Hey Everybody,

I'm new to fanfiction and my name is Corey, but my pen name is BlackishRed Rose. The reason being is I have been through a lot. I understand there are people in the world today that have been through worst. I decided on BlackishRed Rose because I see it as for of a symbolic meaning. The black resembles everything old and dead and the red resembles everything that is still alive and breathing for life. I see it as for every closing door or ending there will always be a door opening or a new beginning if we see it or not. I tend not to see them mainly because i old hold to things for a very long time and don't know how to let them go.

My parents are divorce and have been for the past 15 or so years. I was there when they had the final fight before they got a divorce and I know that it's not my fault but when I'm lonely and depressed I blame myself for every little thing bad that happened in the past on myself. I don't know why or how to stop. I like to write peotry but the only good stuff I write is when I'm upset, sad, depressed, full of hate, and so on, and so forth.

I love to watch 7th Heaven, Supernatural, Charmed, Secret Life of An American Teenager, Degrassi The Next Generation, and most things that deal with teenage drama. Also I like to watch ABDC (America's Best Dance Crew) on mtv. I like more Jesse McCartney type music but for the most part I'll listen to anything except head-banging, scream into the microphone type music. I love to play my flute and get frustrated when I try to play my violin because I used to plat before I moved to another school district that didn't have a strings program. I just forgot the fingerings and I fell as if, if I can't just pick it up and start playing like I used to I just fail; I know that it's not true because I just have to start practicing. I also love to do creative writing. You can do so much with it and you are the potter and your story is the clay. You can shape and mold it the way you want.

I am in college studing Psychology. I want to be a psychologist from the ages of middle school till about the first year of college. Mainly because I find this time the hardest time in anybody's life. Middle schoolers are to old for this but not old enought to do that, high schoolers are always full of drama with the whole "I'm in love with such and such a person", when really that don't know what love is; I still don't know what love is and I'm 19. Thee the seniors in high school and the 1st year college students are trying to figure out what they want to do and what their reason is for being on earth. I want to be there to help these ages deal with their problems. Some I may be able to help because I went through the experience and actually know what it is like. I hate how people say "Well I understand what you are going through because I...read about it, researched it," or whatever their reason. Unless you actually go through it, you don't know what it is like or even understand what the person is going through. Others I may be able to help from the other people I helped. I wouldn't use their name just their experience as an example to show that there are other people out there going trough what they are and that there are people whp do actually understand and know what it is like.