last updated on May 7th, 2016, 7:13 PM Eastern Time: I was formerly known as UltraBeing, after this really old OC of mine from Animorphs fanfiction that sometimes called herself "Ultra Being" because she had a bunch of different abilities...

Hello, you awesome people of fanfiction.net! I have great news, and sad news... First, let me write out my sincere apology to you all. I’m really truly sorry to have left you all hanging for so long, without a word! I’ve been so, so busy. Busy like whoa! It’s not just about my job at my bookstore. There’s something much more, but I’ll get to explaining that in a little while.

Right now, I want to express on how amazing it’s been. Over seventy people have enjoyed this story. It really is incredible to witness how popular “Collide” has become! It brings me joy, and gratitude to know that this crazy train of creativity I’ve come up with has received so much love. I wish I could shake your hands, and give you autographs (haha)! With all of my being, I thank you!

Really, it sucks that I don’t have the time or funds to arrange a meet and greet at a fun event such as an anime convention. I truly wish I could arrange some sort of get-together and talk to you all.

How many of you live in my state, Maryland? I’m in the Southern MD area. To any readers who do, maybe we could arrange something (send me a PM)... I want to do what I can to make it up to at least some people, something really good and beneficial. Maybe together we could come up with a fun event, a meet and greet.

In addition, with that in mind, the best I can do for ALL of you is to break things down and tell you a lot of truth, starting with the bad news about my story. I’m starting to get that sinking feeling in my chest as I’m typing this part up. I hate to tell you this, I really do – but I’m going to have to put “Collide” on indefinite hiatus, for a really damn good reason.

Don’t leave yet! I have a really good and important explanation on why it has to happen! I thought about this quite a bit, soon after seeing an e-mail notification about my latest number of followers. After quite a bit that’s happened throughout this year, I figured it was time to apologize in all honesty and sincerity, in addition to introducing you towards important information, and wisdom to apply to your lives. It’s so important for all of you to know what I know.

(Is there really a limit of space as to how much I can put down into this profile page? I guess I’ll find out. I’ll continue the rest in a blog entry on my Dreamwidth account whenever I come across to that bridge.)

Everything I’m about to explain is all true. With the kind of imagination I have, it’s far too disturbing and elaborately troubling to make up what I must tell you. Most wouldn’t even picture certain things.

I’m not sure how many of you are aware on how criminal and dishonest the U.S. government is. The start of what I began to research on, a major part of that has got to deal with them!

Again, please don’t navigate away from this page. This is really important! Please read what I’ve got to say, all the way through to the end.

Before 2016 even started, I had seen videos about a certain government agency being accused of being very, very terrible. I tend to be an open-minded person, and I didn’t just disregard it as “conspiracy theory bunk.” Whenever I wasn’t writing anything, I would go on YouTube a lot. There’s so much on there, you know? There’s so much more than what most would ever imagine, more than funny animal videos and all the other entertainment videos, ranging from comedic, to gaming, to simple how-to videos, etc...

During one evening in January, I came across an old CBS News segment, dated 2007, about that certain government agency handfuls of users on YouTube have been focusing to expose and warn people about; the Federal Emergency Management Agency (FEMA).

How much news have you paid attention to, when it came to the devastating natural disaster that was Hurricane Katrina? Thousands of people lost their homes. FEMA came to the rescue very late, and gave them these white trailers for new homes.

What CBS News reported in 2007; these thousands of people had been getting seriously ill due to the unsafe levels of insulated formaldehyde. Formaldehyde, I’ve learned, is very toxic! Several people who were using these trailers for homes developed symptoms such as nose bleeds, headaches, burning of the eyes, chronic diarrhea, and respiratory problems. FEMA had tried to cover all this up, and they got caught!

I’ll leave you a link to that video I saw! (Please open each link in a new window or tab. There's still more to this message.) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TnA_NvDul6M

When I watched this, I was sure surprised. But, wait, there’s more!

I also saw another CBS News segment about these two trailer workers to speak out, on how poorly inspected the trailers were. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UQQcT0Tgpp4

FEMA is supposed to help people out during natural disasters, that’s official information about them on their website, along with what the mainstream media would say about them, most of the time.

