Hi! Welcome to my profile and thank you for stopping by! xDD

NOTICE: *takes a deep breath*

Okay, I know this is very, very late. I quit fanfiction in about the middle of August 2013 (the 19th, to be exact), when I started school. I left you guys practically nothing of a goodbye, just a vague notice that didn't even explain why I had left. Only this Easter break, did I start questioning my own faults. So I logged back in and found heartwarming PMs for me to read. I know this apology may not be what all of you internet friends of mine deserve, but this is the best I can do. Onegai, please just bear with me through this. T.T

I may not seem like a good student - in fact, maybe I appear like a rebellious student to you guys. But the truth is, my parents are very strict on grades. They both graduated from top universities with top grades and PHDs, thus making them "tutors" when it came to my schoolwork. They always expected the most of me, especially as they believed I inherited their "smart genetics" that would make me some sort of child genius.

I also never told you guys, but one of my biggest fears is disappointing people. Making people displeased, pissing them off (something I am strangely talented at Dx), making them unhappy, making them cry...It was one of the things that could drive me insane. But literally the school year after the summer I started FF, my whole life started...well, I don't really know I how to describe it. Everyone seemed to hate me somehow because I had annoyed them in some way.

I disappointed my parents with average grades that just weren't good enough. I wasn't good enough for them, and so were my grades. I wasn't smart enough or logical enough or studious enough - I just wanted to pursue my hobbies and continue fanfiction. But my mother and father didn't understand. They believed that fanfiction was a wall, blocking me from being the genius I should've been. It was like I was in a constant argument with my parents. FF or revising? School or piano? All of the things I had enjoyed the most were torn away from me, replaced by boring math worksheets I had to fill in, and blank papers I had to fill with a written essay. Nobody understood me better than them, but now...I'm not sure if I can say that anymore.

I disappointed my teachers with my sudden drop in grades. Every day it seemed like they were shooting me disapproving glances, disappointed frowns, stern sighs...Every single time they handed me a test, they just looked away and kept eye contact with the people with top grades. They didn't believe in me, and I was determined to prove them wrong. So I dropped everything I had and studied, trying my best. But it wasn't enough. It was nearly above average, but not enough so. My parents were again, disappointed.

I disappointed my friends. I pushed them away because I didn't cope well under pressure. I pushed everyone who cared about me away from me; locking myself in a constant private world of wondering how to please my parents and teachers. When I finally saw how much I was hurting people by being so insensitive, I tried my best to allow them to forgive me. It was okay, because all my friendships were back into place. However, my two best friends, the people I was willing to die for, decided on some days, they would flat-out ignore me as revenge. They just couldn't get over the fact I wasn't as sociable or confident as them. Only after several months, did they finally accept our differences and embrace me as a friend again.

But what I felt most regretful about was that I had disappointed all of you guys. You guys were the best internet friends ever - hands down, don't even try to argue with me. Even if we only had a few paragraph, short PM conversation, I want to let you know that you've made me happy. Even if you've only read and never reviewed any of my stories, I am grateful for you. To those who have offered me kind encouragement and helpful advice, to those who have tried to cheer me up when I was down in the dumps...You all mean something to me. So thank you for that.

But besides helping me improve my writing techniques or cheer me up, you guys did something that everyone I loved and trusted just couldn't do - and that was to believe in me. You guys had the trust in me and even if it was just something small, like updating an chapter...You guys believed that I was going to be able to do it by whatever deadline I had set for myself. It was the most wonderful time of my life, with feelings of happiness surging through my heart every time I read a message from you guys.

And that's really amazing. Thank you so much for priceless things that no one had been able to do for my entire life - not my parents, not my friends, not my teachers, not my relatives, not my classmates...Truthfully, I can't say that I have believed in myself for my whole life. I love you guys so much I can't put it into words, and that was the main reason of why I was so upset with myself for disappointing all of you. It felt like I had stabbed all of you in your hearts - a complete betrayal of trust you guys had in me. ;-;

I don't know if I will ever come back to fanfiction, but I do know that if I don't, I will be trying my best to. I can't promise I will always reply to your PMs, nor can I promise I will update anything soon. But I promise to all of you guys I will work hard to get back all of my time on FF again.

Thank you for reading this long message! xD

(Yeah, awkward light-hearted ending to this notice...Ehehe...I guess...Have a wonderful day? *smiles sheepishly*)

WARNING: Before you read my profile, you may want to know you could be running away for sanity because of my strange obsessions and weird likings. So don't say I didn't warn you, 'cause I did! xP

All right, so let's get started; five random facts about me:

1) I'm StarlightFangirl (obviously!), but you can call me Hoshimi-chan or Hoshimi. My pen name was named after my obsession for starlight (It's weird, I know. But I have a story to it...that I would rather share on a PM. Soz, heh. It's kinda personal. My pen name was also named after the fact I fangirled all the time - over fictional characters, over celebrity crushes, over voice actors...Don't even get me started on anime. Like...No. Just no. x)

2) I'm generally outgoing and lighthearted on the internet, because I'm better with written words than speech. If you meet me in reality, I will clumsily trip in front of you, drop my whole schoolbag, roll around like an idiot, and stand up, stuttering and blushing at the same time. Literally. Not even joking, y'all!

