In whom I sit lonely, in whom I dream angels! From scholar to addict to madman to redemption: Matthew Williams' Twelve-Step Journey into the darker parts of the human soul, and his attempt to find a way back.

Zero is forced into the night class when it is discovered that he is a vampire. Once there he must deal with abuse and torment from the nobles, Kaname and another pureblood. How will he survive? Contains dark themes. Major Zero Whump! Rated for blood, gore, abuse, etc. And eventual KxZ.

Sequel to King Rat and No Mercy. Act 3 begins, and the Lord has returned to Chang'An to execute a plan to solve Shangri-La's problems- and the problems that are our heroes- once and for all. Will Sanzo and Gojyo and the family they have fought for survive this? Slash, Mpreg. Rated for mature content and language. Read and review!

"So sending me gifts and roses is some weird Russian code for 'I really want to hurt you?"

Sanzo remembers something he wishes had stayed forgotten. Goku realizes something he wishes he hadn't. Can these two lost souls ever find peace? Warnings: GRAPHIC RAPE (may be triggering) specific chapter warnings inside, language, pre-slash shounen-ai

Everyone knows how attractive the Seitan Taisen can be, even Sanzo. But when he gets his wish, is it what he really wants? Allusions to ST3, future 39. Some implications of forceful "consensual" activities. Later on could be described as "unconsensual."

"Change isn't always easy, but it's always necessary." "But how much change? What if things change so much, you don't even recognize your life anymore?" "...keep in mind that some things never change." Sequel to 'Missions'; takes place after coming home from India. A fic about what tears people apart and what holds them together.

Slit the throat of reason and reality. Wake up to this nightmare that will never end. A puppet of their sick perversions' appetite, will I be trapped inside this hell until I die? So make me your Deadman, stuck in your "Wonderland". Watch me bleed. Discontinued for future rewrite

"Arthur, there is no power in the world that could have stopped Ivan from entering that room. I had the choice between letting him see Matthew and watching him kill Alfred and I thought you might prefer the former." - Companion Piece to Crimson Skies, PruAus, US/UK, France/UK, some GerIta and obviously Russia/Canada

Liz, Epic, George, Tuna, and Nick put on a podcast. Edit: This is just a joke. Citizen Kaine's Live Podcast is an awesome show, and this is one big joke. One of the members of the the podcast requested I write this. I hope you all enjoy!

Hakkai was standing at their table, still damp from his shower, with nothing but a towel around his waist and his monocle on his nose. He was also supremely pissed. A short gift ficlet for Enchanterhea of tumblr. Oneshot. 58.

After a near suicide Zero is now bonded to Kaname. With no memory of who he used to be, Zero is now an emotionless doll who's only purpose in life is to serve Kaname. Unfortunately, the pure-blood wants nothing to do with him and with a wedding, annoying elders and a secret society out to kill all vampires he really doesn't need the extra baggage. What's a pureblood to do? KaZe, MA

[Pre-journey, Gojyo/Hakkai] The armageddon in Shangri-La starts with a bang: Hakkai makes a mess and Gojyo loses at cards. The Minus Wave is coming, and why does it smell like dead youkai here?

Sometimes you have to stop seeing to start perceiving. Hakkai/Gojyo. Explicit M/M. One-shot. COMPLETE.

They all feared Russia and the harm he could do. How could they have known that it was his quiet little sister who was the one to be feared? Dark themes. OC Siberia.

Hakkai's world is dark without his "sun," Kanan. (Rated M for later chapters)

Kinkmeme deanon. Japan didn't know how his actions would affect his brothers. Dragon shows him. Warnings for dark content including discussion of rape and severe injuries, child abuse, drug use, mental illness, and references to real historical atrocities.

Non yaoi. This story takes place after the "Even a Worm" manga arc. What would you do if your lost memories found you? T for language and violence. Please review.

Denmark gets an awesome idea for a cool vacation and gets Prussia into it as well. It turns out, however, to be a completely different kind of vacation they end up with. Rated M for death and (hopefully) good details of body parts in a not so good condition.

Muichimotsu at its finest. Sanzo has a hard time acknowledging hidden urges. Yaoi. Various pairings.

Sanzo had found the Sutra's; and Gojyo talks to him.

After Hakkai and Gojyo are poisoned and Gojyo is left crippled hard choices are made Warning Character Death.

Goyjo grieves.

Nordic fanfic Mainly dark!Denmark, Norway and chibi!Iceland . When Sweden and Finland escapes from Denmark's rule and faced their own problems, what was happening back at Denmark's house was much worse. Warning and rating for Dark themes, implied r@pe.