Those two people were put under a lot of pressure from their bosses of the trailer manufacturer company called Gulfstream.

Of course, all that happened so long ago. Publicly, they’d have you believe that all is fine. There’s no more poisonous trailers anymore... “Bye bye to that problem! It all went away,” the mainstream media would say. Many would care less if they all just vanished into thin air, and not question it.

Soon after I saw those two CBS segments, I saw this 19 minute long documentary about the aftermath of the failed FEMA cover-up. I’ll link you to that as well. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rtj6o-cBHQE If you can’t spare that much time to watch, here’s the gist. After the Supreme Court trial, there was an order to hold all of those trailers as evidence. That ended in 2010. FEMA came to gather their trailers, and auctioned them off. They sold them in large lots for cheap! Whoever went to these auctions had resold them, and removed the “NOT FOR HOUSING” labels. Those who couldn’t afford safe houses or other brands of trailers and/or RVs – they were not informed or warned at all about the harmful dangers of formaldehyde!

Researcher and medical anthropologist Nicholas Shapiro, the host of the documentary “People are still living in FEMA’s toxic trailers”, tracked them down by vehicle identity number (VIN). He traveled all across the USA to locate the trailers, talk to the people who used them as homes, and tested to see if their homes for how poisonous they were.

This documentary was uploaded on YouTube in late August of last year.

I was so shocked about this. I searched on YT and Google for TV news reports about Nicholas Shapiro and the honest good work he had done. I found only one alternative news report article (maybe a few more) about this. No major TV network or newspaper reports, not a single one!

In that documentary, there’s no “special movie effects”, and I even found information about Shapiro. I’ll share that with you. (Ugh FF profile editing won't allow me to put down many links. I'm really sorry about that. Just look up "Nicolas Shapiro medical anthropologist" on Google.)

In seeing all those videos and doing quite a bit of research, that’s when I woke up. I began to question why! FEMA is still in business. Why didn’t any news reporters talk to Shapiro? Why didn’t any police enforcement do anything to lock those incompetent crooks up? This is about SEVERAL innocent people, who weren’t warned about the dangers of long-exposure to formaldehyde, to which is used to preserve the dead. This is also in pesticides, right?

That’s when I began to wonder about other terrible government crimes the mainstream media doesn’t report about... I even found some books in my bookstore that went into extensive detail on suspicious criminals within the government, about some of Obama’s Czars. People in his administration. There have definitely been some I have done a little research on.

Alan Bersin is someone from the Department of Homeland Security (DHS), who was giving court representatives the run around months back. He wasn’t giving any straight answers as to why certain immigrants were overstaying their visas. On YouTube, search for my playlist "Info about Obama's Czars I find interesting". The Alan Bersin video is at the bottom.

FEMA and DHS have been working together. R. David Paulison, who’s in the CBS News segment about the failed FEMA cover up, was not only a former director. He was also the first Under Secretary for DHS! Google his name and you'll find out that info on Wikipedia.

If you’re not already concerned about this, then you’re not giving this much thought! There are people who run things in America who are criminals! They are selfish, greedy criminals who don’t give a shit about any of us.

There’s even more that I found out, this past January. What absolutely shocked, upset, and angered me was the alarming and ugly truth about schools! I found this book, by a public affairs speaker from Washington D.C. Beverly K. Eakman has had a distinguished career in both politics and education. Her book, “Educating for the New World Order” goes into much, MUCH detail about what a mother of three children in Washington County, Pennsylvania. What started as a complaint about a personality profiling assessment test in the mid 1980’s had turned into a massive investigation into a whole lot of other illegal activities!

Some of you might be shaking your heads, or rolling your eyes while thinking, “Oh great, she’s turned into a conspiracy theorist nutjob!” Well, let me tell you this. I have researched into quite a number of things that I read about from Eakman’s book. There's more info that's not by Anita Hoge (the mother of the 3 kids who are likely all grown up by now) or Beverly Eakman about the psychological manipulation technique known as the Delphi Technique. Google search!

There are people known as change agents who don’t major in college on how to subtly provoke and orchestrate the flow of group meetings. Of course not! Some of you are probably in college, right? Have you ever learned about any of that, about how psychology can be used as a tool to manipulate and exploit others? I didn’t. I’ve been looking up the information for myself.

