"Promise you'll marry me." "I promise." Castiel is studying to become a doctor, and, let's face it, college is tough when your boyfriend runs off to face the army. Even though he expected it, he wasn't prepared. He never was. / Destiel Army!AU / Warning: Smut, Gore, Violence, Depression, Alcoholism, Drug Use.

A recollection of everything that has happened to him in Dean's own words, thoughts, feelings. A journal belonging to Dean Winchester. /Rated T. Might be rated M later. God, Sammy! I don't need a stupid journal!