I hold my breath as this life starts to take its toll
I hide behind a smile as this perfect plan unfolds
But oh, God, I feel I've been lied to
Lost all faith in the things I have achieved
And I

I've woken now to find myself
In the shadows of all I have created
I'm longing to be lost in you
(away from this place I have made)
Won't you take me away from me

Crawling through this world as disease flows through my veins
I look into myself, but my own heart has been changed
I can't go on like this
I loathe all I've become

I've woken now to find myself
In the shadows of all I have created
I'm longing to be lost in you
(away from this place I have made)
Won't you take me away from me

Lost in a dying world I reach for something more
I have grown so weary of this lie I live
I've woken now to find myself
In the shadows of all I have created
I'm longing to be lost in you

I have woken now to find myself
I'm lost in shadows on my own
I'm longing to be lost in you

Away from me.

Let me explain. I lost my soul so many years ago. I never got a chance to redeem myself. So I shut myself off the world. The world I made for myself was so painful that I could hardly stand up to it. So I found my lover. He was the one who listened to me when I was hurting. I wanted to run from what I'd made. I lay my trust in him. I found myself lost in him, hurting sometimes. I wanted so badly to hide in him and run away. I would never forgive myself for the past, but he made me feel better. I still love him, my Kurama. He hides my agony in his love.

Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
Maybe someday you'll look up,
And, barely conscious, you'll say to no one:
"Isn't something missing?"

You won't cry for my absence, I know -
You forgot me long ago.
Am I that unimportant...?
Am I so insignificant...?
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?

Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?

Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
I know what you do to yourself,
I breathe deep and cry out,
"Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?"

Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?

And if I bleed, I'll bleed,
Knowing you don't care.
And if I sleep just to dream of you
I'll wake without you there,
Isn't something missing?
Isn't something...

Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?

Well...I ran away from my home when I was ten. No one really missed me, as I left with my brother. I know that Master didn't miss me. Who is Master? He is my father. I'd run from home after failing yet again. I called him Master because I wasn't born, I was created. Kurama knows this, and yet he still loves me. Master was always fond of calling me his failed experiment. So I was the sacrifice. A sacrifice of blood and pain, of depression and loneliness...

I've noticed most profiles have information on the authors in them. So I've decided to add something about me. I have long pale silver hair, dark blue (Ryuu & Kurama: Dark sapphire) eyes. Don't mind the random comments from my lover and my brother. I'm depressed and used to be on meds for it. That shit was horrible. Let's see...I tried to commit suicide five times, two of which were stopped by my lover. I hope you've enjoyed my profile, and please enjoy my stories. Even if they're not perfect.