I am a relatively boring person. I don't do a whole lot so I figured I would pick up writing a little bit. I love to read fanfictions myself so I figured I would give it a try.The part of writing I enjoy most is how you look into yourself and it lets you get to view the world from a different perspective. I enjoy personality it fascinates me so I like to give characters a lot of it. I also enjoy to leave the reader hanging and to keep a lot of things hidden. Though I wouldn't exactly call it mystery writing it makes writing easier for sure. I like to put parts of my life into my stories roughly base the characters off myself or friends. This makes it easier to make the characters multidimensional they seem to come to life more. I have grown up with an easy life in the sense that I have not had to work for everything for that I am grateful however I have had to work for most of the things I have.

Though in many other scenes though I have had a very hard life I am extraordinarily self-critical and have little to no self esteem. This I don't see as a bad thing I am very much a cynical and realist person. I don't like to butter things up in real life I see failure as a failure there is no margin. I have had a very hard internal battle to get as far as I am right now. I had to hide large portions of myself from my family and friends and I don't want people to pat me on the back and say, 'oh, you'll be okay." I have my own demons and I will face myself. I appreciated those of you who know what I have gone through. I went through a time where I was lets say 'self medicating' depression. I went so far with my 'self medcation' that I pulled the trigger.

Obviously I am still alive the reason for this is because I was so 'self medicated' that I forgot to load it. I still have not shared that with a lot of people in my life purely and simply because I don't want them to feel sorry for me. So what better way to avoid it then post it to god knows who via the internet right? One of the biggest things I regret about it is that my 'special note' was so poorly written so since then I guess I've felt obligated to start writing better. I am weird like that. So I have now come to you my peers to see what you think of this lowly souls writing.