"Books write my life story, while music fills the spaces between the lines." - AwwPleaseDontJudgeMe (Wattpad)

Hello. I am Kya's Computer. My name is based off one of my favourite Death Note fan fictions called "Mello's Love Story" by FireIce and Poison. I highly recommend you go and read it, you won't regret it.

My writing style seems depressing -- trust me I know -- but the reason it is so, is because I find happiness in giving people a better future; taking them out of their misery and writing a better ending to their life story. I guess this is a result of me wishing I could do that for myself -- ensure a happier ending to my own life story.

If you like my writing or my stories, I suggest you check out my profile on Wattpad:

To those people who actually read this and who still don't find me repulsive or weird, thank you; you're one in a million.

Signing off,
Kya's Computer

Quotes:

"If I was to die tonight, would it tear you apart? Would you yell it from the rooftops down? Until it's over, and you're older." - Seether, "Tonight"

"No one even cares about me anymore. They don't ask me anything about my life, they don't ask how I'm doing, they just go on about their perfect lives. I'm losing myself and no one is even noticing." Unknown

"You don't have to punish me, I will punish myself."- AwwPleaseDontJudgeMe

"Stop crying idiot, nobody cares!"- My family

"Say you're sorry!"
"I'm sorry I exist." - My school life

"Of course I was hurt! I was the whole time! I just didn't say anything!"
"Why?"
"Because it would change everything -- I would bother you even more..."- AwwPleaseDontJudgeMe

"There is, and always will be, a soft spot in my heart for you -- even when you've done wrong, even when you've let me down, even when you couldn't care less." - The words I wish I could say to my father

"As I write in this diary, I know it will never be read. Simply because it's about me. And nobody wants to know about my life..." - My journal

"I looked at the bottles of pills and whispered, "To Wonderland" before swallowing the contents and slowing lying back down on my bed, just waiting for the effects to begin." - Tumblr

"It's like my blades are whispering to me. Each night, they tempt me with such sweet promises:
"Don't be frightened, come with me, I'll numb your pain and misery.
You've seen me before I'm back again now, you've hidden me for so long somehow.
I'm quite certain it'll spread, more and more you have bled.
I'm more than an addiction, it's plain to see, you're never going to get through your recovery."
I hear them every night, and every night I listen to them and give in to their promises." - My journal

"Just a cut, just a scratch.
"What's that mark?" "It was just the cat."
Just an excuse, just another lie.
"What's with all the bracelets?" "Just fashion, why?"
Just a tear, just a scream.
"Why are you crying?" "Just a bad dream."
But it's not just a cut, or a tear or a lie.
It's always "just one more", until I die..." - Unknown

"And, as she pulls up her sleeves,
Removes the bracelets,
Reveals her skin,
The jagged, ugly scars,
The scars that represent a million tears,
She can't say anything,
Nothing at all,
Except for two words,
"I'm sorry",
And she's not sure who to,
Herself, her friends, her poor bleeding skin,
But she's falling apart,
And therefore,
She feels the need to apologise..." - Unknown

"I think I hit the point in life where,
I'm just done.
I cried, I fought, I tried.
But everything is crashing down.
My demons are screaming louder, trying to eat away the rest of me.
And this time, I'm not going to fight back." - Unknown