The brain is as much a vital region as the heart; too bad America couldn't deal with the memories. So he forgot, stayed the hero but it couldn't last forever. Regrets are there for a reason and America, it's time to remember yours. AmericaxWorld, AmeriCan, RuPru. InsaneAmerica. GerIta.

A series of 4 one-shots, concerning Prussia and Germany's Fight against Russia on the Eastern Front of WW2, Stalingrad to Berlin. Violent and realistic to some degree. Rated M to be safe.

In which Prussia insists he won't ever get drunk before the other two members of the Bad Touch Trio. And then France discovers that the Prussian hasn't touched wine, at all, ever. Is it possible? Could Prussia's weak point be the wine he hates so much? And what do you do with a drunk Prussia anyway? Bad Touch Trio - France/Prussia/Spain

Based on/set after the long awaited conclusion of fanmade game HetaOni. The Nations are out of the mansion, but their memories remain. Dark!Fic. GerIta, USUK, SpaMano.

Zero is a cast out vampire hunter who is forced into slavery. Kain saves him from a life of pain and torture to bring him into a world of pleasure. Can Zero survive it?

The Cold War is known these days as the first war fought without bloodshed. It's a lie. There is a reason they say Pride is a deadly sin. Contains rape, suicide attempt, loss of faith and Russia. Fair warning.

Ludwig had always thought of his brother as hollow... Until his mask slipped. AustriaxPrussia YAOI-now with tame-ish smut.

Three bullets. Two guns. One dead man, and one realization - "Nothing," Italy says coldly, with tears on his cheeks. "There is NOTHING I won't do to save Germany."

How Mathew Williams lost his voice and became invisible. This is an extremely dark Holocaust fic. This is apart of the Realms universe.

With his limiter off, Goku starts to remember. Remember his time with Konzen, Tenpou, and Kenren, back in heaven. Remember every single second of the five hundred years after that. This may not make him any more sane.

Russia and America's relationship changes from the Cold War tension to something more. Based off of Anberlin's CD 'Dark Is A Way, Light Is A Place.' Rated for language and eventual lemon. RusAme. R&R please?

Mathew Williams is a troubled child, attempting suicide only to be saved by a thick coated feline set on getting in his way.A silver haired man with eyes of fire follows in due course.Will Mathew do what he couldn't for his brother?Smutt & violence.Enjoy.

As a child, Russia learned life was cruel and no one was truly good. As the world becomes bigger, he must learn to live with other nations. But only one of them will every truly understand him; only one is always there. PLEASE REVIEW! I LOVE REVIEWS!

Because he had lost Prussia and Hungary when the wall fell, Russia goes after someone who is dear to them both as pay back. abuse, Noncon/rape, Yaoi, blood, dark, angst,

Insanity and loneliness go hand in hand. This is obvious in a post-apocalyptic world where even the starlight have betrayed the skies and men have turned back to beasts. In the end, is living worth more than sanity? Critique is appreciated, as always!

Although Romano never thought of this, now he has. It's too late, though; Prussia has changed from his usual egotistical and goofy self, into his younger possibly even more annoying child self! Now, it's up to Romano to change him back, somehow...

In the wake of a long period of political and military rivalry, two nations who previously couldn't stand each other now have to have sex to seal a treaty. Chapter1:France/England, Chapter2:Russia/America

Germancest, no other pairings, nor are they important at all. Germany-centric. I suck at summaries. Though I put it as Angst, this fic contains humour too. And smut. Very lemonirific. Gay county-incest, sex and musings on Nazis. You've been warned.

Nothing new tried to change the names THIS IS SANZO/GOJYO I put it under Sanzo/Hakkai and devestated a lot of readers. Sorry

Canada is tired of everyone forgetting about him. So he does something about it. Fail Summary please just read! rated M for subject and Lang.

"All great countries are destroyed. Why not yours? How much longer do you think your country will last? Forever?" Each nation remembers falling. Now they reflect on their past and watch for America's turn. 10.A hero's perpetual dream that refuses to wake

Gojyo needs to take the edge off, Hakkai likes to play with sharp things. Gojyo/Hakkai

Ivan is used to a life on the bottom. What happens when he meets someone from the top trying to get into his world?

Arthur walked out of the meeting for a few minutes, but in how short of a time can an assassination take place? Because of his absence Alfred is in a quickly spent coma & the President & Prime Minister are dead, but who committed these murders? Blood

After decades of fighting, America and Russia have agreed that the fighting needs to end. Warnings: AU Cold War, insanity, character death, blood.

