I love reading fanfiction and started to write my first story last night. Many people may find the content and subjects of my stories to be disturbing and awful at times, but I figured this is a good way for me to have an emotional outlet. I was sexually abused and then eventually it progressed to rape by my own father when I was just a toddler. My mother New and she didn't care. So essentially I grew up without a real mom or dad and without having that comfort, love, tenderness, protection,and reassurance that I should have had. My first story is a Criminal Minds fanfiction about Joy Struthers (Rossi), David Rossi's is Daughter, and how she was raped and her father and JJ had found her in an alley right after she was sexually assaulted. And it goes through how Rossi is there for Joy to comfort, love, and protect her and do everything within his power to help her through her ordeal. For example, like being there for her during her embarrassing, traumatic and invasive medical exam. I don't turn this into a perverted stories where they like seeing their daughters naked on an exam table. But he is there at the head of the table looking into her eyes while trying to keep her present and in the moment and not flash back to her being attacked as he holds her hand and comforts her through the exams. I've done two chapters and I'll continue to write about how he is going to help you through all of this whether it be in just listening to her as she needs to let out how she's feeling or talk about what happened while her father doesn't judge her and is a safe person for her to express all of this to. Or if she has a panic attack or nightmares, he will be there for her and be protective of her in the most loving and paternal way he possibly can. Maybe I think I write and like to read stories like this because it can be a bit cathartic and therapeutic for me because this is how I wish that someone would have been there for me when I was a child and had gone through being molested and raped. I had no one. I never even spoke of the abuse until many years later. So I project what I wish someone would have been for me on to characters of the stories, books, and TV shows that I love. It's how I wish that my mother, a grandparent, my favorite teacher, my favorite Coach, or even my own father (had he NOT been the one to a use/rape me) should have been there for me but wasn't. So I hope that explains the nature of my current story and the content in any future stories that I will write because I know many may find them disturbing and strange, but there is a reason for them. Happy Reading and please tell me what you think of my stories in the reviews!