I'm Alayna, and i am still, in a way, looking for myself. you will never understand me, but you can still try.

...x...i love to write. im not shy at all, im just quiet, and im always thinking about things...x... im not popular. at all. my friends are dorks, and together, we get made fun of alot, but my friends have it worse than i do...x...sometimes, i hate myself, because i want to be the person with a million friends. i want to be the person, that can sit at lunch with her friends, without having people come and make fun of them. i want to be the person, that can be friends with girls, without being called a dyke or a lesbian. and most of all, i want to be a person that matters...x...i love rain, and walking alone...x...i can't function without music. i cried when i lost my ipod. my three favorite bands are: My Chemical Romance, The Used, & Metro Station...x...i only have a few close friends, because im not good at making friends, let alone keeping them...x...i hate when people don't tell me whats wrong, even when i know they need someone to talk to...x...i have to admit, i lie alot. the reason i lie so much, is simply because my life isn't worth talking about...x...i hate being wrong, and i will always argue my point, even if i know im wrong...x... i hate being yelled at, it makes me feel guilty...x...i hate being left out of conversations it makes me feel like i don't matter...x...i don't smoke, drink, or do drugs, and i am proud of it...x...i would never, ever, cut myself...x...i hate spiders...x...i hate that there aren't any happily ever afters for people like me...x...suicide hasn't and will never cross my mind...x...i am extremley afraid of dying...x...i am scared about global warming, and i hate tornadoes...x...i miss my brother alot, hes away at college...x...i am ashamed to admit, no one has ever told me they love me, other than family...x...i've never had a boyfriend, and i hate that...x...i hate that i laugh when i see a cute guy, because i know ill never have a shot with him...x...i hate that i can't love who i am...x...x...x...x...x...x...

I am a broken person, and i've lost all the pieces.