His eyes shone in comparison to the small, dark room. They were beautiful; they always had been, but now their crystal sharpness which glimmered once with life and passion, was obscured by a distant haze. -RussiaXAmerica FF

Dark fic. Rated M for safety. Pirate!England and Pirate!Spain. After the defeat of his Armada, Antonio is left to the cruel, uncaring hands of Arthur.

Cherry had been gone for awhile. This was normal for him, he's disappeared for months on end before. But this time was different. Something was wrong. Johnny/Cherry, hints of Barry/Cherry

Ivan Braginski has lost his mind thanks to the want he holds for Alfred F. Jones. Thanks to that insanity, pain is spread wildly.

There is a voice in America's head telling him to take over the planet. America wants nothing of it. But what happens when a certain vodka-drinking country decides to strike an alliance with him?

What started out as a simple question for Italy Veneziano quickly turned into too much information. Human names used.

AU where the world has been changed due to nuclear warfare. Alfred ponders on his own decisions and insanity, seeking warmth, redemption, and answers from a ghost of his past. RusAme; rated for character death, mentioned violence, and mental instability.

After discovering what the world really thinks of him, America makes a desperate wish. That becomes a nightmare. Trapped in a parallel world that hates him, he struggles to maintain his sanity. And the nations who need him are forced to watch him fall.

He was ambitious. He was proud. And he was happy. Alfred F. Jones flew alongside the greatest aces in the world, escaping from the greatest perils of war victorious. Until he was shot down in Axis territory. World War II AU. AmeGer, EngCan.

After World War II, America can't get Russia out of his head. Russia is haunting him, watching him, and America just can't take it anymore.

Gilbert, the former personafaction of Prussia now turned East Germany, has been sent to live with Russia as punishment for war crimes from WWII. He now has to guard his heart and mind from Russia's manipulation while learning to survive in his new home.

Just what is the fate of a nation that no longer exists? Warning: this fic may contain considerable amounts of historical inaccuries from 1192 to present day. Also includes something of RussiaPrussia and GermanyPrussia pairings

Russia was not always the tall, insane country who stands before you. Before the Soviet Union and the Mongel Invasion, Russia was a young child who was kind, sweet and enjoyed happily playing with his sisters. What happened? Rated for violence and swears

England accidentally sends Germany to a parallel world. A world ruled by Russia with a iron fist. GerIta and Russia x Italy brothers.

Gojyo makes his own choices, usually they aren't the best ones. I need to say I deeply appreciate the wonderful beta of SocialDegenerate without her support this would have died my final edit my errors and of course these boys belong solely to Mineku.

Naruto was left for dead, but he lives and a Hidden Village takes him in as one of their own… all they want in return is Kyuubi. With different friends, new allies and enemies how will Naruto fare in this world of demons? AU Naru/Sai OC/OC

The storm has passed. Rated for mild gore and darker themes.

AU Cold War setting, America and Russia face off for the last time. Warning: violence, blood, character death, all that good stuff.

Missing scenes from the end of Saiyuki Reload. Sanzo has to relearn his path.

Sweden has always had big hands. Sweden/Denmark, consensual, non-permanent homicide.

- "The voice sends shivers down Gaara's spine - it is still Naruto's voice yet there is something, a cruelty, a nuance evoking absolute darkness, that normally would never cloud the blond's sunny personality..." - *LEMON; warnings: blood, violence*

Something bad happens to Sanzo while he's caught off guard. But this time his friends couldn't save him. Hopefully the group can get though this together, or will they fall apart at the seams...? Yaoi. Read the warnings!

Gojyo gets really mad. Then he gets shot. Then he gets even. Sanzo/Gojyo; Gojyo/Sanzo Saiyuki and all associated characters were created by Minekura Kazuya. I make no money from this use.

Gojyo and Goku make good use of a bed and a jacuzzi. Gojyo/Goku; Yaoi; written for a Valentine Gift fic exchange. Saiyuki and all associated characters were created by Minekura Kazuya. I make no money from this use.

Written for LJ gift fic exchange. M/M Cross dressing; hurt/comfort/jealousy. Gojyo/Male OC; Gojyo/Hakkai. Disclaimer:Saiyuki and all associated characters wer

Just a one shot featuring a somewhat insane Denmark and a pissed of Sweden. I'm still going strong with my not so subliminal message, read Eyeshield 21

Naruto's entire life is devoted to the dream of being Hokage, but when his life is nearly ended and his mask begins to breakdown, who will be there to help him? Rated M for violence and adult themes, eventual NaruKiba

He cocked the gun, pressing the barrel gently to her forehead. Yuuki stared back at him, her eyes miserable and knowing, as if she could hear his thoughts. Zero pulled the trigger. ZeroXYuuki

He made her forget the blood and she made him feel wanted, and it was symbiotic in their give and take, like co-dependence and nature and damned biology.