3) Being on FF is one of the happiest things in my life! I usually write fanfiction for romance animes, but I don't really mind other genres (so long as it isn't something like horror movies. I honestly am terrified of those. Haha.

4) Reading fanfics ignited my fire for writing fanfics. I used to spend 1 hour everyday just reading countless fanfics before going to bed. It got the fanfic plot stuck in my head and my creativity juices running. Ideas are easily said but hard to write, so even if I had a million ideas, I would probably only publish one one-shot. I'm weird like that! :P

5) Taking requests from people and just transforming their simple ideas to a piece of fanfiction that would make them smile...?! Like, that literally is the best thing I've ever experienced here on FF.

6) I might or might not have an addiction to food (especially ice cream, but only in the summer XP)! Anything that is healthy is something I would probably enjoy. Which isn't very good...Yeah, I should probably eat more healthy.

7) Oh, and I'm a huge procrastinator! If you gave me 1000 years to do a piece of homework, I would still do it the night before. That's also the main reason of my slow and inconsistent updating. Gomen!!

A small profile in a profile (THE IRONY! :D)

Gender: I'm a fangirl and proud! x3 So, yeah, obviously - female.

Age: A tad too young for fanfiction...If you wanna know, you can ask me on a PM!

Hobbies:

Uh, I couldn't really just write one or two hobbies down for this one because...well, I have a (very) wide range of interests. So I came up with this list!

- I love reading fanfics and fiction! They're beautiful pieces of art that I just admire so much. The fluid flow of a story, the exciting plot that builds up more and more with each turn of a page, the characters who all secretly have their own flaws...Eh, I'm just a huge bookworm. (O.O I originally typed bookwork. Bookwork. When it was supposed to be bookworm...*horrified with self*)

- I love listening to music! It cheers me up and helps me get more focussed (or more unfocussed, if it's something I just want to rock out to). I probably spend at least one hour listening to music everyday. Addict, I know right?

- I absolutely adore writing. It's literally the thing I can do best in academics. I couldn't care about trigonometry even if you paid me, I can't remember facts well (history is not my thing), and geography?! Don't even get me started on that. I once said Venice was in France. =.="

- Fangirling, duh! That rush of adrenaline is just too addicting :)

- Watching anime and reading manga. Sometimes I just wish I lived in a virtual world. (One with Kashino. Bahahaha XD)

- I kinda enjoy drawing as well, though I'm not very good at it. Meh.

Strange obsessions: Starlight! I mentioned that before...! And for some things in my room...I like it completely tidy! My mom always ranted at me to clear my desk or organize my bookshelf and I have to admit...I just sort of...grew to it. It became a natural instinct to clean it. And I get super mad when someone puts the wrong thing in the wrong place...Okay, don't judge me! T.T! Onegai...*watches as readers judge me*...

Some Anime I'm planning to watch: Gakuen Alice, Accel World, Vampire Knight :)

(And hey, if you think I should watch some other anime, just PM me an anime recommendation! :) I'll also check out some of your fanfics! Also, I know some people can go "OMG! Why haven't you watched --? It's really famous, why is it only on your 'Some Anime I'm planning to watch' List?" So...I'm sorry! But I just recently started watching anime...T.T. Yeah, something I'm not very proud of. Sorry if I crushed your hopes...? Ehehe...that was awkward.)

Favorite couples from each anime (and why):

1) Kashino x Ichigo (Imagine pure Kashigo fluff put into one beautiful episode where they go on a date. That is literally the biggest thing that can motivate me. But it probably will never happen...Whatevs. I just ship those two so hard :D) Yumeiro Patissiere

2) Amu x Ikuto (Guys guys...Has anyone seen a particular...cute bubblegum haired girl around here...? Who was kidnapped by a flawless midnight-blue cat? LOL, sorry Tadamu fans...) Shugo Chara

3) Hiroto x Kirari (Don't. Even. Get me started on this one. Okay, I shipped them so hard, even harder than I shipped Kashigo, but for some reason, the director thought it was fun to ruin our lives by turning the second season 3D. Yup, arigato, I totally prefer 3D over 2D! *rolls eyes*) Kirarin Revolution

4) Yahiro x Megumi (Er, is it strange I ship them harder than Kei and Hikari. Haha...I'm just weird like that. I mean, it's a typical bad boy and innocent girl pairing. How could it possibly get cuter?) Special A

5) Usui x Misaki (A maid-transformed president dating a perfect blond? Oh. No. You. Asdfghjkl. *fangirls*) Kaichou wa Maid Sama!

6) Aira x Shou (You better watch their Prism Act where they kissed. NOW. I demand you, if you are a fan of this anime, check it now on YouTube and you shall recieve a virtual hug. But if you don't check it, virtual hugs for you as well xD) Pretty Rhythm

7) Kirito x Asuna (Asdfghjkl. Just...Asdfghjkl. I don't even know what else to say.) Sword Art Online

8) Io x Tsumiki (Whoa. If you guys can find a fluffier, cuter couple than this...Wow. Just...Gosh. You must have a long shipping list.) Acchi Kocchi

9) Natsu x Lucy (They won't admit it, but they know they're dating. They're just...one step away...One small, small, minuscule, tiny step.) Fairy Tail

:) Thank you for reading my profile :)