I love the thoughts of Love

I was walking their the halls as these girls come up to me and throw eggs in my face I fall crying I look up and see cleats on the floor and a hand comes down and says you needs help and I Fra. the hand as it pulls me up and I look at the face of the Most popular guy in school those blue eyes and dark black hair and that perfectly chiseled chin with those perfectly sights prosilin teeth and smile I feel tingles coming down my back he says you need to stick up for yourself and I say that won't do any good and then he say I heard you are pretty smart and I say Kindove I guess then he says just between us I am failing science can you tutor me and I think for an second and say sure on one confusion try not to fall for me and be at my house everynighte 6 sharp and he nods and says by later that day I hear an knock on the door and to my surprise he was there I did not think he would show I tell him to come in and to go to my room and wait I have to do something I come up and he is sitting there I say ok lets get started I say Dean what do you need help with and he says Physics and I say ok not to hard and he says you don't understand the Physics of Love and I say ok I don't know.Mitch about that I stoped loving after my mom passed away three years ago and he says oh well my mom passed away to from head trauma my dad said that it was from her falling of the balcony but I have other theories I say my mom died in an car crash things just Havent been the samesame He says I know that feeling I said we should probably search it up on an phone or something and he says you know I think I know what Love is know you and I pause my face goes blank and I say why me he says I've liked you for an long time I say I told you not to fall in Love with me and he says I ha e been for and long time and I say you need to go and he says sorry and I stop him and say you need to just go he goes out and leaves in his red mustang I say to myself I know I can't be with anyone I know that because If I do It is not fair to ha e their heart broken. I go to school the next day and He passes me in the hallway and says hey what happens last night's and I say nothing except it is not fair for you and he says it is ok to tell my you can trust me and I just walk off in an told way ignoring him and I go home about 8 he calls hey lets meet at the beach and I say I don't know and he pleads saying Please I just want to talk to you and I say ok I get here and he is there in an nice suite with a table and chairs and cake I say I didn't know we were surprise to dress up and he says its ok I didn't tell you to be cause you are perfect the way you areare perfect and I give an award smile and bite my finger nail and he Sydney says is there anything you need to tell my and I replay no I just don't want you to have an broken heart at this point it was hard to say no because I did want him and for him to know everything I say I have to go and run to my car and leave I start crying because My Brainsays no but my heart says yes but That is to selfish so the next day of schools he passes me in the hall without saying anything It was an slow day. because I knew I mesed up but I can be selfish the next day I did not see him at schools or the next till that night's I called him so he would end hate me forever and tell him to meat me at hard rock Caffe so that night's I stick on the best cloths I had and when I walk out the door my dad tells me to change because he is relay protective and tells me that I can hurt anyone and I say I know you have told me this thousands of times so I leave in the beat up old pic up truck be cause my dad is a Pastor so he can't afford anything els so I walk in to the Caffe and wait a long time till I was about to leave when he walks their the door and he sits down and says he is sorry for being late and that he was just nervous dang he looked hot but I can't lead my mind to think that we eat and then he tells me that he has something to show me so I go in his car and he takes me in the middle of this forest and he sits down and tells me to sit down beside him I hesitate because I have some good cloths on but who cares and he says he understands that I don't want to be with him but he wanted to me to be able to tell him that I don't feel for him and I did not do it I had tears running down my face but then the gasps run out of my lungs he kisses me his lips are velvet then I pull away and say I guess we can be together but when it comes time. you figure out my secret you can't be mad at me because you made this decision . a few weeks went by have been the best time of my life until we went on an date and in the middle of when I was going to kiss him good by after the date I just colaps and all I could hear was the ambulance and Dean explaining what had happened I could hear the sadness in his voice when he is explaining it to them and that is all I could remember as I fade away and fall back asleep a few weeks pass Dean sleeping by my bed side I figured they probably told him my secret because I could feel he was mode worry now I come out of the sleep that made me lonely and mad name think and I see hi. holding my hand I would feel so bad to wake him but I have to He wakes surely and gives me an kiss on my forehead and I say wait do you know he nods and I say are you mad and he says no but sad that we can't be together forever and I say I wish we could and he says now I know why you did not want to date me You were thinking of me and I feel tears Gooding my eyes and I see them going down his cheek as his voice crack he says he loves you and I say I love you more and I say no time to talk I don't think I'm going to make it and he says Its ok I will be with you forever and I say For her I will Love you and say hey don't wait for me go Marry some on and have kids a life mire than I COULD GIVE YOU AND HE SAYS NO I WANT YOU AND ONLY YOU AND I SAY I LOVE YOU TO MUCH TO SEE YOU SUFFER AND HE SAYS I WONT SUFFER WITH THE TEER ON HIS CHEEKS HIS VOICE CRACKS HEY SAYS FOREVER AND I REPLAY BACK FOREVE RAND I START TO DRIFT OFF WITH HIM SAYING NO STAY AWAKE PLASE DONT LEAVE I LOVE YOU AS HE IS WEEPING I SAY "ILOVE" I did not finish the sentence I was gone and the last thing I heard was "I LOVE YOU TO BABY". I wish I did not Have Lucimia so I could be with him forever but I think I would be different without it and he wouldn't want me So I am just eternally greatfull for the time we had together my Love. "