It kind of figured that after everything Sam had been through lately, the one thing that broke him was driving across the country with Dean's coffin in tow. Coda to 14x12 "Prophet and Loss"

"Dean... I made a really big mistake." For a second, Dean actually thought things were going okay. He was out of Hell, Sam agreed to stop drinking demon blood, they had just wrapped up a successful hunt... for once, everything was okay. And then it wasn't. "I overdosed." Not at all. Suicidal!Sam, Season 4

TRIGGER WARNING! SELF HARM AND SUICIDE Sam gets killed and Dean attempts suicide. Can they save him?

Tag to 13.01. Sam patches up Dean's hand and helps him cope with the loss of Cas in a way that doesn't involve alcohol and despair...Well not ONLY alcohol and despair, that is. Sam's POV.

Gen, post-hell, post-Alastair. Dean has been back a while, but that doesn't mean those years don't catch up with him sometimes. Sam and Cas deal as best they can. Written for a friend who asked for a falling-down-drunk Dean being cared for by protective!Sam, and/or a certain dynamic with Cas. Alcohol, elements of ptsd, wings. *Disclaimer: Supernatural belongs to its creators, obvy.

The boys have been gone for a few days and your getting bad again what will happen when they find out that you self-harm? Read to find out! I am really bad at giving a good synopsis. She may end up with one of the brothers. Always Keep Fighting.

Whilst Sam is in the psychiatric ward with Lucifer, he remembers the times he had been there before. TW/ self harm, attempted suicide, drug abuse.

It's the first time Sam's been sick since escaping the cage and he's not handling it very well.

Sam and Dean are having a hard time coping with Sam's hallucinations of Lucifer. When Dean gets drunk one night, can he make it back to a suicidal Sam in time? Rated T for suicidal thoughts, cutting, swearing, and driving drunk. Not a death fic.

"Are you cutting again?" Sam is worried about his brother when Dean gets back from Hell. Trigger warning for PTSD and self-harm. Rated T for language.

Dean is back from hell, but life just seems to keep getting worse. He can't handle ... well ... anything. And Cas complicates everything by telling Sam just that. TW: self harm, drinking, drugs

What if Sam spent the year in a mental hospital instead of hitting a dog and falling in love with Amelia? Set in the beginning of Season 8, right after Dean gets out of Purgatory. Trigger warning for Suicide attempt.

The wall inside Sam's head is breaking, and so is he. Set in Season 7 in the mental hospital. Trigger Warning for suicidal thoughts and possible self harm.

Sam finds his brother smoking, and in his attempt to stop Dean's nasty habit, he makes one of his own. Brotherly feels. Language and self-harm warning.

On the anniversary of Mary's death, John Winchester numbs the pain with alcohol. Young Sam and Dean escape to Bobby's house. (Dean is 11, Sam is 7) Trigger warning for abuse. Tags: wee!chesters, John Winchester's A parenting, alcohol abuse.

Reader x Supernatural (one Shot i wrote if you want more tell me) You having bad day and Team Free Will is there to help you out (trigger warning for depression self harm and others so be careful)

Based off the song Just Tonight by The Pretty Reckless. Disclaimer: I do not own Supernatural or any of it's characters. I also do not own the song Just Tonight, I simply used it as inspiration. Warnings: Drug addiction, references to suicide, alchohol abuse, references to self harm

Set shortly after Dean gets out of Hell. He is plagued by nightmares and flashbacks, and resorts to self-harm. Trigger Warning for self harm and PTSD and suicidal thoughts. (UPDATE: changed the rating to M for smut in future chapters.)

What happens when Dean can't take it anymore? WARNING: self-harm, read at your own discretion.

Supernatural fic based off Season 1 episode 5. Sam and Dean take on Bloody Mary. Sam is suicidal after losing Jess. Trigger warning for suicidal thoughts and self harm.

Dean has lost everyone has has ever loved. The only person he has in the world is gone for good. Where can he go? Who can he turn to? He is going home. This is a quick one shot. Warning: Self harm warning.

After a particularly straining hunt, drunk Dean reveals a little more about his inner thoughts than sober Dean would. High T, because it's Dean. And he's drunk.

Set after "Born under a bad sign". Jo's been doing surprisingly fine considering that she's been mistreated, mishandled and badly tipped in one night. What she does not need is Dean drunk-knocking on her door at 6:30 in the morning after his "this is my fight"-shit. What does he want - and where is Sam? Complete as a OneShot, maybe there'll be more someday.

"Of all the sucky things about his twelve-step plan not to backslide, not drinking sucks the most." Set mid season 10. Dean gives up alcohol in an effort to control the Mark of Cain.

Pre-series. Young!Drunk!Dean. Dad's face is swirling like a picture of a galaxy and Dean doesn't speak spaceman but somehow the anger translates perfectly. Language and, if I did anything right, laughs.

Sam has finally taken the last steps toward the end of his life. Warnings: self mutilation, self harm, suicide, major character death. I own nothing.

Season 10 at the end. Total angst. "Why couldn't he pull himself out of the fog this time?" Trigger warnings for self-harm. Not really, but sort of, hence the M rating.

