220ish: "And this is how it is that you come to be standing so stupidly in front of him, why it is that you do the only thing that you can do in this moment, which is to leave him, to walk out of his loft and away from him without even once looking back."

The Brian and Justin moments that the show didn't give us ... - There's a better description in the author's note of the first chapter - i'm just useless at summaries! -