About Me

I am who I am.

This is like the lyrics of my very personality... I hope it doesn’t suck. I am a very awkward person... The words I choose to describe myself are hopeful, artsy, crafty, lithe, faithful, overbearing, self-critical, intelligent, caring, realistic, nerdy, open minded, willing, active, deep, wistful, and longing. I am unlucky and a Wiccan literally. I am so longing. I want to be such a different person, different from what I am, and what I am expected to be. I am longing for a way for me to escape here. To leave this rank city but maintain the ones I love here. I want love, I want adventure, I want to live my life to the fullest. I have a lust for exploration and newness. I value innovation and creation, yet I also rely on romanticism too. I value my memories despite the pain I have felt. I want to live in a large city as an adult and I am trying to be a novelist. I realize that in an instant, everything can change, whether it is people, seasons, or lifetimes. I keep myself flexible enough to flow with these changes of life. I am my own person. I am me, myself, and I always will be. No one can take that from me.
I am tired of getting hurt. Emotionally, physically, it all feels just as terrible and just as bad. I don't want to be in another relationship where I am the one getting so hurt. I don't know if I have a strong enough character to handle it. The truth is, I am afraid to get hurt, again. Despite all of this, I have great appreciation for love. It fascinates me so much. I long for it more than anything else.
You can't make someone love you. Love comes and goes when it wants to. No one can force love. Love is like the wind, you can't see it but you can feel it.

Name: Nicholas Horne
Age: 16
Location: Toledo, Ohio
Religon: Wiccan/Pagan
Orientation: Gay
Status: Single
Occupations: Artist/Writer/Novelist
Fanfic name: Ironsider

Music I Love

A Perfect Circle, The Dresden Dolls, Evanescence, that dog, Slipknot, The Beatles, SuperCreep, Echo 7, The Schuers, Herman Jolly, Magic Dirt, Superchick, The Rentals, Ozma, The Tender Box, The Rogue Traders, Goo Goo Dolls, Crazytown, Placebo, Jump, Little Children, Ani DiFranco, Imogen Heap, Gazette, The Infinity Aeronaut, Superdrag, Blonde Redhead, Azure Ray, Postal Service, Velocity Girl, Jimmy Eat World, Straylight Run, Joe Hisaishi, Within Temptation, Godsmack, Blue Man Group, Blue Foundation, Placebo, Sugar Ray, The Verve Pipe, The Pancake Chef, MC, Diggis Dis, Vampire Hunter Dan, ambient, PlBenjaminZ, gutzalpus, DragonAvenger, Retlaf, Tenchu & Doriimaa, Sharkma, Keith Caputo, Flyleaf, Poe, Amy Lee, Amanda Palmer, Sarah Bettens, Norah Jones, pixietricks, Echo and the Bunnymen, Lucuna Coil, Bush, Rouge Wave, Lisa Germano, Newton Faulkner, The Alternative Routes, Dolores O'Riordan, A Fine Frenzy, JJ Grey & Mofro, Beck, The Swell Season, Aqualung, Bif Naked, Earthtone9, Serj Tankian, Stone Temple Pilots, Reliant K, Sprung Monkey, Mindtribe, No Heroes, Dashboard Prophets, 2 Unlimited, Humbucker, Superfine, Velvet Chain, Three Day Weekly, Rubber, Kim Richey, Far, Sophie Zelmani, Patsy Cline, Jonatha Brookie, Cibo Matto, Nickel, Four Star Mary, Louie Says, Act of Faith, Epperley, Treble Charger, Willoughby, The Sisters of Mercy, Creaming Jesus, Vivaldi, Lotion, Naked, The Average White Band, Morcheeba, The Flamingos, Nero's Rome, Bellylove, The Brian Jonestown Massacre, Third Eye Blind, Darling Violetta, Marc Ferrari, Lori Carson, The Pinehurst Kids, Lisa Loeb, Fastball, Mad Cow, Cream, Jimmy, Man of the Year, The Spies, Plastic, Supergrass, Tricky Woo, Sound Stage Ltd, Curve, Kathleen Wilhoite, Spectator Pump, Fat Boy Slim, Kool & the gang, Cracker, The Lassie Foundation, The Sundays, Strech Princess, The Muffs, Slpendid., Paul Riordin, Psychic Rain, Devil Doll, Dollshead, 28 Days, Third Grade Teacher, Verbena, Lauren Christy, Ash, Smile, Gomez, THC, Pal Trudeau, Kim Ferron, Collapis, Eight Stops Seven, Sue Willet, The Hellicopters, A.B. O'Neill, Primus, Glen Miller, Travis, Love&Rockets, Darangen, Veruca Salt, Dream Theatre, Kamelot, Danny Lohner, Maynard James Keenan, Puscifer, Marketa Iglova, Glen Hansard, Theory of a Deadman, Lara Fabian, Blind Melon, Rage against the Machine, Feist, Grace Potter & The Nocturnals, Donovan, Corinne Bailey Rae, Rachael Yamagata, Shiny Toy Guns, Fiest, Vienna Teng, Donovan, Corinne Bailey Rae, Soundgarden, Connie Francis, The Gothic Archies, Disturbed, Dir en Grey, Fiona Apple, Do as Infinity, The Cranberries, Alex Parks, Amy Winehouse, Frank Sinatra, Lily Allen, Nouvelle Vogue, Goo Goo Dolls, Seven Nations, Snow Patrol, Keane, Mama's and the Papa's, Mafred Man, Dixie Cups, Sugarcult, old Smashing Pumpkins, Sophie B. Hawkins, Crowded House, Blues Traveler, Declan Glabraith, Flogging Molly, Pink Martini, System of a Down, Trapt, Trust Company, Seether, Elvis Presley, Savage Garden, Creed, Rob Zombie, Yoko Kanno, Yasonuri Mitsuda, t.A.T.u, Garbage, no doubt, Nickelback, Tori Amos, Korn, Four Star Mary, Chibbo Mado, K's Choice, Class Three Overbite, Melanie Doane, Heather Nova, Angie Hart, Laika, The Veronicas, Thomas Newman, Puddle of Mudd, Tom Lehrer, Enya, Enigma, Depeche Mode, Delerium, Blind Guardians, Three Days Grace, Thousand Foot Krutch, Tegan and Sara, New Found Glory, Our Lady Peace, KT Tunstall, The Turtles, The Crystals, Puffy Ami Yumi, BoA, Green Day, Koda Kumi, Michael Andrews, Godsmack, Danny Elfman, frou frou, Bard of Tarot, Protrocity, amateur gormet, The Cure, Jewel, The Killers, Avenue Q, Nirvana, Nine Inch Nails, Mudvayne, Tenacious D, Alanis Morsette, linkin park, Passerby, Malice Mizer, Destiny, zyko, kLuTz, New Found Glory, Pavement, Superchunk, Cream, Silversun Pickups, The Police, The Shins, Death Cab for Cutie, Ayumi Hamasaki, The Sun, Mayaa Sakamoto, The Lashes, Hot Hot Heat, fIREHOSE, Built to Spill, The Smiths, Morrissey, Sebadoh, Erasure, Frente, Lush, New Order, me first and the gimme gimmes, The Sundays, Nicole Kidman, Ewan McGregor, Beethoven, Movie soundtracks, RPG soundtracks, and song remixes.