I can't do it. I can't put on a smile, walk over there and say it. Happy Father's Day? No. No! Am I just supposed to pretend the last 10 years didn't happen? Am I expected to make the day happy for him? Why? When he's done nothing for me. Where was he on my birthdays? Where was he when I graduated high school? Where was he when I was being bullied? Why am I outside his door?