Part 1: Dean's a recovering drug addict whose unhealthy approach to fighting his addiction leaves him with scars. Part 2: Since Dean met Castiel he's had more good days than bad, but he can't hide his scars forever. Warning for self-harm.

After coming back from a hunt, Dean discovers Sam's self harm scars despite his efforts to hide them. Warning: Mentions of Scars caused by self harm.

Late Season 7, post "The Borne Again Identity." Sam always knew his past would come back to haunt him but he never thought it would happen like this.

One-shot, set during S8. Dean returns to the bunker to find a very drunk Sam. The following conversation results in some very depressed Winchester boys. Rated T for alcohol

Missing Scene 4.06 Yellow Fever: Dean has a panic attack. Sam accidentally gets him drunk. Set just before the "you're awesome" scene at the police station.

(season 9 - spoilers for Mark of Cain) - Dean's alcoholism catches up with him. He is told he has liver disease and needs to quit drinking. Dean wants to prove to himself that he can quit 'cause if he can't fight this addiction, then how can fight the desire for the blade? Sam tries to help him but finds the alcohol was just masking a different addiction thats changing Dean...

Dean, an alcoholic with a dead end job, is pressured into alcoholics anonymous by his little brother Sam. Dean thinks it's a waste of time but after seeing the AA sponsor, Castiel, Dean starts to think differently.

Sam thought he was doing a pretty good job at hiding it until Dean catches him red handed...literally. Warning: Self harm/may be triggering.

TW: self harm Dean is in Hell, and Sam copes. Or, tries to. Slight AU. Tumblr prompt

Dean can handle cuts, but losing Sam was a wound that couldn't be healed with alcohol. This time Dean needed a band aid. And her name was Jo Harvelle. Co-written by the extraordinary sweetkiwi604.

Based on the prompt "Imagine if Sam and Dean found out about your self-harm scars." Rated T for mild language and mentions of self-harm. One Shot. (Revised!)

Dean's shitty coping mechanisms. Sam's idea of help isn't much better. Warnings: self harm through cutting, and hell-references.

Dean catches Sam cutting. This fic contains self harm, and angst. But with a happy ending.

AU. Dean returns from Purgatory to a very different Sam. Triggers for alcoholism.

Sam has already left for college, and now John dies. Dean is left alone, and turns to suicide. The boys reunite after a close call. (major character death, suicide, self harm)

Sam reluctantly agrees that Dean can go out, provided they don't stay long and Dean lays off the alcohol. Then in she walks. (Expansion of a short piece originally written for LadieDusk's birthday) Very Deancentric.

Sam tries to cope with his hallucinations on his own. He doesn't want Dean to find out, but eventually he does. Warnings for Self Harm.

Warnings/Contains: self-harming, assisted self-harm. Spoilers: Season 4, takes place during/after Episode 09. Summary: In Hell, Dean had been rock while Alastair was water; seeping into every crack and freezing and expanding, freezing and expanding until each crack grew wider and wider, and Dean shattered all over again. Now Alastair has found his favourite pupil topside...

Sammy has a habit, and everything changes when Dean comes home early. Rated for language and self harm. Don't like, don't read. First ever fanfic, so please r&r. Be nice :

As with so many things, Dean has mastered the fine art of being drunk. He takes the term 'functional alcoholic' to an entirely different dimension. Drunk!Dean, Caring!Sam

Sam's only wish was for his brother to see what his drinking was doing to him. Warnings for strong language and spoilers for season 7 up to 7.12. Hurt/limp!Sam, angsty/alcoholic!Dean.

"You die before me, and I'll kill you." 7.10 Spoilers. Warnings: attempted suicide/homicide, depression, anxiety, alcoholism

A fat camp AU on request from BHJ. Dean is adamant that he shouldn't be at Camp Victory, a situation only slightly improved by the hotness of his councilor.

One Shot - Written for a prompt by squeemonster on Twitter. Dean gets really drunk and calls Castiel. Castiel helps him. Warnings for alcohol abuse and fluffy drunk pre-Destiel. References to the movies Ghost and Casablanca

Dean's drinking finally catches up to him and has to deal with it's consequences. The reality of long-term alcohol abuse and what happens during detox. A whole lot of Dean-angst. Dark issues discussed. Some graphic mentions of torture.

Dean, frenzy. A follow-up to two AU post-Hell traumatized!Dean fics, listed within. Warning for self-harm.

An illness prompts Dean's first visit to a doctor's office in ages, but he's more concerned about his weight than the flu. set in the Sandover AU from "It's A Terrible Life"; DeanxCas, chubby!Dean.

Sam Winchester had never been particularly intuitive. Dean-hurt, self harm

Dean’s first drunken moment isn’t as pleasant as people might think, trust Sam… he knows. Set in S1, flashback to teen!Dean and teen!Sam.

Dean's drunk. Really drunk.

Dean Winchester, in the years following Sam's departure for college, was not a very stable individual. Warnings: self-harm, drugs, alcoholism. OneShot.

Skin tag: He'd never seen Dean truly drunk before.

He had to do something to relieve that ache. Warnings: deals with self harm, some language. Ch 10 up! COMPLETE!