I found some of the leaked government agency documents Eakman and Hoge have looked at, including Ronald G. Havelock’s “Training for Change Agents: A Guide to the Design of Training Programs in Education and Other Fields”. This goes into depth as to how the Delphi Technique works. I didn’t read all the way through this PDF file, but I sure have found the places Eakman had referenced from this training manual that people in the U.S. Department of Health, Welfare, and Education have looked at. This was first published in the early 70’s.

If you want to read that PDF for yourselves, just PM me. I'll share you the link from my Dropbox account. There’s a LOT to read there, and so far I read enough from Eakman’s book to understand how the Delphi Technique works with school staff. Teachers in workshops and during inservice days get brainwashed (and usually don’t realize it until it’s too late) to teach propagandized lessons to kids. That manual is about how to become an advocator-organizer-agitator, and get away with it. It has nothing to do with supporting anyone as individuals. This is about GROUP THINK, thinking as a collective whole.

How much do you know about the Common Core Standards? I’ve been researching into that a lot, and I tell ya, academics is not really a priority! (How many of you are still students? How many of you have recently graduated? You realize that you did all that testing for nothing, right? Those tests are only beneficial to a bunch of lunatic crooks!)

My education was quite decent, thanks to Anita Hoge. I graduated from high school in 2002, and took over my family’s bookstore business soon after that.

I found Anita Hoge on Twitter while I was in the middle of reading Eakman’s book. She’s an underdog American hero who still protests and gets the word out to people. I thanked her. I had to, because I know I didn’t see any seriously upsetting films in any of my classes. I didn’t have to take any tests that questioned my privacy, values, and beliefs. (However, in middle school, they tried to keep me in special ed. They claimed I couldn’t predict outcomes. Not to their standards anyway! I wrote stories in my spare time, and I was a great speller! People like that love money more than guiding their students towards academic achievement.)

I’ve learned so much mind boggling information that I did not learn in school at all. When I was first learning a great deal about this stuff, I felt so shocked, betrayed, and furious. I still get furious, and frustrated sometimes, but I can’t let myself get too angry.

After reading Eakman’s book all the way through, I’ve never been able to look or think of things the same way again.

All of you need to understand this. There is so much wickedness that’s hidden in plain sight! There is also plenty of truth you can easily search for online. As soon as you’re growing up in this world, you go through the indoctrination on how to be a good citizen, and how to obey and contribute to the whole of society. How to obey people of authority who don’t really care about you, sick or healthy, dead or alive.

There’s so much. Don’t bother educating yourselves about everything all at once! If you try to breath it all in, you’ll suffocate. You would be so overwhelmed. You’ve got to learn it all a chunk at a time! That’s how I’ve been doing it!

This is why I haven’t been doing much fanfiction writing at all, and I believe I’ve explained plenty for now. Through my words, I hope I’ve knocked enough sense into you. Please, please do not take this information for granted.

Hold onto your individuality, your identity. Stay true to yourselves. Never forget who you are, and don’t trust the government! Don’t trust the mainstream media either! They lie all the time. They’re so good at lying and telling you what you want to hear, as well as influencing in subliminal ways on how you should think, feel, and act.

Don’t allow yourselves to be dumbed-down sheeple. A bunch of free-thinkers is something they don’t want, and it’s what they’re terrified of. They’re even more scared about death, and they would do anything to ensure their survival; deceiving, killing, stealing, and profiting from all of that. Never forget this!

Also, there’s more of us than there are of them! We’re the 99 percent! They are the fucked up 1 percent! They make the laws for us to follow, while they believe they’re free to do whatever greedy, nasty, insane things they want - which isn’t fair at all!

I’ve given what I could to you for now. Share my knowledge to everyone you care about, and use my profile for reference to look back on! Do your own research while you still can, at your own pace. Rushing to know all there is to know won't benefit you. You might miss or skip over certain details! You must be thorough.

Remember what I said earlier, about a meet and greet, to anyone who's a fan in MD. PM me if you are interested in planning anything...

Find me on Twitter! My username: darkwriter00, about the same as my pen name on fanfiction dot net! Anita Hoge's Twitter accounts: HogeAnita and HDawn29