for an important diplomatic meeting.

The sequel to my story "Grimm not Disney"

A drunken Kaidan begins groping and embarrassing Shepard in front of Vega and Garrus.

Sequel to 'It means what'

Shepard's old squad haven't seen much of each other in 4 years. That's until Tali sends out an invitation to help her celebrate on Rannoch. Freinds laugh, lovers grow closer, and turian bathing suit! Multi-perspective MShepard/Kaidan and others!

Shepard has a thing for Kaidan but doesn't act on it because he think's its inappropriate for to fraternize even though he spends a majority of the time thinking about it. Cue ME2 and the fairy tale ending doesn't materialize.

When John Shepard's cybernetics starts to fail, Kaidan has to keep faith for them both.

During a mission on Eden Prime, before waking up Javik. Shepard finds an amulet in the ruins. Not thinking about it, he keeps it. Later when Kaidan and Shepard are together, Javik notices that Kaidan is wearing it and tells Shepard something surprising.

Five years after the war, galactic society is about to reach a turning point and the time has come to look both back and forward. mShepard/Kaidan

Jameson Shepard awakens after the conclusion of ME3. Pretty fluffy. Shepard M x Kaiden A. Spoilers for the end of the game.

After living through the Thresher Maw incident in Akuze, John Shepard loses his short term memory and forever thinks it is 2173. Kaidan Alenko meets him and is determined to make Shepard fall in love with him, even if he has to do it every day.

Many years after defeating the Reapers and saving the known galaxy, Commander Shepard just wants to live out what little time he has left as a happy man. His failing cybernetics, however, are making that an extremely difficult task.

Kaidan and Shepard can't sleep so they share a little moment together. MShep/Kaidan.

According to the vids, the end is nigh. Kaidan knows he's got to come clean with Shepard sooner or later about how he really feels- before it's too late. m!shep/Kaidan slash, done for the MEKinkMeme. ME3 spoilers

Commander Shepard longs for Kaidan, just as the Major longs for his C.O.. When things get tough and near death experiences.. Will they be strong enough to see it through until the end?

It's Shepard's birthday and Kaidan gives the commander his gift.

John and Kaidan spend some time in a hotel.

James Vega is everyones keeper, when they forget to look after themselves, and each other.

Kaidan tries to handle his little green friend; Jealousy, and Emmet gets embarrassed over his bumbling mouth. Fluff? Jealous!Kaidan/ManShep contains tiny spoilers and one curse. Spacer!Ruthless!Paragade!Manshep written at 4am, you've been warned.

Earthborn orphan John Shepard and rich-kid Kaidan Alenko-fresh out of a bad experience in 'brain camp'-meet in Vancouver during the former's time as a member of the Tenth Street Reds. Shepard doesn't scare Kaidan off with his dancing, and that has to m

Kaidan just got Shepard back in his life after their run in on Horizon. And damn it, he's not ready to lose him again. Kaidan/M!Shep. Spoilers for ME3 ending.

John Shepard wants to show trust talking about what he finds the hardest to talk about. His past.

The air is heavy and stinks of sulfur and death and blood. It reeks but John still struggles to draw in even a hint of it. Male!Shepard/Kaidan slash

written for kink meme - ME3 Spoilers, smut before last battle.

Who are you really in love with? A past idea or the person before you, Major? Kaidan/MShepard, ME3 SPOILERS

SLASH M!Shepard/Kaidan - Faced with three horrible choices, Commander Shepard chooses to reject them. This is the outcome of that choice.

Just a little AU fluffy end of my own. - Spoilers!

Shepard had life-altering decisions to make and all the consequences to include. ME3 compliant, Kaidan/Shepard romance option

An extension upon that 'secret' scene, a conversation, a confession, and a small piece of closure. Rated M for strong language.

He spent his life fighting for what he believed in and now, as he stood at the edge of the abyss, he was ready to do it again. He refused to let the Reapers win. *ME3 SPOILERS* my take on how it should have ended

Mass Effect 3 spoilers. Shepard has been wearing his N7 hoody around the Normandy. MShep/Kaidan

Being brought back from the dead to save the universe, ain't all it's cranked up to be.

Facing Shepard on Horizon, even though he was warned, was unexpected. Was he even real?

Poor, poor Kaidan. You should've known that curiosity kills the cat... Slight KaidanxM!Shepard

How do you tell someone that you want to be with them, always. M!Shep/Kaidan

17/7/2011, nondescript slash written for the kink meme Prompt: Shepard is injured in battle. Kaidan's secret blood kink and the left over adrenaline means that he has to have Shepard right there & then.

10 P.M to 4-Shepard was having one those dreams and it was not about the Reapers! It was about Kaidan. You'd think that the commander was on crack if he told you what his dream was. But suddenly everything turns into one lovely chain between the two men.

Between Shepard and Alenko there are sparks of passion. The relationship between commander and lieutenant is a scandalous one. But boys will be boys! Drunkards, tattoos and misleading hints of scandalous sex. All events take place in ME1. Slash! M/M love!

This story takes place two months after the destruction of the Collector base. Only Zaeed, Garrus and Samara made it out alive, plus a character I made up that is sort of a representation of myself. Enjoy.

Some of the crew of the SSV Normandy gather to gossip about their favourite Commander. Kaidan overhears.

ONESHOT. Huh, Shepard thought dazedly as he stared at his very naked lieutenant. Okay.

Title and excerpt is from the song "I'll Be Yours" by Placebo. NSFW. M!shep/Alenko. After Shepard returns through the Omega 4 relay, he emails an old friend... and more. AU, assumes m!shep romanced Kaidan in ME1.

Shepard starts to acknowledge his feelings for his Staff Lieutenant- and his buddy. It's the first time he's felt like this about another man, and he struggles to wrap his head around the concept. A PWP romance, written in brief sections. M/M, Language.

We'll make everything all right again, Kaidan. Wait for me and I will come back for you. John Shepard/Kaidan Alenko. ME1/ME2. Slash. A brief look into what could have been.

John Shepard and Kaidan Alenko in an ambiguous club. Dance floor. Turian liquor. Stuff's gonna happen. Slash.

PWP written for the hopeless lack of John Shepard/Kaidan. Slash.

Shepard's plan to defeat the Reaper threat puts her at odds with her love Kaiden. Takes place roughly a year after ME2

Kaiden is plagued by the same dream. Wandering the ship at night, he realizes he must find a different alternative when he keeps bumping into the object of them. Not to mention the other man is undeniably amused by it all. Kaiden/Shepard.Male/Male.SLASH

Shepard x Kaidan. Rated for language. Shepard stepped forward and was suddenly in his personal space. Much too close for comfort. Or not close enough, depending which way Kaidan looked at it. "I'm a Spectre...Alliance regs don't apply to me."

It was Chora's Den with its Asari dancers that started it. Kaidan/Shepard, slash. Yuletide 2008 story for Sidrin.