Hello~ I've actually been around since the nineties, with an account dating back to 2002. But you know that feeling you get when you read something you wrote years ago? That feeling of disgust? I was tired of feeling that whenever I logged in.

My penname this time came from a song by Plastic Tree, my favorite group. The song's title is "Suimin Yaku," meaning "Sleeping Pills." It also implies death. This word came from right near the beginning, and means "sleepless." Since I myself am a disinteresting person, instead of information about me, I will give you the translation of the lyrics.

( 2:08AM )
glass window
reflecting film
shortness of breath
sleepless me
cool water
sleeping medicine
...taking me away

( 2:40AM )
reactions become hypersensitive, my heart is like a mucous membrane
it descends - the curtain of night
the shadows fall ———————.

In this dream from which I cannot awake, before long I'm falling
I feel dizzy - I can't see, but still I go with you
To the middle of a field deep with black night grass we go; the two of us.

( 3:10AM )
In this dream from which I cannot awake, before long I'm falling
I feel dizzy - I can't see, but still I go with you
The light of the dimmed moon
The grass murmuring
Like waves carrying me and you
quietly away

To the middle of a field deep with black night grass we go; the two of us.