Coming back to FanFiction is like returning to a crack den after several years of sobriety. It's dark, it's addictive and you know it's not that good for but you do it anyway.

I used to write under another pseudonym and I found that I spent so much time writing fan fiction that I could barely stop. Like many of you, I want to be a writer and while this site helped me do just that, I became very lazy and self-indulgent. I didn't want to stop writing about these characters who had so much emotional depth, such a detailed backstory both in canon, and in my head. And I was terrified to have to return to the real world and create that intricacy and engagement out of nothing.

Nowadays, I still have insecurities about writing and I always wish I could do more. But I just figure that if I'm going to waste my time by not writing original fiction I might as well be writing fan fiction. Or that could be a whopping excuse, and I'm simply, selfishly reverting to my old habits. We'll see how it goes.

My main fandom is Torchwood. I fell in love with Doctor Who first but for whatever reason I couldn't write fanfiction for it. Torchwood is like its mysterious, twisted older cousin. The characters are darker and more vulnerable. And I love all of them. That means ALL of them. I cannot tolerate character bashing because it is not true to the show. I also find that flawed characters are more interesting, especially those with inner conflict i.e. Jack or Gwen.