I don't know why,but I decided to write from Gaaras mothers P.O.V.This story is all angst,and of course will NOT have a fluffy ending.It's rated M just to be safe rather then sorry.Enjoy.

It's all or nothing for the boys when one of them gets taken down in the fray. Challenges, lost sanity, and a few misplaced accessories will push one of them into making a difficult admission.

Lucille gets a fever, and somehow manages to improve his frienship with the rest of the gang. Rated T. Some killing and bad language involved. Lucille x Eles, Lucille x Kohaku, Lucille x Gwindel

Side-fic to The Dawn. From the Dawn-verse '...Sai pulled the thin boy closer, trying to shield him from demons he could not see, voices he could not hear, pain he could not prevent.' SaiSasu, angst, slight shonen-ai noyaoiyet , mentions of rape,gore.fluff

Who was Danzou to decide who should live or die?...Who was Danzou to wish this blond boy’s life ended...the sparkle in his eyes killed...? Who the hell was Danzou to ask Sai to be the instrument of destruction' SaiSasu, yaoi, angst. Side 4 Dawnverse

Sai recognizes emotions, though he doesn't feel them. Sakura has a strange request. Perhaps Sai can learn to feel if he acts through someone else.

“Hello Kouryuu.” He gave a little wave and smiled the benevolent smile normally worn by gods. “How are things?”.

Received 3rd place in the Summer 2009 Naruyaoi fest competition. “The face of a lover is an unknown, precisely because it is invested with so much of oneself. It is a mystery, containing, like all mysteries, the possibility of torment.” - James Baldwin

Kankuro wants to be Daddy's boy but it comes with a price. Later on Daddy dies but the illegal perversion does not and he can't forget. And then there's Gaara, innocent and confused, just like Kankuro himself was years ago, fueling the desires... SANDCEST

He didn't want to admit that he was the one that did this to her when in fact she did this to herself. GaaSaku

I love you," They whispered in unison; the thoughts that had been racing in their minds of eachother alleviated the rest of the pain now coarsing through their bodies.. Gaara/Sakura ONESHOT! Confusing to summarize, so just read!

When you have the one person you want in your power, what do you do? Darkfic

Why? Why did he die, trying to protect her? Why couldn't she save him? So many unanswered questions.. It was all her fault. She couldn't save him. She was wracked with guilt.. So she decided to join him. GaaraxSakura one-shot. Rated M for sensitive topic

Kiba has a heart to heart with Sai, and learns there's much more to the artist than he first thought. Sadness, loneliness, and confusion plague the pale beauty, and Sai doesn't even understand why... Warnings: Language and graphic sex between two males.

He meets him, really meets him, in the bathroom of the grimiest club in the greater Tokyo area. Two years of memories versus thousands, and a proposition. Katou/Kira, implied Kira/Alexiel.

Sasuke comes to terms with puberty and all the slightly annoying things that come with it. Mature content, so consider yourself warned.

My mind tells me to hold her, to acknowledge her and force her to see and understand." A dark!fic about the relationship between Gaara and Temari after Shukaku's extraction. HidaTema lemon. NOT SAND-CEST! See inside for more details.

Sakura didn't know what she was thinking when she showed up on his doorstep. SaiSaku.

They were brought together unwillingly by the grips of bloodlust, but a hidden enemy from Kaname's past forces Zero to protect the one vampire that sometimes made his life a living hell. KanamexZero

Despite himself, Zero is losing himself to darker and darker dreams each time he sates his need with Kaname's blood. When dream and reality merge dangerously, Kaname pays the price. Oneshot.

Gaara/Kankuro. "Just be quiet and watch."

SanzoHakkai The four have just battled a man back from the dead. Hakkai's past has been thrown out in the open, and he had to pretend to almost kill Sanzo with his bare hands. Sanzo doesn't regret, he just wants to hold Hakkai. Now it's starting to rain.

A songfic with Sakura and Gaara, but mainly Sakura's way of dealing how emotionless Gaara is. Song: The Garden by Mirah. Has little WARNINGS. Written for nemadragon31, hope you like it .

Sometimes, the scars of abuse can never fade, no matter what the person may have wanted. Gaara-centric, with nonconsensual, incestuous Gaara/Kankurou. Yaoi smut.

Hm, this is just a little oneshot to work out my anger. If you've ever wondered what goes on in Gaara's sexy little head, now you know. Rated for language. It's super dark, my friends. I'm talking, blood, scars, thoughts of killing. Yeah.

Gaara needs to claim Kankuro.... and Fast LEMON. M RATED. INCEST.

