The First Time with You

I don’t know how we met
but when I did I was oh so obsessed
the first glance
the first second
the first the very first breath with you
the first time I got my confidence
the first time I felt why life was so sweet
the first time I actually felt I had found a reason too live
the first time I got to feel alive
the first tears that fell because of you
the first time I was hurt till the point of killing myself wasn’t enough to end this pain
the first time I felt that I needed someone to comfort me
the first time I wanted someone to be by my side forever
the first person I wanted to give my life over and over too
I loved you and now I know what it feels like to live
now I know why people look forward to in life even when they get fired from a job and cant get any other
why people still keep on living even if they lose everything and not even their own life is theirs
so now I see in this dark and scary world why people insist on staying
I don’t know why someone like me who’s never been greedy for anything on this world not even my own life wants to keep on living here
although I don’t know why

I think
its because I want to live to love you
I want to give my all for you
I want to keep you by my side and never let go
I want to make this time we have together to stay
I want to make this world freeze like this and hog you all to myself
I want to show you how much I love you even in my grave I’ll show my affection to you
I want to say how much I love
I want to hold your hand till I lose all my power in my hand
I want to keep this happiness with you
I want to keep on loving you
because in this world your the only one for me
and because of you I got greedy for once in my life and I cant stop because your love is my medicine
is my heart
is my drug that I cant stop
the only reason why I can go living in this earth even though people give me a rough time is because I got you and your enough for me
so even though this is all a dream
or even a thought I won’t ever forget the times we had together

I need you more then anything and you’ll never know how much but you’ll see as I give my life to you—so don’t leave me…ever