I didn't remember much of the night H.Y.D.R.A. manipulated me into volunteering for their science experiments that gave me powers. I managed to escape, and I was recruited by S.H.I.E.L.D. Then, I was assigned to be Fury's fail safe system to keep Loki contained. After that, it got worse, but I just wanted to be normal, but I could never do that since I didn't know how to heal.