Between Gaara getting captured and him dying, what happens? MalexMale pairing GaaraxDeidara

Gaara had everything he wanted. Until it was taken away from him. An unfair fight lead to disaster. GaaraXKagome. Angst, Char-death, Tragic.

Every so often, and driven by the influence of the demon fox, Naruto attacks Suna. Gaara decides that the only way to fix the problem is to let him in. NaruGaara. Yaoi. Dark and AU-ish.

He broke her every time. Gaara/Sakura. Angsty and maybe a little hot...hopefully. Short drabble-ish song inspired thing.

Naruto's parents don't so much fall in love as accidentally trip over it. Manga spoilers.

Sand and heat together make glass Naruto. Will you be my glassmaker?" Gaara/Naruto

Sakura, Sai and Akatsuki centric crack fic. Akatsuki are getting just a bit sick of finding pink haired medic nins chained up in their dungeons, not that anyone ever asks their opinion. And things only get weirder when Sai shows up to the rescue.

Sakura is still in love with the dead. And Sai? Sai doesn't even know what love is. Darkish fic about Sakura, Sai, and the ties that bind them.

Naruto could feel his eyes on him. In fact, Naruto could always feel his eyes on him, even when he could’ve sworn the bastard was sleeping. Slash: SaiNaru, allusions made to SasuNaru.

When Gaara dreams of something. Dreams of Horror, blood, and misery. Who has to pay for it? Not a character bashing story, not a typical fic. very discriptive. hints at Shikamaru and Temari. tragedy

Being alone has made Gaara cold and harden inside again. He needs clousure how will a little trip to the hero's stone help him? Can be more if you ask.

In which Sasuke goes overboard.

GaaNaru. SasuNaru. Gaara, sometimes, is almost as good as the real thing. And sometimes, Naruto is okay with that.

On a fullmoon's night, a boy with hair as red as the blood of his victims seeks revenge...

30 drabbles on illicit relationships. In the darkness, Temari is not a seductress, Kankuro is not a puppet made by his his father's ghost, and Gaara is not the desert's child. Sandcest

Yataa! ahem Gaara's having a steamy dream of a girl in the rain, he's dreamt it so many times it's become annoying. But when a rain drop crashes on his shoulder an evil smile appears on his face. The Kazekage's rain... jejejejeje

Rated to be safe. Gaara, all alone. Well he has Shukaku, his other personality, to keep him sane. Well actually he does the exact opposite for the poor boy. Murder, swearing, typical Gaara phycoticness AU

Kankuro sometimes wonders if he has a death wish. Sleeping with Gaara tends to do that to people.

When tragedy strikes, the guys must find a way to break free. Darkness, severe angst, death, hurtcomfort, some forms of masochism, and lots of pain.

His first memory of her was of the fragile scent of lilies, floating over the fresh scent of blood. GaaHina, Angst.

Sai and art lessons.

How cruel, that the kanji on his head say’s ‘Love’, for he does not know how. Maybe he dug it in his forehead so he would not forget what it was, being it has left him. Oneshot GaaraxNaruto

KankyGaa. Sandcest. Yaoi. Don't like? don't read . Songfic. Kankuro is using Gaara like a puppet.

Yashamaru, in the end, didn't really know what his sister wanted.

Only live your life as it is, not bound to anything. [one shot]

ARC 2 spoilers. After Akatsuki, Gaara is suffering. He's unsure he can act as Kazekage anymore, when Naruto has a sudden idea that helps Gaara get perspective on things once more.

rated for violence, swearing and mentions of lewd acts and rape... Shukaku's been pressuring Gaara for a while, and it's time to let off some steam while on a mission....

Oneshot taking place between DVDs 10 and 11, when events fray even the steeliest of nerves. Sanzo's issues run smack dab into Hakkai's, and everyone suffers for it. Angst, selfinflicted injury, and no yaoi.

Rated for sand cest, mentions of child molestation and continual rape, also general psychoticness. A little insight on what the Kazekage's family dynamic is like. It's not a good family dynamic

It’s not my fault you refuse to kiss me and I’ll have to force you to, it’s no my fault I almost choked you, it’s never my fault. It’s your fault, that’s the golden rule always your fault. OrochimaruGaara

Seeking solace in the arms of an enemy whenever he's around, Naruto finds it difficult to deal when his lover is away. [yaoi.self!love.SasuNaru.GaaNaru]

Gaara and Kankurou have an enlightening conversation. Yaoi, lime, sandcest.

What happens on one rainy night. ( Lots o' yaoi in this, boys and girls... SanzouxHakkai; GojyoxHakkai in later chapters. )