Well My Names Jade. I suppose that’s where I’m supposed to start when writing about myself. I’m really bad at writing about myself, i can never think of what to say, but i’ll have a go. I guess my life is full of surprises, not always good, no wait, NEVER good. One minute you’ll see me smiling, I’m the happiest person in the world, the next minute there’s something that crushes me flat. Oh wait I’m being negative, better stop that since it’s illegal according to some people. Hypocrites, all of them. What a joke.

I just don’t get it, it’s like my life just does it to annoy me, engage my reaction, i guess i’m being an ungrateful cow aren’t i ? I mean i have everything i need. A family, a home, nice things, people say I’m lucky and privileged and should stop winging because my life is fantastic, but if i’m completely honest , if my life is so amazing, why do I feel so incomplete?

Will I ever feel good and be happy with those bastards who help hold you down while life breaks you? But lately I don’t think that’ll ever really happen.

To be fair, I’ve given up on some people, I’ve let people down, I’ve fallen out with people, but maybe that’s because I’ve been taken for a ride, I’m a mug. I’m sick and tired of people who just couldn’t care less how people around them feel or what they say do to people. To be honest their only concern is will this fuck up my hair ?

I’m pretty happy with my life, but it’s far from perfect and i don’t know if it ever will be. But all i can do is just work hard and stick up for what i believe in because i hate backstabbers.

I hate liars and i hare dishonesty, I can honestly say i find it funny watching some people falling for it. After all the times I’ve seen people argue, i watch people fall out, they just seem to go back for more and treat them like royalty. Why ?

Popularity. People judge others for what they look like, what they act life and to be quite honest, from my point of view, it pisses me off. Because at the end of the day, everyone’s a person. People feel like they can only fall for or hang with someone who’s popular.

Wtf is popular? I thought it was someone who everybody likes, someone who’s there for everybody and treats you the way they’d like to be treated. But nope. Popular is just another word for the people who come across the bitchiest, the person who ‘everyone wants to be like’

Well I don’t ever want to be like that.

I want to be a person with my own opinions and actions. I don’t want to be a sheep and tag along side someone who doesn’t actually care about anything but themselves and that fit boy looking at her.

I know some amazing people with some amazing personalities. But they never get to be who they want to be.

Why ?

Because they’re to scared to be who they want to be. Too scared to be themselves in case the ‘popular’ crowds have their head on a platter.

Maybe?

Me ? well I love to sing and act and write stories. It’s pretty much the only thing that makes me happy these days. I’ve been writing for about a year now and acting just makes me plain happy. I love to sign, who doesn’t ? But just not publicly, I’ve kind of developed a sense of stage fright ...

I’ve made loads of friends through it all, who I’ll remember very later on in life. There are quite a lot of people who i’m afraid to be myself around, but thats cause i’ve got shit self confidence. I come across as a bitch, but I’ve just got a barrier, if something goes wrong, this barriers there to protect me, I don’t get too fucked up that way.

You have to be really close to me to get to know what i’m really like and if you don’t they you will never know who i am.

I tend to get jealous extremely easy and i always get told i’m a grumpy sod, but before you judge me, you need to look a little into why i’m like that.

I’ve got some amazing friends, and well, they’ve taught me lots, although we’ve had many fallouts, i can honestly say that I’ve gotten closer to some of them that i never expected to in the 1st place.