Let's see, what can I say about myself? I recently started to be more open about myself and more in touch with my emotions after reading Big Time Rush slash fics. XD Pretty reasonable story right? Idk why, but I felt after reading this one story where James was self hurting due to his unrequited love from Kendall, I started to realize how I never had or probably never will have something like Kendall and James had in that story. One who will be there to comfort me in a time of weakness, one who when I'm with them I can feel like nothing will hurt us, and one who will protect me.

Well, if it's not obvious, which it probably isn't, I'm bisexual, but currently leaning towards guys though due to the above reasons. I can't really imagine myself doing that with a girl at this moment. I guess this desire for comfort stems from my lack of "go to" with my parents. I have never really had that one person I can go to and cry about my problems and help me though it. Only one was my cousin, and we can only do it at the occasional party.

Oh! But recently, I've learned that my family may be more accepting than I thought. However, it's mainly my generation. Adults wouldn't understand :P I've become more open to more of my cousins, and nothing has changed. Now I feel happier and more relaxed.

Also, to be honest, if it weren't for my friends, I probably wouldn't even have the guts to admit to people I'm bisexual. However, it's not like I'm broadcasting it. If people cared enough to ask, ya I'll admit it. But no on has, so no pressure. I still have those moments that I want to tell the guy I like that I'm bisexual, but no. Or even say to hella people that I'm bi, but deep inside, I know no one will care. So I'm perfectly content with whatever will happen with that :P

Oh! Story of my life! I fall in and out of love with TOO MANY straight guys. Wow, I need a better gaydar :P And apparently I can't find that one guy who'll love me for who I am yet. Tried that once, apparently I'm too ugly for him. Broke my heart cause just before I was telling him how he wasn't ugly. He throws his damn insecurities on others, idk what the hell is his problem.

Finally, back to my likes. I recently fell for Big Time Rush as like my second guy celebrity crushes XD My dreams say I like Kendall, and I relate myself to a Logan, and I'm built like Carlos (Or I think I am at least. Broad shoulders, same height, just don't have the muscle mass. I can if I want though!) and I "try" to sing like James! My first guy celebrity crush is on Mitch Hewer and he played this awesome gay guy named Maxxie from the Show "Skins" I was obsessed, until I figure out how much of a douche the actor can be XD

My Profile picture right now is because Logan looks so adorable like that that I had to put it up. Also, Kogan is adorable also, but I have no favorites :)

So in conclusion, on fanfiction, I hope to try and write stories soon, but my classes are killing me at the moment. AP Us History was the worst decision ever made :( So I hope you enjoyed reading about me! Makes me feel special if you did! XD

Oh speaking of fanfiction, working on a few myself. Right now, I'm going to experiment with couples and genres, and see what happens. What's coming up you may ask? Well...

One Shots:

Anniversary- Kames/Angst (James is a volatile character in my opinion, so I think angst would be fine.

Kogan- Smut (This is going to be hard :P Haven't thought of a title, but I have a couple ideas down.)

Multi-Chapter:

Can't Back Down- Jarlos (Just came to me :D Yes, it's a camp rock song, but the title will play a very important roll. :D

And whatever one shot from the above I feel I want to expand on! :D

I have a story now! :D Hope you guys like it!

HAPPY NEW YEARS!